Two Worlds Apart

"I know you're hurting Dan,"

Phil pounded on Dan's door once. His voice shook with emotion and his bright blue eyes glistened with painful tears as they streaked down his red cheeks. His nails dug into the door, almost as a way to ground himself from the current emotions that swam in his gut. His voice croaked as he spoke quietly to Dan through the door.

"Dan please…I'm trying to fix this, just let me try to-"

A loud sob erupted from inside the door and Phil's ears strained to hear the small chortles of muffled crying. His heart painfully constricted in his chest at the thought of Dan crying all afternoon- worst of all, he knew deep down it was his fault.

I don't know how to tell you I'm in love with you

You Are (Were) the Best Thing in My Life

"God dammit Dan, why can't you act normally in social situations?" The sentence that spewed out of Phil's mouth and it was too quick to take it back. The effect was immediate and both Dan and Phil took a step away from each other as the words finally settled in both of their hearts.

Dan lowered his eyesight to the floor and he stuffed his hands in his pickets to stop his asking fists. He knew that if he were to open his mouth he knew he might say something he'll regret at the moment.

Freak

Useless

Why the hell are you even alive?

Dan looked up to meet Phil's eyes. The eyes he once enjoyed seeing were wide and filled with regret and unbridled fire behind them rather than the usual fondness that was usually reserved for him. His eyesight started to blur and without a warning, tears started to flood down his face.

Please don't go

Don't let me stay alone

We're supposed to be best friends

Dan sank to the floor and crimped onto the tile. Panic floored his body and he started to gasp for air as he clutched his chest. Phil immediately fell to his side, his heart in his throat. Dan curled up in a fetal position and Phil put aside what he felt for Dan to help him through this. He had never seen one of his attacks affect him so badly before. Dan on the other hand, he gripped his hair like it was a lifeline and his iron tight grip was ripped apart form Phil.

Dan sewn shut eyes suddenly opened and when he did, he saw an ocean of blue swirls in Phil's eyes. The specks of gold and green he saw in his eyes startled him and stunned him enough for Phil to wrap his arms around Dan and squeeze him tightly. Phil's chest was ripped opened when he saw Dan visibly shake because of the hug.

Dan quietly sobbed as he snaked his pale arms around Phil.

Just don't let go of me

Say you won't leave me

I know I'm selfish, but I loved you since I was 18

I can't lose you now-

Not when I need you the most

"Dan.."

"..yes Phil?"

"I…I can't d-do this anymore more oh god"

"Phil without you I'm nothing, you can't expect me not to cry."

"…"

"I have to let you go Dan"

"You don't get it Phil..."

"YOU DON'T! I FUCKING LOVE YOU SO MUCH IT HURTS"

"…"

"I'm sorry..."

Phil dropped his head and he got up and left the sobbing Dan behind, gently shutting the door behind him as he walked out of the apartment. Tears streamed down his face as he pulled out the phone to contact the unknown number. He dialed it and in an agonizing silence when it picked up, he whispered:

"There, is that you wanted you bastard?"

The voice chuckled and responded with a deep "yes" and in a shaky tone Phil asked another question.

"And you won't hurt him anymore will you; you'll leave him alone if I go?"

The voice chuckled. "The damage you've done to him is more than I could've ever done to him physically, you broke him better than I could ever have."

Phil hung up with a shaking finger. His whole body shook and as he walked down the street, his world crumpled beneath his feet.

Dan

His laugh

My sunshine

My best friend

Is there anything else I could've done?

God how can I live with myself after this?

Phil's feet came to a stop.

I trust you more than myself Phil...

You dork I'll always stay by your side

You make me feel special Phil

Your smile's the best Phil

I never had a best friend for the first 18 years of my life...until I met you Phil

Phil was running before he knew it. The tears that flowed down from his cheeks stung from the cold winter that settled upon the city. He didn't feel it. he didn't feel anything at all. The pounding of his feet was all that reached his ears as he ran back to the place where he called home. With Dan.

Oh god Dan I'm so sorry

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In the end, Phil should've known what he had caused would have repercussions.

He kicked the door down when he found it locked. He jiggled and when he heard no sounds he panicked and channeled whatever strength he had form the adrenaline to kick the door down with all the force he had.

"DAN!"

Phil screamed as he ran around the apartment looking for him. His mind was numb from fright.

Oh god he fucked up

Dan...

Phil started to cry when he couldn't find him. The apartment was tossed and turned by his whirlwind of motion.

He pulled out his phone to call 999 when he heard a thump. Fearing the best and worst, he quickly made his way to the direction of the sound and he came upon the door. His hand shaking he gently pulled open the door.

"Oh god Dan I'm so sorry for what I did, I have something to tell y-"

Red.

Blood red.

That' all Phil saw.

His body shut down as he neared the person on the floor with the blood surrounding him. The face was laid down to the floor but there's no way that Phil can be mistaken.

"Oh god...Dan."Phil cupped his hand to quit from vomiting when he flipped Dan over to his front to see his beat up face and the gash wound on his stomach. He gently cupped his head and laid him on his lap, tears falling freely down his face. His sobs wracked his body as he held Dan's body. He did't know when the screaming started but it stopped when he felt a hand twitch and a head press harder against his stomach.

Phil sharply looked down to see Dan and his beautiful, beautiful chocolate brown eyes. Phil had never seen much a more beautiful sight.

Phil...I'm sorry

Phil intook a quick breath. "D-Dan... of fuck I was trying to p-protect you, I couldn't tell you because then they would've taken you-u!" Phil hiccuped.

Dan placed his hand on top of his.

I'm sorry I never told you how much you mean to me

Not a day goes by without me thinking how grateful I am for having you...

Phil stumbled to his phone. "Dan there's gonna be a chance to tell me this I just gotta call 999 and then you'll be s-safe and then we can spend anime mornings all together ok?" Phil sagged in relief as the monotone voice responded through the phone.

"My friend as been stabbed in the stomach, oh god I don't know what to do-there's so much blood-"

Dan let out a hacking sound and Phil's eyes widened as blood poured out of his mouth and speck the floor. Phil let his phone drop to catch Dan from hacking anymore. Dan started to tear up because of the pain and the blood that rushed out of his gash pooled onto Phil's shirt. All his attention was on the most important person of his life.

Phil please let me speak before I die

Phil refused to give up. he shook his head. "We're gonna get you help, just hold on a bit long-"

Phil you spork I love you and before I..die I want you to know you made my life worth living

Fresh tears made an appearance on Phil's face.

"Dan please I-"

Dan chuckled softly.

This wasn't supposed to be the way I told you. I had it all planned out. I was actually planning on asking you tomorrow, on your birthday

"Dan save your energy please." Phil spoke rather quickly, not wanting his to pour his heart to the younger boy in front of him. Cracks on his heart started to appear when Dan closed his eyes. His skin seemed paper white and the bruising contrasted his usually soft face.

"The soft face I usually imagine holding to my chest" Phil thought.

Phil loves everything about Dan.

The way he can never fail to make him smile.

The way his face erupts with such a fondness that it makes his heart that he can't kiss him then and there.

When he erupts with red hue when they accidentally touch and hold each other.

The constant figure of him being stuck to his side like glue never failed to make him feel at ease because well-Dan is home.

He...he loved Dan with his heart ever since he bonded with him, all those years ago.

Dan's hand and head went limp and Phil was abruptly pulled away from his thoughts. He heard distant yelling and alarms but that didn't stop the fear seizing his heart when he couldn't find Dan's pulse anymore.

Oh god Dan

DAN

FUCK

Phil banged his fists against the floor once before he frantically started to cover his wound to stop the blood from flowing more out. He ripped his shirt off of him. His fingers trembled as he kept whispering sweet nothings to Dan as he wrapped him up.

"Dan you're my best friend."

One wrap.

"You're the one that has the beautiful personality."

A second one.

"You have to live, not only for your family but for me, I-"

A third wrap.

"I-I need you."Phil swallowed heavily as he pulled on the wrap one last time.

I love you.

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Dan smiled to himself and he gathered enough energy to clench his fingers softly around Phil's rather large ones and muster out "I love you too" before slipping into a sea of blackness and never-ending wave of sleep.

Dan accepted it with open arms, never hearing Phil's heart stopping yells for him.