My sweet Rikku-
I love you: I never said those words enough to you. I wish I could have given you this letter, but I cannot. I wish I could say that the Farplane is perfect and I am unbelievably happy, but I can't. Nowhere is perfect without you. People said I was a man of few words, and I know the majority of anything I would have said may have seemed cruel. It was hard to watch Yuna push herself so hard; it was so difficult to see her nearly sacrifice herself for the good of the world, and because of everything I became cynical. Jecht and Braska were my closest companions, and I had to watch them give away their precious lives for something that wouldn't last.
Despite the Farplane being a resting place of peace, I am only tired. I can hardly muster up the energy to write this to you, in the hopes of when you travel here, in many years I hope, you may find it. I know I will be gone by then, for no place can hold me forever.
I know when I left that you hated me. I know I should have told you about me before the last second, but I am a coward. I could not bear to see you cry.
Every day, I catch a glimpse of you in my head. It has been so long since I have seen you smile. Do you think you could smile for me, just once? I cannot bear to watch you wallow in your sorrow, and I am eternally grateful to your friends for helping you recover from my mess. I do not pretend, to you or myself, that it is not my fault.
If you knew how badly I grieve for our love and for your happiness, maybe you would not hate me so; but I ask for no reprieve, and ask that you do whatever you need to do to be happy again.
I can't keep track of time here; the hours, days and months all seem to blend together. How long has it been since I left? In my visions I now see a man with blonde hair, blue eyes and an ever-present smile. Who is he?
I can see you pushing him away, and finally understand. He loves you, that much is obvious. I can see the same look in his eyes as I did whenever I looked at you. Whoever he is, I trust him, as you should. Don't let me ruin your life; I only want you to be happy.
Rikku, I am afraid. I can feel myself drifting away, and I don't wish to leave. My visions of you have halted suddenly. I'm going mad; it seems as if it has been an eternity since I've seen you last. I am afraid of losing you more.
My visions returned suddenly, to my great relief.
The boy; the baby boy in your arms. He is so beautiful. I understand now. You are happy, and I am glad for you. Such love in his father's eyes, I can see it so clearly. He adores you, more than anyone on the planet. As you shape your son's name on your lips, I cannot help but smile. My name. You named him Auron. For him, I wish every happiness. May his life be happier than mine, and may he live long into his late years. Most of all, may he find love as I had.
I can feel you finally let go of my memory. I feel at peace, and can go now. My body is disappearing, but it no longer frightens me… I am grateful, for now I can rest. I will never forget you, my dear. Please, be happy.
As you've spoken to me softly so many times…
E muja oui.
-Auron