Told from the perspective of a mature Finn…
~Based upon the song "When I was your man" by "Bruno Mars"
You don't know what you have until you lose it… That's a lesson I learned the hard way.
I didn't know that my little game would lead us to the chaos, us including the innocent Ice King. I just wanted to see her power, to see how she could handle the situation, to see her… show me her love.
There were many reasons why I loved her.
She is strong, more than me I should admit; she can be the fiercest and most powerful person in battle and still be the beautiful and delicate princess who protects those she love at any cost…
She is very clever. She rules a kingdom by herself after all, she could tell whenever I felt down or when I was being weird around her… even when I was a little nervous around her. She always knows…
She is mighty. I was so taken aback when I saw her fight for first time; the delicate Flame Princess was nowhere to be seen, instead, I saw a confident, powerful and beautiful Flame Princess defending herself. Anyone could tell that by her size she is dependent of a protector, a bodyguard, a guardian. Little did they know that that delicate princess of silken skin could overcome an entire army by herself...
If I just had acted different that day…
My childish behavior caused that awesome, strong girl to walk out my life, if I just had acted less selfish and less childish, she would still be with me. Warming my heart and soul, her very presence is enough to fill my being with content. She has taken away from me my only hopes of loving back again. I only loved her; she was my muse, my happiness, my friend, my lover. I'm not sure if I'll ever love back…
Jake, Marceline and Princess Bubblegum try their best to make me gain sanity; they try to reassure me saying comforting words to me, they take me out to places so I can refresh my mind and heart from the heartbreak. But it's just too hard for me to be normal again… Does it ever happen to you that no matter what you do no matter what you try, you just can't stop thinking about it?
My conscience does not stop reminding me how I screwed it. I know I should have been more honest, to value her more. I know I should have helped her control her powers, instead of using them for my own pleasure. I know that I should have been a better company for her; otherwise she had not sought for Cinnamon Bun's arms.
And though words can't describe how I'm feeling right now towards her, although is useless now, and that it hurts to remember, I need to tell her that I was wrong and she was right, right as she always is. I know I'm probably much too late to try and apologize for my mistakes, but in view that I can't change the past nor can I make up for what I did, the only thing that I have left to tell is that I just want her to know that I hope she meets someone who can really value her, someone who can be completely honest to her, to protect her from any bastard that would want to harm her, someone who can help her with her problems.
I hope she finds that perfect man that she has been looking for, a perfect man that could do all the things that I should have done… When I was her man…