Thirst and Hunger

Disclaimer: I have some kinder chocolates, that is all.

Notes: Ha, not internet for two weeks and school coming drives me insane. I decided when I had some time off from going places, I should write. First it was just a few blurbs but it developed into well this. Each chapter has a different narration view. For the first part, It is in Axel's point of view, but narrated by someone else. The next chapter will continue where the last chapter roughly left off. So most likely the pattern will be Axel, Roxas, Axel, etc. Before each chapter a little blurb will be said directly in Axel's/Roxas' point of view, like below, then the chapter will start.

Summery: AU AkuRoku, one sided. He thought he was addicted to drugs, but maybe he was just addicted to him. How can you treat someone who has an addiction to a person?

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Prologue I – Chapter I

I guess this is where my story starts. If you have time I'll tell it to you, I don't know why exactly I'm telling you...Who cares? Just listen to me alright? I deserve that much. Now some things about me.

Part One; Family:

I wasn't always this messed up; I mean no one is born like this. I was raised in a cold and distant family, my father the stereotypical money source and my mother the homemaker.

I guess she failed at the job since I never felt I had a home, just a place to sleep. We never really fought, sometimes I wished we would have fought. We never could face each other and just speak like a normal family should. That is what normal families do, right? Like I'd know, normal is something I never bothered to look up in a dictionary.

Part Two; Social/School Life:

Around this time I had a few steady 'friends', most of them I was friends since 6th grade. I didn't exactly have a best friend, just people I could be around and speak to. Looking back, I'm not sure I had any friends at all. Sure, we hung out and such, but not a single one of them understood me. How could they? I don't even understand myself now. There was one guy, he was a good kid...yes was, I ruined him. I'll go in more detail later, he's a very big chunk of my story. You most likely will get sick of this guy by the time I'm half way through telling you my story.

Now school, I was an apathetic student, but my grades were decent though. You know those really lame comments on report cards? Stuff that says, number two: does not pay attention in class. Yah those, I got those a lot. I never cared if my teachers liked me or not. I just didn't pay attention to them, they'd yap, I'd read the lesson on my own and take the test. I forgot what grade I was in when this all started, I could start it at 11th grade, but that'd take too long. So I guess I'll start at 12th, what I thought was going to be my best year ever. Now that I graduated, and haven't been there for awhile. I miss that damn place, at least there was order and a daily routine there. I miss being bored; you'll understand when I'm done.

Part Three; About me:

I never really gave anyone the whole 'about me' speech. I remember in 6th grade it was one of our projects, and I was the only kid who couldn't explain who they were. The teacher was pissed; I can still see her angry eyes. She assumed I was a lazy brat, but it wasn't that. I couldn't tell people about myself, since I really had no idea. So if this whole about me thing is shitty, I have a reason for it, alright?

I'm not a good person, mothers tell their children to avoid people like me. You'd think I'd be offended, but if I was a parent...Wait no, no that is one hell of a scary thought. You get what I mean, right? Too bad if you don't. I don't really care what others think about me, I do whatever I want. Some people used to think it was what made me 'cool'. I like pleasure and pain, which brings misery most of the time. Misery loves to 'bless' me with its presence, and sometimes I wonder why I don't push it away. Maybe I just can't, or maybe it's the only thing I can feel these days. Misery keeps me human, I guess I really do need it.

I don't do love, I only feel lust. I rather just get straight to sex, forget the whole courting and wooing shit. I never really even had the desire to kiss someone, or be with someone till him. Yes, I like guys, girls too. I guess which ever is the most fuckable at the time. So back to the whole desire to be with someone, remember that good boy I talked about before? Something about him forever changed me. He made me feel like maybe he understood me. High hopes, and I never hope or wish. He never understood me, maybe I wanted something between us. My mind fucked with me, and tricked me into believing he understood me.

Now you're guessing how I ended up here, right? Well maybe it was my parents, friends, or just myself. I'm surprised I still have a nose, and I can still smell. I like nose candy, along with smack, I'm not big on speed, though I don't mind some weed. I'm weak when it comes to those things; I think I'm getting better at this whole control thing. Go that all memorized? Good, good you're going to need it. I guess that's my tagline, I used to use it a lot more often. Not so much anymore, it feels weird saying it again.

Anything else? Oh my name, I guess that's important. It's Axel, now what's yours?

I'm just a soul whose intentions are good…

Axel was in his last class of the day, he bit his lip while watching the clock. Five, four, three, two, one…RING. He sighed and quickly walked out the door, ignoring tonight's government homework. He swung his backpack onto his left shoulder and walked to his locker. It had been exactly one month since school started, he was finally a senior. This was the year he could give a big 'fuck you!' to everyone he ever hated.

He turned his lock to open his locker, and the latch undid. He slid in his books, and took home others. His locker was messy, mostly full of assignments or detention notices. He picked one up, and read it. He had to serve it by today, or he'd get suspended. He groaned, if he got suspended this early in the year, he for sure wouldn't be able to graduate. He groaned and slammed his locker.

He walked through the halls past the girls with those really short shorts, past the football jocks, and past those punk kids with weird band names on their shirts. He saw the dean's office and decided to wait till the door opened. He leaned against the wall, crossing his thin arms. He looked up and down the hall, the usual people were there. There were the freshmen who were still clueless about high school, the two boys who got into a fist fight at lunch, and a few girls with inappropriate attire. He then saw someone he had seen around, but never really talked to. His name slipped his mind at the time, he knew the kid was really smart. He had gotten some academic award the end of last year. Axel watched him as he talked to an office attendant. Axel couldn't hear what they were talking about, and too many people were in his way to read their lips. As soon as he saw the boy, he was gone.

"Axel! Detention too, huh?" Axel turned his head to face his friend, Demyx. Demyx gave a smile and patted Axel on the back. Axel nodded towards the other boy then looked straight ahead.

"Well, at least it won't be as boring. Hey Riku wanted me to ask you something" Axel once again looked at the blonde and gestured a 'go on'.

"He's having a party tonight, his parents are away-like always, he wants you to come meet his new boy-toy" Demyx smirked and laughed lightly. Axel just blinked then sighed. Another party, at least it was a good way to pass the time. Way better than just staying at home getting drunk on his own. Maybe he'd score too, parties brought dealers, and he hadn't had a good snort in awhile.

"I'll come, what time?" Demyx handed Axel a card with the time written on it. It started at ten P.M., now the only problem was what to do the other five hours?

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He was finally released from detention. The dean decided that Demyx and Axel in the detention hall at the same time wasn't a good idea, and forced Demyx to serve his detention the following Monday. It was five and the sun was setting. The sky was a pastel red with hints of white and yellow. The sun was a blazing red with an orange glow, it was pretty for a parking lot.

He grabbed his car keys from his pocket and opened the card door. He came to an intersection, and decided to run the red light. He made it, but then realized a person was crossing the street. He braked, and luckily he was the only car out on the road. The person fell back a few feet from the impact and fell in front of the car. Axel ran out of his car and saw a boy on a floor, he had seen this kid before.

"Hey, I had no idea you were crossing, but you should really watch where you going." He helped the boy up, who frowned towards him, brushing off the gravel from his clothes.

"I'd say the same to you, but at least you didn't just drive off. I'm fine by the way, not a single scratch. Though my back feels a bit sore" the boy rubbed his back and gave a weak smile.

"Sorry. Hey, I've seen you around do you attend-" The boy nodded

"I've seen you around too, Axel right? Riku has told me about you, I'm Sora." Sora extended his hand out and Axel clasped it.

"Heh, you know Riku too. He and I go way back, but that's long and boring story. Hey since I almost ran you over, do you want a ride home?"

"That'd be great! Wait, you aren't some crazy stalker, are you?" Axel frowned while Sora laughed nervously.

"I'm taking that as a no. You never know, there are so many nutty violent people out in this world. Better to be safe than sorry, I guess" Axel opened the passenger side of his car and Sora slowly climbed in. Axel then got into his car and they were off to Sora's house, which was only about a mile away.

"So…Sora, how do you know Riku?" Axel broke the silence which grew between them.

Sora blinked and a smile slowly formed onto his face. "We met over the summer, he's a great guy. I bet you know that already since you've known him so long." Axel assumed this was the boy toy Demyx was talking about before. Sora didn't seem like Riku's type, at least that's what Axel thought. Riku didn't go for these innocent, kind, understanding kids. Though, resisting the allure of an innocent virgin who is head over heels for you isn't exactly easy. The only problem was the baggage they force you to carry once you become their 'first'.

"Ha, ya sure Riku is a good guy. He's a better person than me, though most people are"

"Oh come on, don't be so hard on yourself, Riku makes you out to be a decent guy" Axel was confused, what exactly did Riku tell this poor soul? Riku was always watching out for Axel. When Axel was shit-faced, Riku was the one who let him stay over and took care of him. Then Riku would lecture him about his lifestyle and choices, and always say 'one day I might not be there when you need me, what then?' Axel could hear that line in his head. Riku was the only one who truly cared about him, and it is amazing Axel never had the desire to be with Riku. They'd make a shitty depressing couple anyways, and Axel shrugged the thought out of his head. Though, he could not deny he did feel attraction towards Riku at times.

"He says you're just confused about life, but your intentions are good, but you're just misunderstood" Axel never really thought about that, did Riku really think of Axel like that? It was surprising since Riku never really said good or neutral things about Axel to his face. Just mostly friendly teasing, and when Riku was annoyed with him, insults.

"I guess that is true, well this is your place isn't it?" Axel stopped the car and Sora started to get out.

"Yes, thanks for the ride" Sora closed the car door and began walking to the house's door. Axel looked at the house, and saw that boy again. He was sitting on the porch, with a textbook in his lap. Sora ruffled his hair, and said his name. His name was Roxas, that's right. Roxas the ideal student, all work and no play. Roxas' eyes met Axel's and a cold stare was given to him. Axel then broke the eye contact and drove away. It was six now, and he was heading home. He wondered if his mother was home, maybe she cooked dinner, or maybe she just got take out.

Axel walked into his bedroom and made sure to lock the door. He laid down on his bed and closed his eyes. What a day, it felt like it would never have ended. He yawned a bit, shocked that he was tired already, it was barely seven thirty. He felt something vibrate in his pocket, his cell phone was ringing. He looked at the caller ID and it was Riku.

"Yes, I did almost run over your boyfriend. It of course was intentional, you know me" a groan was heard from the other line.

"First, he isn't my boyfriend, second were you drunk? And third, I'm going to beat the shit out of you" Axel could feel a lecture coming on about being irresponsible.

"I haven't had a drink all day, and you wouldn't beat the shit out of me. So no need for the lecture, and Demyx told me about your party, I'll go"

"You better not get drunk, high, or do drugs. If you do, I will for sure beat the shit out of you. Sora doesn't know about your bad habits, along with that his cousin is coming. His name is Roxas, and Sora really wants him to become more social. Treat both of them nicely, or if you don't, just don't come at all."

"I'll be good, and that Roxas kid-"

"Don't bother, he's as straight and clean cut as can be"

"Keh, he's not my type anyways. No worries, I'll be a good boy, daddy"

"Whatever, just get your ass over here by nine" Riku hung up and Axel decided to call someone else. Like he was really going to listen to Riku about the whole drug thing?

"Hey Marluxia, how many grams are you willing to sell to me?"

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Axel drove up to Marluxia's place, which happened to be conveniently located a block away from Riku's house. Marluxia got kicked out of his parents place when he was sixteen, and to keep up with his apartment's rent, he sold and grew weed. Not Axel's favorite indulgence, but it would suffice. Axel knocked on the door then it slowly opened. Axel made eye contact with Marluxia, who was smirking.

"Axel, Axel, how are you these days?" Axel walked in then Marluxia slammed the door shut.

"Fine. I have fifty, how much can I get?" Axel pulled the money out of his pocket, showing Marluxia the bill.

"So blunt, I like it, when it comes to sex of course. Why don't we catch up? I didn't see you all summer" Marluxia grabbed two beers out of a drawer and gave one to Axel. Axel gladly took it, and opened it soon after. He drank it, it of course was of cheap quality. Not like he expected something better. Though beer was beer, it didn't make a difference to him.

"I'm going to Riku's, I can't. Maybe another time, but when did you start caring about me anyways?" Marluxia stopped drinking and laughed.

"I don't truly care about you, just making sure you're still alive to buy my product. Ha, just kidding. We have some things in common…" Marluxia walked closer to Axel and leaned towards his face. "…and I always thought we could grow closer" Marluxia whispered in Axel's ear. Axel felt a shiver go down his spine, he bit his lip as he felt Marluxia slowly move his hand towards his inner left leg. Resistance, one thing he really needed to work on. Sure, he was lonely and wouldn't mind a quick fling. He'd most likely get some free pot out of it. Wait, that would make him one cheap whore. It also wasn't his style, and he had enough money to feed a small country. Not that Marluxia was an ugly guy, no he was pretty good looking. Why the hell not? He had time to spare.

"Then let's get straight to the point, as you like it" Axel whispered back.

Marluxia slid his arm up and undid Axel's pants, while nibbling at Axel's neck. Axel suppressed a few moans submitting to Marluxia.

Axel had Marluxia pressed against his chest, and somehow ended up on Marluxia's kitchen table. He was panting and he felt the satisfaction he missed dearly. Three months deprived of sex does that to a guy sometimes. Axel's eyes slowly moved towards a clock. His vision was a bit blurring, but after staring at it for awhile he noticed it was already eight fifty five. Fuck, he was going to be late.

"Shit, shit, shit, shit. I'm going to be late!" Axel pushed Marluxia off him. Marluxia gave him a weird look, which soon turned to anger.

"Who cares, get our ass over here and let's fuck" Marluxia held onto Axel's arm and tightly squeezed it. Axel hissed at Marluxia, and pulled Marluxia's hand from his arm.

"Go wank off or something." Axel ran out of the kitchen, and then found his pants under a chair. He grabbed slid on his boxers then put on his pants.

Marluxia grabbed a bag of weed and threw it at Axel's head. "Get the fuck out you cheap whore!" Axel caught the bag, and smirked.

"At least say please" Axel opened the door and walked out. He heard Marluxia cursing and throwing things around his apartment.

So things didn't go as planned for him, but no way was he going to be late. He didn't want to be some let down or disappointment to Riku. Why did he even care? He didn't know, he just knew Riku was one of his few friends. Axel pulled into Riku's drive way, and saw the boy he almost ran over. Who he assumed was the kid's cousin. Wasn't that the kid he saw today in the office? Was this some crazy serendipity?

Oh Lord, please don't let me be misunderstood.

Notes: It seems decent enough xP Review? o.o