Chapter 1-Gone

Disclaimer; I do not, will not , and shall never own Gravitation. If I did I would be supper awesome!

It all happened so fast, yet it seemed to be in slow motion through my eyes,the sound of the screeching car,the metal sliding on pavement,the sound of Shu's voice screaming my name in terror. Pain , shooting throughout my body,the darkness, waking for a moment, trying to reach Shu, the only fall into darkness again. Why did it half to happen? Why didn't I make Shu sit in the back seat when he told me the seat belt wasn't working. But I didn't, and because of it, Shu, my Shu is no longer here.

One Month Earlier;

It had been one year since Shu , my lover had come to New York, saved me from myself, allowed my heart to heal. I went back to Japan, the day after Shu had shown up. Sho had still been on a high from his concert. Since then , Sho and I had been with one another for a year, he had now stopped sleeping on the couch, and in my bed with me. That day I got home earlier, then normal, entering the apartment, he greeted me with his usual smile and hug. "YUUKIII! WELCOME HOME!", he yelled haply I looked down at him while subbing my ear. "Geez , can you get nay louder brat?", I said looking down at him. He only stared at me with his big eye's that I loved so much. "Sorry Yuki, I'm just glad to see you",Shu said to me resting his head onto my chest. Sighing I wrapped my arms around him.. If I had known he'd get taken from me so soon, I would have done anything to stay close to him. "Come on brat, let's make some lunch", i said and moved away from him, and headed towards the kitchen. Shu followed me of course,still as happy as ever. After lunch , I went to work on my newest book. It was the reason I had come early after all. Shu had taken his spot beside me as i went to work. But then , he started talking, he just wouldn't shut up. I needed silence to work. I glared at him. "GET OUT! I HAVE WORK TO DO!", I yelled ,getting up and pushed him out of my office ,and slamming the door before he could turn and say anything directly too me. I herd him mumble something unrecognizable, and walk away. If I had know I was going to lose him , I would have pulled him into my arms, tell him that I was sorry,and tat he could stay in my office with me.

But I didn't , I just let him go, not knowing if I hurt his feelings or not. After a few hours I saved my work and left my office, Shu was on the couch, he had drifted off to sleep,reading one of his Manga's. I glanced at the clock. It was around dinner time, since I was not in the mood to be cooking dinner, I decided that Shu and I would go out and eat.

"Brat ,hey brat wake up", I said shaking him. Shu woke with a jolt, and looked to me. "Yuki?, everything okay?", he asked sitting up. "Yeah,come on were going out

for dinner", I said and headed for the door. Shu jumped up following me."Ohhhh, Yuki were going out for dinner?Like a date?", he asked eagerly. I looked back at to him. "Its just diner idiot ,come on", I said heading out the door, with Shu right behind me.

Once at my car we got in. I buckled up, and looked at Shu who was having trouble with his seat belt."forget how to use a normal seat belt?", I asked raising an eyebrow. Shu looked at me with a glare,and coming from him it was funny. "No! ... it's broken..it won't lock in",he said showing me that the seat belt was indeed broken.. "well, just hold it in place for now, I'll get it fixed", I said softly and drove off to a favourite restaurant of mine. We ate dinner peacefully, talking about how my new book was coming along, how Shu's concert's were, and how much I was there for most of them. Inside I was saying "yeah ... I wish I could have been there , but I had stupid things for work to do", But, all I said was,"so what if I wasn't there? You'll have more, I'll see one sooner or later", I said coldly. But there would be no more concerts, it was so foolish of me not to go to most of his concerts, I took advantage of him and the love he gave me.

After dinner we headed home. It had started raining by then. Shu was still fooling around with his seat belt,trying to get it to work. "Just leave it, i said I'd fix it later, keep your hand on it,so it at-least looks like you have it one so I don't get pulled over", I said annoyed as I stopped at a red light. Shu sighed keeping his hand on the belt, looking out the window. The light turned green I started going through. That's when it all happened. Shu gasped as he looked to me yelling my name, "YUKI", he yelled at the top of his lings. I turned my head in time to see the transport trick,that had been going to fast to stop at the lights in time,screeching his breaks ,trying to stop. Shu's eyes were wide with fear. I looked out my window to see a car that had been trying to turn on the red light. The next few moments were utter hell. The sound of Shu's screams of pain as the truck slammed into his side, with such fours that the car flipped onto the roof. The sound of the metal crunching as it slid across the pavement , and spined some, so i hit the other car. I had to have banged my head hard because everything went black for a while.

The next thing I knew I was coming around, hanging upside down in my seat,my seat belt holding me up. I could here people crying,some yelling in shock, most of them though were yelling at people to Call 911. My head was spinning, I could feel blood coming from it. I looked to my side slowly to see how Shu was. But then as I turned my head, I remembers. Shu's seat belt had been broken. I looked straight down towards the seat Shu had been in. My eyes widened seeing laying lifelessly on the roof of the car,blood was coming from every where. "Shu ...", I muttered out weakly and tried to reach out to him. M body shot pain throughout it in protest,but I ignored it. Shuici ... Shuichi ... I had to get to him. "Shu ... ichi" , I ,muttered before sub-coming to the pain. Everything once again going black.

I was drifting in and out of consciousness after that. Things that I remember came in small blurs. Like being strolled away from my car ,laying on a stretcher,looking back to my car to see Shu being taken out with the jaws of life. The ride over waking up,trying to ask a paramedic about Shuichi , to see if he was okay. But being to weak to speak. Then being rushed into the hospital,starring at the sealing , at the bright lights, before things went black for a long time,my last thoughts on Shu, hopping that he was okay.

Waking up the next time, I herd a beeping sound. 'A heart beet monitor', I thought to myself. I slowly opened my eyes , looking around ,expecting to see Shu, his big dorky smile, or his tear filled face,but i didn't see him ,instead I herd my brother speak. "Yuki .. Yuki, its me ,Tatsuha, Yuki your in a hospital" , he said with relief, worry,happiness and sadness all wrapped into one voice. "I know that you Idiot", I said softly."wheres Shu?", I asked , looking at my brother intently. Tatsuha looked down and away. That made me nervous. "Tatsuha ... tell me ...tell me that hes okay", I said intensely. Tatsuha shook his head still not looking at me. "No ... hes ... Yuki,Shuichi – Kun ... didn't make it".he said looking to me sadly. I stared at him. It had to be a joke. "that's not funny Tatsuha ... now where's my Shuichi?", I asked, surprising myself that I had said 'My Shuichi' out loud. But Tatsuha's look remained the same. "Yuki ... hes gone he died a few days ago ... a few hours after you two were two were brought here",he said solemnly

I shook my head. "No ... not Shu ... Shu would never die, he'd fight no mater what, who told you this!", I yelled feeling pain. Tatsuha sighed."Tohma,he was the one who spoke to the doctors that were treating you and Shuichi – kun".he said sadly. "No",I muttered,as I felt tears in my eyes. "NOOO!", i yelled and began crying. I must have cried myself to asleep because after that ,everything is a blank.

Present Day

Its been a month since then,today I am being relaxed. I called myself a cab after I had filled out the paper work. Tohma had offered me a ride, I declined ,I just wanted to be alone. The taxi showed up, and I was soon home. I stood at my door -our door – for a moment, starring at it. The key was gripped in my hand. I was almost expecting Shu to be greeting me. But he was gone. No longer would I here his voice,feel his hugs,his touch ... his love. Unlocking my door I slowly walked in and looked around. The apartment was just how we left it,the night we went out. The manga Shu had been reading still lay on the table beside the couch he had slept on. The house was so quite. I stuck my hand in my jeans pocket. I blinked feeling something. Pulling out the object I frowned at my lighter. On it was the sticker photo, the one of me and Shu,the day I took him to the amusement park for lovers. Curdesy of Mr.K. I remembered how Shu laughed as he had to jump up to get into the picture ,to be with me. Hearing his laughter in my head,that's what broke me. I fell onto my knees holding the lighter close to me as I made myself into a ball. Right there on the living room floor. "Shuichi ... Shuichi come back! Please come back!", I yelled into the air. But I knew its was pointless ,he was dead, and the dead can never come back.

To Be Continued . . .