A drabble fic from Kikyo's point of view. Suikotsu x Kikyo. Hinted violence.
Who would have known so pure heart could be hiding such darkness?
The moment when your gentle touch and smile fades away all there's left is fear and pain.
I'm not afraid of pain, I've never been that just the way I was raised. I feel pain but I keep telling myself it's not you who is hurting me. Cause I know you.
It doesn't matter how many times I'm yelled at, how many times I'm hurt by your hands. It's he who is hurting me, not you. Not the man I fell in love with.
I've dedicated my life for fighting darkness but I know I cant win this battle. He laughs at me, thinks I'm ridiculous. I agree, after all it's my feelings towards you that keep my from winning, I'm ridiculous for having such feelings.
I cant hurt him cause I don't want to hurt you. I cant purify him and make him disappear cause he's a part of you. I can run. I can leave and run away but I don't want to. Cause I know if I wait long enough I will see you again.
There's no light without darkness so there's no darkness without light. When his darkness fades again for a moment I will meet you. And you will be there. Smiling at me, slowly leading me in a gentle kiss promising he will never hurt me again.
But we both know you're lying.