Just something i wrote really quickly while watching a really old episode of CI (I think it was season 1, the one with the guy killing abortion doctors)... I haven't written any CI for a while so i know it's a little dodgy. Please review
Abort
"You've had an abortion haven't you" it was a statement rather than a question.
"Yeah Bobby, I have"
"Do you want to talk about it?"
"Not here" she knew he'd probably spent the last few days researching abortion before he'd brought it up. She knew he'd suspected something the moment she asked how he really felt about the subject, possibly even before.
"How about I take you for that margarita then"
"Sounds good" she agreed, not sure if she was ready to talk about it, but knew she should.
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"I was sixteen, I was angry with my father so I snuck out with my friends to go to a college party, I was drunk and one of the guys forced himself on me, everyone saw, but no one tried to stop him." Bobby raised his eyebrows when Alex continued "It wasn't my first time, for that I'm thankful. A little over a month later I realised I was pregnant. I told my parents it was just some guy I'd only met once at a party... that much was true. I've never told them the rest. They've never looked at me the same. They told me that I should have an abortion, that they wouldn't support me if I didn't. So I did what they wanted me to, I still don't know if I should have done it"
Having finished her story Alex took a gulp from her margarita. Bobby was silent for a long time and although Alex kept her eyes fixed on the table she knew Bobby's were on her.
"Alex, you k now even people who want abortions have mixed feelings about them later"
"I just sometimes wonder what would have happened if I'd kept that baby. I took life away from that child, my child. I feel so guilty for that, I didn't even have a good reason, I did it because my parents wanted me to, if I hadn't I would have been alone. But that's no excuse"
"I'm sorry your parents did that Alex. I'm sorry you haven't had any children, I know how badly you want them."
"What if that was my only chance?" Alex was barely aware of the tears that had begun to run down her cheeks as she stared into Bobby's eyes as if they held the answers to all her questions.
"There's nothing you can do but keep hoping that it wasn't"
"Joe and I were trying for kids when he died, I found out three days after he died that he was infertile. Maybe I was never meant to have children"
"You don't really believe that" Bobby intoned
"I don't know what I believe anymore" she confirmed wryly.
"Well I believe that everything will work itself out soon enough"
"I wish I had as much faith as you" she agreed dryly.
"So do I, Eames"