He is not what she has expected. Not, what she has hoped for. Not, what General Organa and her friends are hoping for.
This man cannot be their only hope.
He's hardly looking at her or at the lightsaber she extends to him. He doesn't need to look. She feels it in many ways. Beholds it on his face. This man is fearful and weak. And burdened by guilt.
How is he suppose to be their hope? To safe them from extinction?
How is he suppose to lead their fight? Against something as ruthless as the First Order? How could he fight against someone as powerful and evil as Kylo Ren, this monster from the Dark Force."
"Much to learn, you will have."
"Me?"
How can it be me? I'm just a girl, a scavenger.
"The Dark Side challenges those who are in the Light. That's why it's up to you now."
Luke looks at her with his sad puppy eyes.
"You will have to face him."
Kylo Ren? How could I do this?
"You need a teacher. I can show you the ways of the Force."
That's how Luke Skywalker has become her teacher. It's not the kind of teaching she has been looking for. She learns nothing about fighting techniques such as using a lightsaber.
"The Force isn't about fighting. Fighting leads to hate..."
"And hate leads to the Dark Side. I know." Rey sighs. "But how can I face Kylo Ren? He will fight me without mercy that's for sure."
Luke takes a long look at her.
"Did he beat you the last time?"
"No, he couldn't. But he was weakened by his injuries. Had lost a lot of blood."
"His wounds were not the reason, he was weak. It was you. Your Light made the difference. His Dark Power couldn't get through your wall of Light."
"But he will be more powerful next time."
"Yes! He will. Snoke is training him right now. Fueling his hate and rage. Squeezing the last sprinkles of Light out of him."
"So Leia is right. There's still Light in him and he could be saved from the Dark Side."
Luke shakes his head sadly.
"Ben doesn't want to be saved."
This night Rey sleeps fitfully, drifting through her dreams. Suddenly she's back in her Jakku's home, the head of a downed AT-AT. That's when she feels, he's there waiting for her in the darkness. She can't see his face, senses only his shape in the shadow.
"You got your teacher."
She stays silent. He knows the answer.
"Does it help you?"
"To beat you again? Absolutely yes."
He chuckles about her answer.
"But it is boring you. His teaching is not what you are looking for."
"Really?"
"You should come with me. Let me be your teacher. I can show you a lot of things Luke doesn't know about."
"Like what? Oh, I know. Perhaps slicing someone's bowels with a clean cut."
Another chuckle from the dark.
"I'm pretty sure, you know how to do that."
A wave of fierce demand wafts towards her. It makes her freeze. Kylo Ren steps out the shadow, moves slowly towards her. For the first time since their fight she sees him again. There's an angry looking red scar across his face where she had slashed him. It should make him ugly. Instead he looks even more attractive.
And dangerous. Like a beast on the prowl. And I'm his prey.
"So many nights you were waiting. For someone to come for you, to take you home. You made a scratch on the wall for each night. But no one ever came."
He touches the wall behind her frozen body, whispers in her ear.
"You're scared that you will miss them. That someone comes while you are wasting your time."
He's grazing her jaw with his breath, looks down at her.
"Go back there, little scavenger. Go back and wait again. Don't get involved in a battle you cannot win. That none of us can win."
Angrily she stares back at him, starting to resist him by her own power.
"I won't step back. And I'm not scared to fight you."
"Then fight it be. We will meet again."
There's a strange look on his face. The lurking aggression has vanished. Instead she feels something else.
Something like... Regret. For me?
Before she can figure it out, he's gone. Melting back into the shadows.
