Hey dolls. I wanted to make a new story, because I kinda lost inspiration to continue my other stories.

Disclaimer: I don't own How to Rock( if I did it would have never been canceled...) or anything else used in this story.

August 25, 2001

I guess some things aren't meant to be, I thought as my mom was being lowered into the ground. I couldn't believe she was dead...

August 25: Present Day

I blinked and everything came back to me. The fighting, the betrayals, the loneliness...

Everything.

My dad started to abuse us, us as in my four older brothers and I, soon after my mother died. My brothers were lucky. They were in high school already. My oldest brother is Oscar, he was eighteen at the time the abusing started. He got his own apartment on the other side of town and he didn't need to worry about my dad coming after him. My next oldest brother is Mikey. He was seventeen and a very big rebel. He got arrested after my mom died for being on the use of drugs and for assaulting a women. He is still in jail. I go visit him now and then because, honestly, he was probably my favorite brother. My next older brother is Gabe. He graduated high school at the same time that Oscar did. He is the smartest out of all my brothers. He moved to New York to attend NYU. I haven't heard from him since. My last older brother is Jonathan. He was only fifteen when he decided that he would rather go to hell, then stay with my dad. He died a year after my mom did, because my dad started to abuse us. I guess, you could say, that once my dad started to abuse us, every man had to fend for themselves... and lady. Anyway, they were lucky they didn't have to deal with him for as long as I have. I couldn't go anywhere because my dad knows how to find you, so I basically gave up trying to change my life. I was always the target of his abuses, because I was born a girl. He wanted another dream son, but no, I was a a girl. A disappointment.

I always was and always will be.

Last night's memories came flooding to my head. My dad's drinking buddies were here and one of them remembered that there was a teenage girl in the house. He came up stairs and tried to rape me, but (me being me) was able to push him off of me and kick him out of my room.

It was currently six am and I'm locked in my room. I made my way to the bathroom and started brushing my teeth. I felt my phone vibrate next to me, so I picked it up and saw a message from Kacey.

(Stevie, Kacey)

Hey girl

Hi Kacey

Pool party 2nite my house. U coming?

I bite my lip. I wasn't really sure if I should go. It's not like my dad was going to come get me. He gave up on that a long time ago. Now he just wants to get rid of me. Oh well. I guess I should go.

Cool. I'll b there

Cool. C ya in school.

I sighed and put my toothbrush back on its rack before walking out of my bedroom and walking to the middle if my room. My room was painted ocean blue. On the right side of my room was a door and a bed. On the left was my window and window bed. With my desk next to it. On the wall on the right side of my door was my dresser with a mirror on hanging from the wall. Continuing down that wall was another door. When you walked in there was two doors. One on the right and straight ahead. One the right side was my closet and the one ahead was my bathroom.

I opened one of my drawers in my dresser to reveal all my vintage shirts. I took out a black shirt that had a wolf howling at the moon. I walked to my closet and took out my black skinny jeans. I put on my black high top converse and grabbed my bag. Before I left to my window I grabbed my black beanie and adjusted it to my sun kissed, curly hair.

I ran to my window and jumped from it. I landed on the bed of flowers, which I planted, and some pillows I had placed there. I got up and walked to school slowly, making sure that any bruises and/ or cuts were hidden. I walked to my locker and saw Zander waiting for me.

"Hey Steves", he said as he was playing with his fingers.

"Hey Z", I said softly. I had recently had these feelings for my best friend that I didn't want to pay attention to, but they were still there.

"Stevie, guess what? You'll never believe...", he stopped as he realized that I was talking softer and quieter than usual," what's wrong, Stevie?"

"Nothing", I said as I shut my locker and looked down. I had a big scar on my forehead from getting hit with a beer bottle and I didn't want to deal with the question.

"Ok", he said. I looked up and saw that he had left. He never left me alone. He always pestered me until I told him. That's what I likes about our friendship. He wouldn't stop until he knew that I was okay, but today he left.

I felt hurt. He was my best friend. He was supposed to keep bothering me until I told him. I sighed and made my way to first period. When I got there I put my head in my hands and just sat there.

I sat alone at lunch, doing homework that I didn't do yesterday. I sighed as realized that I hadn't finished my project that was due tomorrow. Oh great, I thought, just what I need. Homework...

"Stevie", I heard someone yell. I looked up and saw Grace standing there with a big smile on her face.

"What do you want Grace?" I asked. Grace was actually one of my best friends, even though no one knew that.

"I came to tell you that I finished our project", she said with a huge smile. I had totally forgot we had to do it in pairs.

"Thank you so much Grace", I exclaimed as I was about to give her hug, but realized we were still at lunch.

"I'll give you a hug next time", I said at the same time she said," I better go..."

She gave me one last smile before walking away to go find Molly and the rest of the Perfs. I saw her make her way through the crowd before stopping to talk to Nelson.

I chuckled to myself before getting back to work. About five minutes later, the bell rang and I stood up, gathering my things in the process. I walked towards fifth period while wondering, where are the guys. I had seen Kacey during first period talking about going shopping to New York on her birthday...

*Flashback*

"...so then I told them,' what if we go to New York for my birthday?' and they were like,' but Kacey, why take you to New York, when we can take you to Milan'."

"That's really cool, Kacey", I said with a dull expression as I stared at the door, hoping for a distraction. Finally, the bell rang and we were free to go.

*End of Flashback*

I sighed as I thought about what could happen. I saw Kacey walk towards her next class and I stopped her.

"Kacey", I said as she stopped to look at me.

"Yeah Stevie?" she asked in a hurry-up tone.

"Have you seen the guys?" I asked as she looked at me from head to toe.

"Yeah. They are at my house cleaning the pool," she said as she shrugged her shoulders.

"Why? Aren't they supposed to be in school?" I asked while raising my eyebrows.

"Yeah. But since the principal is my uncle, he made an exception for them", she said as she made her way to class. I sighed and enter my fifth period. I sat down at my desk. Usually, Zander would sit next to me, but no. He just had to go help Kacey. I must have zoned out because before I know, the bell rings and the last period of the day is about to start. I make my way to history and sit down. I look around and see Kacey smiling at her phone. She must have gotten a text from a boy, I think as she sits in the seat in front of me.

"Hey Kacey", I say as she smiles again at her phone before replying.

"Hey Stevie", she says without looking up.

"Who are you talking to?" I ask as I tried to look at her phone.

"Oh just my boyfriend", she says as if it's not a big deal. This came to me as a surprise because she is usually so happy about everything.

"Ohh, who is it?" I ask with curiosity. I really wanted to know.

"Ohh, you don't know?" she asked as her eyes darted across the room.

"No", I said quietly as I waited for her brown eyes to make eye contact with my hazel ones.

"Umm... It's-"

Hello again. Hope you enjoyed it so far. Remember to review and comment who you think Kacey's boyfriend is.

Have an awesome day! Don't forget your beautiful!

~ Alexia