Here I am

By: Vixen519

Ok this ain't my thing. Buffy does NOT belong to me and nether does the song. Joss Whedon owns Buffy and Kelly Clarkson owns the song…or whoever

AN: Ok I got this idea when I was watching the video of it on and thought 'Hey that would be fun to do'. So viola I wrote, which does NOT happen often for me.

Spoilers: Season 5 of BTVS around /Season 2 of Angel

Dedications: To my best friend Emily

Note: italics-song & regular-thoughts

Seems like just yesterday, you were a part of me

I used to stand so tall, I used to be so strong

Your arms around me tight, everything it felt so right

Unbreakable, like nothing could go wrong

He had just left me, like all of them had. I should have been the one who left him for who he had done, or should it be WHAT he had done? Everything had been just fine before Spike had shown me where Riley had been running off to. Sure we had been fighting a lot but overall things were going great. Also the sex was great, not as good as…no I shouldn't think of that. I thought we would be together longer then it was, maybe like moving in together or something but I guess not.

Now I can't breathe, no I can't sleep

I'm barely hanging on

Here I am, once again

I'm torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend

Just thought you were the one

Broken up, deep inside

But you won't get to see the tears I cry

Behind these hazel eyes

Ever since he has left I have gone into full blown Slayer-mode. I don't sleep much, heck; school isn't doing that well cuz my grades have been slipping.

I told you everything, opened up and let you in

You made me feel alright, for once in my life

Now all that's left of me is what I pretend to be

So together, but so broken up inside

Now that I think about it things really started to go down hill when Faith had woken up and I had to tell him about everything. Especially about Angel. He began to get jealous around then but not as bad when Dracula bit me. Gosh, if Xander had been there to add his tidbit's then the whole story would have made it complete. It makes sense that the two of them hit off so well when Riley and I hooked up in the first place because they loathe Angel. It's the truth and it pains me to say my best friend hates the love of my life.

Cause I can't breathe, no I can't sleep

I'm barely hanging on

Here I am, once again

I'm torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend

Just thought you were the one

Broken up, deep inside

But you won't get to see the tears I cry

Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me, then spit me out

For hating you, I blame myself

Seeing you, it kills me now

No, I don't cry on the outside anymore

Anymore

I still love him, yes. It stills get's to me when I hear about anything that reminds me of him. I remember crying that entire summer after he left me. I still do cry but not as often. For awhile last year I tried to convince myself I hated him, that was after the incident with Faith over in L.A and I really thought I did. I was so wrong

Here I am, once again

I'm torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend

Just thought you were the one

Broken up, deep inside

But you won't get to see the tears I cry

Behind these hazel eyes

Here I am, once again

I'm torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend

Just thought you were the one

Broken up, deep inside

But you won't get to see the tears I cry

Behind these hazel eyes

You know what? Why am I sitting here talking with you anyways? I'm here in L.A to find him, and I will. Besides it's time we talked about those rumors I've been hearing about Darla coming after him.

OK PLEASE review my story. I haven't posted a story in about 4/5 months now cuz of writer's block. I got the idea of this yesterday and would greatly appreciate on what y'all think

Also check out my other fics, my longest fic will be updated during Thanksgiving with the longest chapter like ever