Disclaimer: I sadly don't own twilight

Hope you enjoy the first chapter love from Alice xx

Chapter 1: the pain

BELLA'S POV

How could he do this to me after all we have been through. I can still rember the exact words he said...

Flash back:

"Bella I shouldn't of comeback you shouldn't have saved me. I'm dangerous to you Bella don't you understand." Edward said while him and I was walking out of Volterra's city walls. If Alice was here right now I know she would beat the crap out of him... Wait she has visions so she should see this conversation, I wonder why she hasn't come back and interrupted , I mean how long does it take for a vampire to find a car.

"Why are you doing this, I belong with you". I said with a tear trickling down my cheek.

"Bella you're not meant to be in my world, we shouldn't even be having conversation. And worst of all Bella if you didn't come and save me then this wouldn't be causing this much pain. I'm sorry Bella but Alice and I are dropping you off at your house as soon as we get back to Forks," Edward said with no emotion in his eyes or in his words.

I'm not having this; he is not going to make me go through what I went through the last time.

"Edward don't bother I'm staying here", I screamed at him.

He carried on walking like I hadn't said a thing to him.

"Edward did you hear me I'm not going with you, just so you can dump me in Forks again!"I screamed.

"Oh I heard you Bella, and I don't particularly care what you're going to do with your life. I have someone way better than you." He said slowly walking away from where I was crying.

"What so you cheated on me?" I asked disgusted at his appalling actions.

" Yes I did you pathetic human and she is a great kisser than you" he yelled back to me.

I watched as he walked out into the distance where Alice was probably waiting.

I started to sob as I rocked gently as I was curled up into a ball...

End of flash back.

I had a choice now I either stay here and die or go to the Volturi once again and ask for death, or join their guard. The choices, the choices.

A/N: well we will soon find out won't we teehee.

Bella: Why did you make Edward leave me * sobs quietly*

Edward: Yeah why Alice?

AUTHOR(WHO IS ACTUALLY CALLED ALICE: You will see Bella something good is going to happen and it's better than being with jerkward over there *points at Edward*

Edward: You're so mean Alice.

Alice; I know mmwhaaa now say what it says on the script now.

Edward: I'm not related to the author Alice but my adopted sister Alice is sadly,and I am now called Jerkward...

*Bella and Alice burst out laughing*

Bella: You just admitted that your name is Jerkward ha * points at Edward while laughing*

Edward: You better run Alice now after that.

Alice: I'm so scared*says sarcastically while running* Please review and I love you xx

Love from Alice x