Hullo! My first TOS fic! this one's yaoi too! Hope you enjoy it!

Disclaimers: If I owned TOS…it'd be yaoi!

Yuki no Yume (Snow's Dream)

Chapter 1: Under the snow

"And once again... this happens... this always happens...thanks heaven this'll stop tomorrow...this annoying way of living" said the red-head boy in whispers, looking at the falling snow over him. It was midnight, but he couldn't get to sleep, maybe he was afraid, but he wasn't certain of anything. Lloyd's group was staying at Flanoir, after Altessa's accident, and tomorrow Zelos would fulfill his task: betray all of them in order to gain freedom.

"I always join the strongest..."he whispered again "but still I'm sure Lloyd is not going to lose this battle, and still I'lll betray him...i'm just tired of living..." he lowered his head and sat in the bench. The snow landed on his white skin, but at this rate he couldn't feel anything, just the sadness buried deep in his heart.

"Stupid angel transformation doesn't heal inner wounds..." Ygdrassil had given Zelos a special Cruxis Crystal to accelerate his transformation, for tomorrow he was to face Lloyd and defeat him once and for all. "I'm going to die" he said and smiled, an empty smile, sort of a surrendering gesture, like he was finally doomed.

"Why did you say that, Zelos?" asked a confused Lloyd behind him. Zelos closed his eyes and turned to see the brunette behind him, with a wide grin on his face "I'm going to freeze to death if I don't enter the Inn" he replied, as if there wasn't a problem at all. One of the things he was gifted with, besides his beauty and intelligence, was being an excellent actor that could fool almost anyone. Lloyd stared at him suspiciously and raised his eyebrow "You are acting strange...the way you said that was so different, it wasn't like you at all..." Zelos started to laugh loudly "You are soo funny, bud! So untrusting of me! It's not like I'll turn into Ygdrassil and beat you here" Lloyd sighed. "Zelos, it's not like I don't trust you...is just...that something seems to trouble you..."

Zelos turned to see Lloyd, with a serious look, Lloyd felt goose bumps run down his spine, the green eyes in front of him were full of mystery...and strangely, they looked sad, it was such a beautiful sight. "I am all right" said Zelos firmly, not like himself at all. "It's cold outside, that's all".

Lloyd was still lost in those emerald eyes, they were perfect, simply perfect, and they matched with his white skin and red hair… just perfect.

Zelos raised an eyebrow "Is there something on my face?" Lloyd blush and shook his head "N..no! not at all Zelos, it's just that you looked kind of cute, no! I mean cool, you know…acting all though and…and…Zelos?" He found the red head lying on the snow unconscious, Lloyd carried him taking him to the Inn, and he placed Zelos on his bed and covered him with his blankets. "Please wake up" he whispered, holding Zelos' hand tightly. As If heard, the chosen opened his eyes slowly and turned to look at Lloyd. "What happened?" "I'm glad you are okay! You suddenly fainted! I was so worried and…" "You were worried for me?" interrupted the emerald eyed one.

"Of course I was! You are my friend…"

"I see…"

"Something seems to trouble you, Zelos, please tell me"

"It's just it's weird that someone worries for me…"

"Why are you saying those things! We are all together in this!"

Zelos sighed and lowered his head. "I feel like an annoying burden near you and the others…"

Lloyd reached for Zelos' face and cupped his hand around it "Never feel like that! You are so important for me and for everyone…what about your parents?"

"…Mom…she was murdered…in a snowy day like this…"

"I'm sorry…" said Lloyd with a look filled with guilt.

"Why? It wasn't your fault at all…she was killed by Seles' mother…a half elf…she wanted her child to be the chosen…and mom…she…" Zelos closed his eyes, holding his tears back "I really don't know why am I telling all this things to you"

"Please continue, I will listen to you, I want to know…"

"It's not necessary…"

"Please…"

"No, it doesn't matter at all"

"It does!"

"Why?"

"Because I care about you!" Zelos looked at the brunette at his side amused; he wasn't expecting anything of this. "She told me –you should never have been born-"Lloyd hugged Zelos at that moment, he didn't know why he did it, it was a strong impulse, he felt the sudden urge to protect the red head boy, to stop making feel sad. "Don't ever think that! I…! we need you!"

Zelos held his tears, Lloyd was so warm and comforting, he closed his eyes and hugged him back wanting to forget about everything, his life, his future betrayal, but the warmness he found in Lloyd's arms.

"Lloyd…"

"What happens?"

"I'm sorry"

"Sorry about what? Zelos?" when Lloyd turned to see him, the emerald eyed boy was already sleeping like an angel, he smiled and pulled him closer to him. "I don't really know what I'm doing…this looks so wrong, but he is damn warm and damn cute when sleeping" Lloyd blushed at the thought and shook his head quickly "No! What the heck! I'm straight! I like Colette Brunel and I..I…I love how he looks near me" Lloyd never wanted to admit the crush he felt when the group met Tethe'alla's Chosen for the first time. He had thought "He's too lively and manly to be a girl, but he is really beautiful to be a man... he resembles an angel", after that the way the red head was so happy about everything, and seemed to not worry about anything, to make the others feel a bit more relaxed.

"I guess…it's ok…nobody is watching…" he bent his head slowly, until he was near Zelos' lips, he felt the chosen's breath, he approached until his lips met the others. They were so soft but cold, so Lloyd assigned himself the job of warming them.

Zelos opened his eyes slowly and find Lloyd staring at him with caring eyes. "Wow, chosen, you have aqua colored eyes!" Zelos blinked and tried to ask what had happened, but his voice was gone.

"..." he lowered his head, trying to avoid Lloyd's eyes.

"Are you ok?"

Zelos put his hand on his neck and shook his head.

"You can't talk?" Zelos nodded. "Oh I see, hey! I remember when Colette couldn't speak, she "wrote" the letters of what she wanted to say on my hand, let's try it"

Zelos gave a small smile and held Lloyd's hand and started writing.

"I…c..au..ght a c..ol..d a..nd ha..ve a.. s..oa..r t..h..ro.at., oh so that's it, couldn't it be that you are transforming into an angel?"

Zelos shook his head, a bit afraid Lloyd knew. "Oh you may be right you still can feel, right?"

The chosen nodded. "Are you okay If we share my room, Zelos?"

He nodded again. "Lloyd you are really cute, I really don't want to betray you but…I mean we could…oh my god…but he's a boy…" Zelos thought. Ironically, he also had a crush on the brunette, he was so cute and optimistic, with that spark in his eyes that would make anyone feel secure. "I'll die tomorrow, but I still want to kiss him, for I will never see him again, but what for? I can't feel…I want to feel! Just this time! This last moment! Let me feel again…just this night…"

"Are you okay?" asked Lloyd. He was answered by a kiss from the red head, In no time, his cheeks were as red as the chosen's hair.

"I can feel again! I thought I couldn't! huh? Am I speaking?" he turned to see a blushed Lloyd and also blushed. "Oh…er….I…that was…"

"Zelos…I….like you" finally said Lloyd, returning the kiss, deeper this time.

Zelos allowed the brunette's tongue inside, closing his eyes. "Make me yours tonight" he whispered in Lloyd's ear.

Both boys hugged and started kissing. Lloyd passed his hands over Zelos' body, and started taking off every part of his outfit, so did the red head with Lloyd's clothes. Lloyd started licking and tickling the chosen's neck, Zelos moaned softly and caressed his lover's back gently, and then quicker. He bent and started licking Lloyd's torso, now the brunette was moaning, and playfully grabbed Zelos' length "wow, big" he said blushing. Zelos giggled and kissed Lloyd, then shoved him on the bed and started licking Lloyd's manhood. "You aren't bad at all, hunny". Lloyd blushed and moaned harder as Zelos' sucking increased. "Oh, Zelos…stop…I am going to….!" Zelos smiled and sucked harder, getting his mouth full of his hunny's seed, swallowing almost everything. Lloyd blushed and fell on the bed, panting heavily, while Zelos looked at him triumphantly and seductively smiling.

"How was it? Am I too rough?"

Lloyd smiled, as Zelos hugged him, lying beside him. "I want to be like this with you forever…" whispered Lloyd to his beloved, kissed him and after a while he fell asleep, wrapped in Zelos' white arms.

"I wish this moment never ends..."

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Well, that's for chapter 1! - please review!