A/N: This is a song fic but it's also an observational piece so you'll have to bear with me if it jumps around a bit in the timeframe of Gilmore Girls. I just wrote a story behind each verse and one for the chorus. This is set to a Bangles song of the same name.
Where Were You When I Needed You?
By Samvalasam
Don't bother cryin'
Don't bother crawlin'
It's all over now
No use in stallin'
The love I once felt
I don't feel anymore for you
This time I'll even
Open the door for you
Christopher was Lorelai's Achilles Heel. Whether she wanted to admit it or not, she would always fall for him and continue to get hurt. It took her a long time to fully understand that, it was an understanding that cost her a marriage and the possibility of finding true love and happiness with the only man in her life that has ever been there for her no matter what. Yes, she did love Christopher, but it was a love based on teenage feelings and a desire to give their daughter the whole clichéd family life of a dad, mom, 2.3 kids and a dog. What she failed to see was that as Rory grew, she lost the whole 'wanting her parents to be together' mentality and was happy with it just being her and her mom, plus Luke and the town.
You walked out
When I was down
Well now I'm well off
And look who's comin' around
In Lorelai's eyes, the worst thing Christopher ever did was move to the other side of the country and giving up on his responsibilities. Yes, he did propose marriage to Lorelai, but that was all under duress. He only rocked up in their lives when he thought he had made it big or when Lorelai had made something of her life from the nothing that she had started from when she moved away from her parents and the so-called 'good life'.
Where were you when I needed you
Where were you when I wanted you
Where were you when I needed you
Where
Lorelai needed the support; she didn't get it from Christopher, but she did get it from Mia and the town of Stars Hollow and then finally and most wontedly from Luke. The only man she could ever trust.
You're looking good
It's hard to fight it
There's no use explainin'
I've already decided
That livin' with you
Is worse than without ya
I won't spend a lifetime
A-worryin' about ya
Christopher always managed to weasel himself back into the lives of the Gilmore girls. Every time he would return the girls were happy, for a while, and then something drastic would always happen. For instance, the whole balcony incident, then the getting- back -together- but- oh- no- Sherry-is pregnant thing happened. Not to mention he was instrumental in the break-up of Luke and Lorelai—Twice!
Things got rough
And you disappeared
Now i'm back on my feet
And look who's standing there
In the end they were left with a shot-gun wedding and a hasty divorce; although it wasn't over quick enough for some who thought the marriage was a sham. Christopher left and Lorelai had to stand on her own two feet. There was someone there who couldn't let her go, no matter what had transpired, Luke couldn't hate her. He was there when Rory graduated high school, he was there at her 16th birthday, and he was there when Lorelai couldn't deal with the fact that her baby was leaving for her first corresponding job. Luke was her knight in shining flannel.
You were so young
And you were so wild
I knew you were nobody's
Innocent child
The first day I saw you
You really to got me
I thought I could change ya
What good did it do me
Having a childhood friend like Christopher was never dull for Lorelai. They did all sorts of crazy things together. He even crashed his Porsche with her in the car. When they grew up, Lorelai thought she could change his childish ways. She couldn't, and she would be the one hurt by it all.
Things got rough
And you couldn't wait
Now you're trippin' back
But babe, it's too late
Getting pregnant at 15 and giving birth at 16 was not on the cards for Lorelai, but it happened and she dealt with it. Christopher didn't and it took him too long to try and fix it. He only realised it with Gigi. By then the ship had set sail and the wrongs couldn't be righted, no matter how much of an act was put on. Luke was the only man that Lorelai could count on and trust, not even Max was held in such high accord, and he was her fiancé.
So where was he when she needed him? It depends on which guy you're talking about.
End
A/N: This is only my second ever Gilmore girls fic so feedback would be great. I went to the Bangles concert at the beginning of the month with my mum and it was awesome. It gave me inspiration to write this