A/N: So I've decided to write a fanfiction based off of some random quote that I became inspired from. This one kinda stuck out from the rest I found.. It another Cade fanfiction, I'm sorry. D: It's kind of dark. Disclaimer: I don't own Victorious, or the quote below. (Hm... that would be the day if I owned Victorious.)
"you want me to act like we never kissed, you want to forget; pretend we never met, and I've tried and I've tried, but I haven't yet... You walk by, and I fall to pieces." - Patsy Cline
It started after that day, that stupid, stupid day that shouldn't have happened. You wouldn't be treating me like shit right now if i could just control these stupid feelings deep inside of me. I kissed you, and I truly meant it, but it's hard to know you don't feel the same. In fact, you told me it wasn't how you felt, and how you didn't even want to be friends with someone like me. What you told me becomes much heavier on me everyday. You don't even hang out at the table anymore, just probably fooling around with Beck in an empty classroom or whatnot. Just the thought of that makes this worse, and everything hurts, far beyond your beliefs of what hurt is. And it kills me to think what could have been if you felt the same about me. I often imagine it, until reality smacks me it the face.
Reality says that I'm not good enough, reality says nobody will love me like I believe someone will, and reality says you'll never be with me. I want to be able to say "fuck reality.", but then again I never was very brave. I don't think I'll be able to do anything except for make an attempt to carry on as a shell of my former self, with fake smiles and a somewhat depressed voice.
It's weird because the more I actually think about it, the more I realize that I never actually had a chance with you, and that I'm stupid for ever thinking I did. And I just want it to go back to the way things were before this happened, and before you stepped out of my life. Now that I see you walking past me, without ever looking back, or even sparing me a glance, i realize I never meant anything to you, or anything we did together never had any affect on you. I'm falling bit by bit everyday, and there isn't anyone who could save me except for you.
I've fallen in love with you Jade, and you know it, I want you to love me back but it will never happen. And y'know what? Reality sucks.
A/N: it's strange, and short, but I'm actually a little proud of this one. Tell me what you guys think, anything, I won't bite.
Good day :)