Merlin walks through the halls of camelot to the queens, and kings chamber. He was worn, saden, and lonely that he has realized that he failed his king, his lover, best friend, brother, his destiny; but he's try to think of what to say to his queen, his sister and best friend in the beginning, when he realized the door opened and saw Gwen saden, lost, scared, and lonely. He looks at her and everything hits him like a wind. "Gw...gwen, I failed him…" then tears fall from his stormy eyes.
Gwen grabs him, pulls him into a fierce hug, and shuts the door. She starts crying when he mumbles apologies. They both buried themselves into each other necks. "Shh," she said as she ran through her fingers in his hair, "You didn't fail him, Merlin. You saved him from becoming a terrifying king. You made us perfect for our kingdom. You believed in him first when people thought he would become like his father. You were closer to him than any of us would ever. I love him now but you loved him then and now, I can tell." As she was saying this, his knees buckled under him and bringing his queen with him but his head was on her lap as he wrapped his arms around her and she let more tears drop onto him and he cried.
She ran soothing hands in his hair again and said more soothing words. She took a shaking breath and said, "Merlin, I know you. You have not failed him. You never had. He loved us both dearly, and I know he wouldn't let us blame us on his death. Don't..please don't go away." as she said this, she wrapped her arms around the crying boy who once had a short crush on but now like a younger brother to her after she lost her brother; She cried onto him and burying her head onto him and he to, tightly around her held her close.
"He fought bravely, for us, and his kingdom" She mumbled to him. "I know he's gone, but Merlin, he'll always be with us, in our hearts." She said and he nodded. She looked at the window and saw it was night time already. She looked down, and whispered, "Merlin, its night, now. Please come to bed with me?"she asked, "I...I don't want to be alone tonight…"
Merlin looks up at his queen, and saw that she too, doesn't want to be alone. He didn't trust his voice, so instead, he nodded. He got up shakily but still manage to help his queen up. They both didn't feel like changing their clothes so they both headed to the bed. Gwen laid on her side of the bed and Merlin on Arthur's side of the bed and they both cuddled together, holding hands and foreheads touching and bother their eye's red and puffy but still slightly crying.
Gwen leaned towards his forehead and kissed it. Merlin looks at her and she says, "Remember Merlin, that even if he's dead, and he's stubborn, but, " she said smoothly, "He's here with us and always."
Merlin nodded his head, and cried more. He buried his head against her bosom and she cried and hugged him fiercely.
From then on and at night, The warlock and his Queen, both slept together, but nothing else happened because it was wrong and they were both comfortable, and comfort with each other's presence. They never slept with anyone or anything. The whole kingdom was fine with that and nobody didn't bother them. Yes there were some people being hypocrites but those whose loyal to them, set them right. Gwen was a fair queen and Merlin became the Court Warlock; and then on,they both ruled together, protected one another, as brother and sister but did little did they know, that night, what Gwen had said to Merlin, Arthur was there, watching over both of them and on, till they can reunite together again.