Don't you just hate life?
If you do, you're in the right place. If you don't, then stick around and I'll soon have you thinking like me. I'm not a pessimist; I think I'm the opposite actually. I like to see the good in every situation but sometimes it's actually not possible. Especially when you give up hope. That's the worst thing - not caring enough to see the good in life. When the bad things happen, you just deal with them and figure that it's a part of life. When good things do happen, you don't enjoy it.
I think I've gotten all the regret and bitterness out of my system. I've been angry. I've been in denial. Now it's the final stage: acceptance. It's the least fun of the stages because frankly, there's not much to do, but it's a big step. I can't jump straight into the story at acceptance can I? So I think I'll start from the beginning or at least give an overview of this wonderful thing called my life.
I think I've led a pretty normal life so far. My existence is mundane. There's nothing special about me. I grew up mostly like any other kid my age. Let's check off parts my life against the typical teenager's life:
Go through puberty. Check
Be bullied. Check
Argue with my parents. Check
Try alcohol. Check
Parties. Check
Have a crush on the guy you know you'll never get. Check
Try a cigarette. Wait, that's one thing I've never done and never will do. I think smoking cigarettes is a form of suicide.
Have my heart broken. No, not experienced that either. This leads on to the next point.
Go on a date/Have a boyfriend etc. Nope. I've been single all my life. I think I'll stop this list before I go back to denial/anger.
So my life seems okay on the surface. I have parents who love me, a group of amazing friends, and I can't really think of any sad things that have happened to me except for the death of my grandmother when I was nine. However, I haven't had a great life. It's been pretty pathetic if we compare it to other peoples' lives. I like to do that; compare myself to other people. It's a bad habit. I also like to dream and fantasise about things that could happen if I'd done just one thing differently. It's a sad life that I lead.
Shall I stop talking about myself and jump into the story? Okay. The things I've done and the reasons for doing them may confuse you ,but that's just me for you. It'll all become clear as I explain.
You know you love me,
B.
Hello my pretties. It's been a while hasn't it? Well, I figured that I might as well write whilst I could. Scratch that, I had to write. Life's not awesome right now, hence the angsty story. Stick around and all shall be revealed. Unless it sucks, of course. Let me know.
Thanks to my girls on Skype especially Zombie's Run This Town, who's my beta.
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