Oh, Fairy Tail, the only guild that could celebrate their loss. One of the many reasons Lisanna loved that guild so much. "…a party for losing in the first day of the games, huh? Well, couldn't expect for any less." She heard Wakaba talk to Macao. "That's what you get when our members come back, complete and total chaos." They both laughed, like old men who were reminded of their youth days. "That's Fairy Tail for ya'!"
They were always so lively and upbeat, even at the most miserable times, these people, these mages, this family of hers. She sure had missed the chaos that they irrupted each time they had a bottle of sake in their hands. Yet the takeover mage couldn't help but to feel a bit down, seeing how she felt so alone in all of that crowed. Even Mira was occupied talking to the master.
Staring at the cluster of mages, she was filled with a bitter-sweet feeling. Her eyes observed her surrounding with curiosity of an explorer, analyzing new behaviors and body languages. Her gaze was jumping from Cana who was drinking straight from the barrel as usual, to Erza who was talking with Laki, to Laxus who was… well, observing everyone from above. Lastly her eyes fell on two figures. It was- …Natsu and Lucy. Of course it was them.
Natsu and Lucy were sitting together by the bar, drinking sake and recalling their past missions together. "You sure got strong, Lucy!" Natsu praised the celestial mage. "You really amazed me in the battle against that Raven Tail bitch!" He pounded his fist against the wooden deck. "We'll beat those scumbags for sure!" His fists were now burning. Before he could yell that he's all fired up, Lucy laughed and patted his arm. "I'm sure we will. Just don't run around wrecking things here, were not in the guild…" She said as they continued to drink and laugh, until Natsu noticed Lisanna from afar.
All types of painful emotions swarmed into Lisanna's heart, seeing Natsu and Lucy. Looking at them, seeing them together, it made her feel dreadful. Her palm rested on her chest, as if she was trying to prevent her heart from breaking by attempting to hold on to it. She couldn't help those feelings of envy and despair seeing those two together. She just couldn't stomach it. It pained her, to see Lucy with Natsu and not herself. Lisanna felt replaced.
Then she noticed that Natsu was glaring at her from the corner of his eye, his signature smile starting to spread on his lips. Following him, Lucy cocked her head as well to figure out what Natsu was gazing at. Oh no… Is he going to- "Oi, Lisanna, come sit with us!" He shouted from the other side of the room while waving his hand. Sadly enough, Lucy also smiled and waved for her to join.
"Oh, how can I think these horrible things about her?" A flashback of her own voice yelled out in her mind as her eyes tried to avert from looking on those two sitting together. Lisanna once broke down from these feelings, ending up yelling and crying in her room after the guilt ate through her. How could she feel so horribly over a person as kind as Lucy? Lisanna always thought that she was a good person, yet these horrid thoughts never left her mind when seeing her with Natsu. 'I should be glad to see Natsu so happy, shouldn't I? I-I can't envy Lucy for being close to him. It's not her fault!' Her mind was pleading as anger was beginning to build up in her system again. She was angry at herself. Angry for letting those emotions take place in her heart.
But it couldn't be helped, Lisanna was jealous. She was jealous and heartbroken.
She then stood up, leaving her glass of sake behind as her feet tapped along the brick floor of the restaurant. 'All I need is just some fresh air… I-I'll be fine.' She thought to herself as she felt the heavy teardrops that formed in her eyes threatening to collapse and roll down her face. Her cheeks were already warm and red from the appalling emotions that were cramped in her heart. She never had anyone to talk about it, about her state. Despite her habit of not speaking her emotions, Lisanna still had the need to talk about to someone. But since everyone all loved Lucy so much, she didn't know how it would seem to talk about her jealousy towards the celestial mage. Lisanna always liked Lucy, which only made things harder for her. She felt terrible even talking about it.
"Do you think she noticed that we called her?" Lucy questioned with a disappointed look as she and Natsu glared at Lisanna while she was walking away. "Sorry Luce, I need to see what happened." Natsu quickly stood up and followed the takeover mage's steps. 'I'm pretty sure she saw us. Was she trying to avoid me again…?' He questioned as he began to walk.
Natsu was no fool; ever since Lisanna came back he noticed how she always seemed to vanish whenever he came to the guild. She always had something to do, or suddenly felt ill, or any kind of excuse that can be made to avoid being in the presence of a certain person. She was clever enough to deceive everyone, and almost him, but he noticed the pattern that has developed over time. He never really understood why she did it, yet it still offended him. He didn't like the fact that Lisanna was avoiding him, but he felt selfish to bring it up after all that she went through. He figured that it would fade as time passed, and that he would either care less or that she would come about and stop doing what she did. Neither of those happened, and Natsu's hurt feelings began to pile up.
"Lisanna, is everything alright?" She heard her sister ask as she crossed the restaurant towards the front door. Avoiding looking in Mirajane's eyes, Lisanna nodded as she continued to walk. "F-fine. I-I just need some air." Her voice sounded weak and somewhat broken. Mirajane knew that Lisanna was upset, but thought it'd be better to let her be. Lisanna always knew to come to her Mira-nee when she needed the help.
Palm pushing the cold, big handle down, Lisanna leaned her body to shove the door open. She felt the cold air hit her face in a relieving sensation. She sat on the steps near the entrance, her knees pressing close to her chest, chin leaning on them. Staring blankly at the empty street, everything suddenly became so… Quiet. The loud noises that came from within were somewhat muted, silenced behind the doors of the structure that held them inside. She was suddenly able to think more clearly. That is, until she heard the door slam open behind her with a breeze mixed with hot and cold air at the same time hit her back and hair. "Hey Lisanna where are-" She heard a familiar voice call out from behind her. "Oh, there you are." He said as his feet step closer to her.
"What happened, why did you come out all of a sudden?" The pink haired boy sat by her side. Her gaze still looking down on the street's floor, Lisanna didn't bother to look at him. Hair covering most of her face, it was probably the best way to avoid Natsu from seeing the tears in her eyes. "I-I just needed to breath." She muttered. Her voice was surprisingly light, as if she was not about to break down any second now. She couldn't stay here any longer.
Just when Natsu was about to speak, Lisanna stood up. "Lisanna?" He questioned as his gaze looked up at the takeover mage that towered by his side. He felt confused and anger started to build up in him. Even if she always ran away from him, she never actually brushed him off when he approached her. "I-I think I'll go to my room." He heard her voice say as she turned around, her back facing him now. He quickly stood up as his arm automatically stretched out to grab her shoulder and hold her back. "Hold on." He stated with a low, serious tone. "Don't think that you can keep on avoiding me like that." His hand pulled her shoulder, softly pushing her body to face him. He finally said it, and that was not all he had to say.
"If you think that I didn't notice you suddenly disappearing every time I come to the guild, think again." His hands rested on both of her shoulders. "Look at me, Lisanna, tell me what I did wrong." His voice started to rise as he continued talking, feeling his blood rushing through his veins as he recalled every time he felt like the takeover mage didn't want to be in his presence. "Tell me why is it that every time that you see me you vanish in mid air!" He suddenly noticed he was speaking loudly and pulled back, lowering his tone. "…don't you care about your friends anymore?"
Suddenly the smell of a salty odor floated in Natsu's nose. He cocked his head to look at her; her hair still covered her face but he could see the big tears falling down. Lisanna was… crying? Because of him?