A/N: Before anyone gets too excited, this is just the prologue for my S6 continuation fic. I originally was gonna post this along with the rest of the one-shot, but as I wrote it, I realized it should probably be separate. Plus, it gives you a nice little cliffhanger until I post the rest!
I was also listening to my iPod today and on my shuffle Make This Go On Forever came on by Snow Patrol and I realized that the lyrics went perfectly with what I had written. So the lyrics at the beginning and the end are from that song.
Hope you enjoy this little tidbit!
Disclaimer: Don't own Lost or the characters.
The last girl and the last reason to make this last for as long as I could
First kiss and the first time that I felt connected to anything
The weight of water, the way you told me to look past everything I had ever learned
The final word in the final sentence you ever uttered to me was love
It all happens in a whirl. At first, you are so sure of your decision, so fixated on your goal, blindsighted as you often are when you are on a mission. And then, as if she is a part of your very being, you feel her reluctance (but maybe now it's yours, as if you breathe as one), and you turn to her one last time. And even though she's crying, you can see she's looking straight at you (you think maybe she always has been), and there's a moment where it all of the sudden makes sense. She'd follow you to the ends of the Earth if she had to, and that nod is all it takes for your hands to just let go. If it's meant to be, it's meant to be.
Before you know it, everything is flying around you, and then there's a sharp pain in the back of your head. You hear her call your name faintly, as if she were miles away, and you wonder if this will be what it's like when everything goes away. Will you still feel her? Will you still hear her voice? Will the memories float up to the surface, murky in their clarity?
When everything comes back to focus, all you know is Kate needs your help, and you barely comprehend what has happened, except that Juliet is gone and that they are still here, and you feel the failure soak through your veins as you pry Sawyer from the bars and drag him to safety.
Once you are far enough away, he begins to pull away from you hard, and in order to fight a wave of dizziness, you are forced to let go. Through the fogginess, you catch Kate's voice.
"No, no where are you going?"
"I'm not leaving her behind." Sawyer says gruffly, the tremor in his voice betraying the tears that have already fallen.
"Sawyer, she's gone. You're gonna get yourself killed if you go back there." Kate says in that angry, pissed off way of hers that you know only means she cares.
"So be it." He says, ripping his arm out of her grasp and running back to the shaft.
You glance at her and she seems shocked for just a moment before she takes a determined step forward. "Jack, let's go."
You look to her and then back to the heap of mangled and twisted wreckage. And you think that at one time, this would have been an easy decision. Yet, this time, destiny has a greater pull.
"Jack…." She says, noting his hesitance and grabbing him firmly with her hands. "Don't go back there." Her face is so close you can see every freckle stanchly splayed across her nose, and the fear in her eyes causes your breath to catch in your throat.
"Please." She breathes as tears spring to her eyes.
You swallow deeply, willing the words to come, even though with every syllable you are treading further from what you want. "If I can get that bomb to go off, I can bring Juliet back." You say, pleading with your eyes for her to understand.
Tears are already flowing down her cheeks as she releases you from her hold and despite her sheer panic, you note her acceptance as she nods once swiftly, chewing on her lip to try and hold herself together.
"I will come back here, I promise." you say, a chaste whisper as you wipe your thumb lightly along her cheekbone. And with that you turn, already struggling with the realization that that will be the last time you will ever touch her.
You are halfway to the hole when everything around you turns white. And as you fall to the ground, all you can think of is how you would spend forever with her if you were ever granted the chance. You close your eyes to shield them from the glaring light, trying to ignore the earsplitting headache that has clouded ever sense in your body. The last thing you see before you pass out is her face, sparkling in the sunlight, and her windswept curls wafting in the breeze…..
And then there is nothing.
Please just save me from this darkness…
Please just save me from this darkness…
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Hopefully the rest will be up by the end of the weekend. I am going out of town though, so it might be a little later.
