Broken

by AnonymousWanderer

Hei muses on what it's like to be left behind. Set during the last episode of the ova. Set before you see him drinking. Short one shot.

"Every beginning has an end."

Everyone knows that, everyone says that. What is death? The end of breathing? The stopping of a heart? Can someone be dead while they walk among the living? I don't know. All I know is it hurts. Why, Why does everyone leave me? Where do they go? Can't they see I need them? No, of course they can't. I'm a contractor. Rationally, they mean nothing to me. They are just means to an end. When they are not useful I am supposed to get rid oF them. Easy, no mess, just like that. I'm not supposed to be able to make friends.

But, then why do I remember each and every face? Each name? Each person? Huang, Mao, Yin, Nick Hillman, Pai, Amber, and even November 11. Why do I remember each and every person that left me? And why does it hurt so much?

Maybe a drink will help? I'm so tired of losing people. Sick of the pain, sick of the emptiness. I want to forget, only I can't. The alcohol only numbs the pain. I guess that's all I can ask for. I'm sorry. I'm no better than a living corpse but I don't want to be left behind. Not again.

Edit: Sorry, forgot. Disclaimer; I do no own Darker Than Black.