Goodbye
By: DarkBlue Mint
Disclaimer: Do I really have to?
Notes: I'm really sad, and starting to think that I'm not getting out of this... So by your leave, a curse word: SHIT!... Thank you. Forgive grammar.
I met her some years ago, in a field of flowers; a beautiful park designed to calm its visitors, with walkways and a sweet structure in its center. She saw me there for the first time when I was trying to kill a flower; she told me wise words about not destroying something that used all its strength to bloom so beautiful in its short life. Even if I was in my most rebellious moment I still complied with her orders. I should have figured everything then, what other reason had a misfit to obey such a good and polite person.
But she wasn't like that. Polite and good were façades she used to dazzle everybody, including me. And yet she did everything to make me happy, she became the kaicho, she killed my enemies; and still I refuse her. I was blind, not to her feeling but to my own. Yes, she tricked me for a while, but the veil over my eyes was of my own creation. I'm not a stupid person; what other reason there is for me not to notice than the fact that I didn't want to?
After the carnival, after all the marionettes danced to rhythm given by everyone but themselves, things changed. I had no more excuse not to notice, no more veils behind which to hide. So I ran, for two long years; after passing my tests I said goodbye to my friends, all of them but her. And I ran.
Two years after my "soul searching" trip I came back. Filled with more regrets than I had before; not because I had committed crimes or I had betrayed trusts, But because I left her. It took me running like a coward to figure out my feelings, maybe that had been the crime and the betrayal, leaving her.
I had thought that she would be the one to shun me, to deny me. And yet, she took me in her arms and told me she missed me; and when I told her that I was home for good she cried in joy. I never left her again, I strove myself to be the best girlfriend, lover, mate than anyone could have. I made it my mission in life to make her happy. Because she was the only one who really deserved it, at least to my heart. She gave me two kids, she gave me her life, and in the end...
Today Mai took my hand, while my heart was laid to rest. Only seven years that I shared with her, and now she was gone. Nothing moved me; not the despairing shouts of Haruka, not the miserable cries of our daughters. I couldn't function anymore, not without her. My friend whispered that things will be fine, but she has her love next to her, so I know she really doesn't understand.
How unfair Shizuru, when I left you I was planning on coming back, and yet were you have gone... But I will follow; I will not be long behind you. Mikoto knows she's the only one who understands me, the only one who would do the same; she will take care of our kids. I promised you Shizuru that never again I would leave you alone, not even in death.
End.
More Notes: Not my usual style (though short fics are my style), still I hope someone likes it.