It was dark. It was quiet. It was…wet?

I felt like I was engulfed in water. Was I still fused? Were the events on that island just some kind of vision?

I reached down and felt my ankles and wrists. No cuffs. I wasn't in chains. I couldn't be fused.

I slowly opened my eyes. It looked like I was in some deep trench. For a minute I forgot where I was and who I was.

I tried to move, but I couldn't. My whole physical form felt like it was about to come apart. Something defiantly wasn't right.

I slowly placed two of my fingers on my gem. I nearly screamed. There was a crack! My gem was cracked!

I tried to move again, but I felt pain shoot all through my body. I couldn't move. I couldn't speak. I couldn't do anything. I was broken. I was weak. I was nothing.

I very slowly sat up. I could see more clearly where I was. It looked like I was at the bottom of the ocean.

Then I realized something. I had utterly failed. I had broken Homeworld law. There's no going back from that. I was a refugee to both sides.

I couldn't go back to Homeworld. Yellow a Diamond would never forgive me. I was trapped. No matter where I would go after that, I would never be free. I would always be running from both sides.

I was so pathetic. I failed what should have been a simple mission. All I had to do was escort the Peridot. I could survive a thousand year war, but I couldn't escort a Peridot.

Those Crystal Clods have probably already shattered her. No telling what they did to that Lazuli. Maybe they turned their backs on her. I wouldn't be surprised if they did. All they ever do is betray all gems.

If I ever saw that Lazuli again, I would shatter her gem on the spot. That Garnet, I'd like to separate her once and for all. And that stupid Rose Quartz! She still relied on all other gems doing her dirty work for her. She couldn't face anything on her own. She just pretended to be weak. She might have even been trying to pass herself off as a human.

There just wasn't a point anymore. There just wasn't a point.

There was no reason for me to go on. I thought I could just stay there until I was shattered.

I stayed down there for days. I was isolated from everyone and everything. I had nothing left. I was…I was just…alone. I was alone at sea.