These scene takes place in Ciara's bedroom about three weeks after Jordan has been sent back to Bayview and Ben has been drowning in his own thoughts. Ciara knew this was eventually going to be a discussion that needed to be had but she was not ready for it just yet. In my mind Tripp is not living in the Loft so Ben being in Ciara room would not cause extra drama. I also wrote this for fun and because it helps me feel better about the break up that is to come. Lol. I hope you guys enjoy.

"Ben! I won't let you do this, not to us and especially not to yourself".

"Ciara, don't you understand that I will never be that safe guy for you, the man you deserve, that can be able to give you the world".

"None of that matters to me!"

"How is that even possible after all you have been through this year because of me?"

"You mean you saving my life not once or twice but three times! Ben, please don't do this", she said as she looked deeply into his eyes stretching out her hand to caress his cheek.

Ben slightly pulled away feeling unworthy of her touch, but instead of dropping her hand Ciara just pushed forward until his face rested in her palm. Ben couldn't help but lean in and breath her in and without a second thought he closed the gap between them and leaned into a passionate kiss. In his mind Ben knew he should stop because kissing her only made his will power lessen by the second. Ben pulled away ever so slightly finding it hard to catch his breath. Ciara looked at him willing him to kiss her. Ben just closed his eyes and continued.

"I can't Ciara", Ben stated as he brushed his hand through his hair and down his neck.

"I am no good for you can't you see that". The pained look in Ben's eyes was almost too much for Ciara to bear.

"Claire almost succeeded in leaving you for dead after I lost it hallucinating and had to leave to go get my medication."

"You mean after I was able to calm you down and you realized that no matter what Clyde was telling you to do to me you would never hurt me."

"What about to countless times your mom has come to arrest me?"

"For a fire you didn't commit, for the false evidence planted that made it look like you were guilty, or the trap my mom tried to set to get you to confess?"

"Ciara, what about Jordan, do you think I don't feel guilty about that, that if we would had never met or if I had not stayed in Salem that you would have no almost died a second time in that cabin!"

"Enough", Ciara explained.

"Jordan is sick and needs help."

"Help I should have seen that she needed, I failed to protect her, I won't fail in protecting you from the monster inside of me."

"I wanted to kill her, I wanted her to feel that pain she caused me almost causing me to lose the only thing I care most about in this world". Ben said ask he caressed Ciara's face.

"But you didn't, Ben, you didn't, and I am still here, because of you."

Ciara said pressing her lips into Ben's palms while Ben closed his eyes enjoying the warmth it radiated throughout his body every time Ciara touched him. Ciara's eyes filled with tears as she reached up to grabs Ben's face and kissed him with an uncontrolled passion that took them both by surprised.

"Ben" Ciara said in between heated kisses, "I…I…love you".

Ben froze in shock.

"Say something Ben, where are you?", Ciara said as she caressed his cheek.

Ben heart was racing as fast as his mind was. Did she really say she loved me, me the…necktie killer? Ben's voice was so low Ciara almost didn't hear him.

"You, can't love me."

Something flicked in Ciara's eyes as she felt the anger raise up through her veins.

"The hell I can I am so tired of everyone making decisions for me. I love you Ben Weston more than anyone I have ever loved in my life," she said as she moved to sit down back down on her bed. Felling the weight of her words.

Ben knelt in front of Ciara so that they were face to face as he moved some of her hair that had fallen forward so he can see her beautiful face.

"I am sorry, I never wanted to make you feel like I am taking away your choice, but I want you to be safe and happy"

"Don't you see that it is because of you that I am still here."

"If you had not found me after I wiped out of my bike, I would probably have died that night."

"It is because of you that I didn't die that night at the cabin after Jordan set the place on fire. I owe you my life."

"You don't owe me anything," Ben said softly stroking the back of Ciara's hand.

"But I do you gave me a second and third chance at life."

"How did I ever get so lucky to fall in love with someone who has such a forgiving and loving heart." Ben smirked as his words sank in.

"What did you just say?' Ciara asked thinking she heard him wrong.

"I said that I fell in love."

"I love you too Ciara, how could I not fall in love with you." "You made me feel that redemption was possibility for a person like me, when nobody else did."

Without another word Ben stood up and leaned forward to kiss Ciara with a softness that made her feel like the most precious thing in the world. Slowing pushing herself back onto her bed she felt the weight of Ben body on top of her as they lost herself in the moment. Ciara was grateful Ben for the moment had forgotten about breaking up...To be continued