How do you heal when there is so much pain?
Where do you go when this burden is too much?
What do you do when no one seems to care? Naruto thought, his head still muddled. All he could feel was pain, it was everywhere. He laid still, looking at the once white washed ceiling that was now dirtied.
He could feel Kyuubi's chakra healing his wounds, whispering words of comfort as he surrounding him with warmth; he could barely feel it though everything felt cold and numb. He just sat there. He felt dirtied, so impure. He wished he could be free, free from this body, from this pain, free from all of it.
Why wouldn't Kami have mercy on his poor soul? Did he not suffer enough? Beautiful blue eyes shined with unshed tears. They were so dull and empty, and told volumes of pains and isolation as dark twisted memories flashed through his eyes, playing over and over.
Kyuubi wanted him to leave Konoha and never come back, but he couldn't. He just couldn't bear the thought of leaving his village no matter that they all despised him. 'Cause he stilled loved them, he was sure; he would still protect them even though there was no praises, no thank you. He knew he wasn't worth their breath, worth their adoration. The only reason he was alive was because of Kyuubi. He couldn't be selfish and put his desires before someone else, even if that person ruined his life, made him hated and feared by his own people, and almost destroyed his whole village. He was always there, he never left him...Well, it wasn't like he could leave anyway.
"Why are you so stubborn?" Kyuubi practically yelled in Naruto's mind. He had a bad feeling in the pit of his stomach; something bad was going to happen and he always trusted his guts. He just needed this idiot to leave this pathetic and corrupted village! He hated how they hurt him, it made his blood boil with rage when they hurt him. Oh how he wished he could rip the village and all those stupid humans apart... But Naruto didn't need to know all that.
"What drives you on? One day these pathetic humans will be tired of you and leave you broken. And who will be there to pick up the pieces again? It will be me; you don't need them when you have me." Kyuubi said in a softer tone knowing that yelling wasn't going get him anywhere with the brat.
'They are busy they can't worry about me all the time. I don't want to add more burden on all of them I want them to be happy' Naruto said as he shifted letting out a hiss when he felt a sharp pain in his leg.
"How can they be happy when you are the one suffering in agony everyday? What do you think they would say when you tell them you merged with me? That you are no longer fully human. Do you think they will stay by your side. You put too much faith in your friends and that will be your down fall."Naruto remained silent, Kyuubi's words leaving doubts in his mind
'I know...Don't think I haven't thought about it. How I wanted to tell them, but I get so scared... I don't want to be alone again'
"You won't ever have to be alone. You have me and I'll never leave you. I promise" Kyuubi said softly, his voice filled with tender love. Naruto chose not to say anything.
Naruto turned to look at the clock and realized that he was late for the meeting with Rookie nine and Gai's team. He forced himself to get up despite his protesting muscles and bit back a groan as he walked to the bathroom, taking off what was left of his clothes and stepping into the water after setting it to almost scalding hot.
The water fell down his creamy smooth tan skin. You could see the bruises from last night all over his body. Naruto scoffed. And his friends wanted to know why he wore a jumpsuit. Naruto turned off the shower, grabbing a towel and wrapping it around his slim waist. Putting on another orange jumpsuit after drying off, he headed out the door.
Leaving the bad thoughts at home -no, his house- he corrected himself. A home was supposed to be a place you could feel safe and warm, not living in constant fear and pain, but for some reason he felt like something horrible was going to happen, but he dismissed the feeling.
"Naruto you baka you're late, later then Kakashi and that's saying something!" Was the first thing Sakura yelled when she saw him, hitting Naruto on the head- which happened to be where one of the villagers had hit him hard against the stove. Naruto bit his tongue to keep the nausea down that had suddenly hit him.
"N-Naruto-kun are you okay" Hinata asked, but her voice was drowned out by Kiba's brash voice. Only Naruto heard what she had said.
Naruto just plastered a fake smile across his face and told Hinata that he was fine. Hinata just stared at him her pale lilac eyes, filled with concern and something else. She turned back to watch as Lee and Kiba fought.
Naruto didn't know if he should be glad that his friends were oblivious or not. He was so lost in his thinking he didn't see his friend's quick glances at him. So when Sasuke challenged him to a fight he didn't decline, even though he knew he shouldn't. His body wasn't at top conditions; even though he was part demon his healing rate wasn't as fast as many believed so a small cut took less than a minute, but if there were numerous cuts it took a while and he was tired, even though he didn't let it show.
So he and Sasuke walked to the middle of the field, sizing each other up, seeing who was going to make that first move. He decided to make the first move like always. He rushed forward, throwing a punch at Sasuke's face, who took a step back, his obsidian eyes bleeding into blood red as he dodged Naruto's attacks he was barely able to move out of the way when Naruto threw a side kick. But he got hit when Naruto punched him in the face, sending him skidding back a few feet.
"Lucky shot." was all Sasuke said as he rushed forward, punching Naruto in the stomach and successfully winding him. He rushed forward, not giving Naruto a chance to recover as he brought his arm down onto Naruto's back, sending him into the ground where the clone poofed out of existence. If he was surprised he hid it well. He tried figuring where Naruto would attack- from above, from the left, from the right, no the bottom! He moved to jump up but he caught something orange at the corner of his view. He grabbed Naruto's legs and started to spin him around and around before releasing him, sending him crashing into the trees.
"Sasuke-kun, I think you over did it!" Ino called out when they didn't see Naruto get back up, but Sasuke didn't say anything. He was staring at Naruto, taking in his new appearance. Six golden tails were coming out of Naruto's orange pants with a pair of matching fox ears with red tips.
"Kyuubi..." Sasuke whispered, but the others heard him. They tensed up, slowly walking to where Sasuke. When Naruto stood up and opened his eyes they found they couldn't breathe as they felt killer intent so strong it sent them to their knees. They had never felt so pathetic, so useless, so scared. It was spreading throughout their entire body, to the very core of their being. They never felt so close to death as they did now, it was like their life was meaningless. When they felt it disappear they found themselves gasping for breath. Sakura was the first to break the silence.
"Y-you...y-you m-monster" Sakura stuttered out, her emerald eyes filled with fear and not even looking at Naruto's face. If she did she would have seen the hurt that flashed through his eyes.
"They were right; you are Kyuubi." Ino said, fearfully taking in Naruto's new form
"No...you're wrong... I'm not Kyuubi" Naruto shouted. They flinched at the sound of his voice. The feeling in his voice was raw with pain, but they were too scared to care. He tried to take a step closer to them but a kunai landed in front him, stopping his advances toward them.
"Baa-chan" Naruto whispered, disbelief evident in his voice as he looked up to see a lot of Anbu and other different types of ninjas surrounding them, most importantly Tsunade, her face empty of emotions as she stared at Naruto.
"Sorry Naruto but now you have been perceived as a threat to Konoha and all threats must be destroyed." Tsunade's voice carried out, strongly echoing in the silence. No she was lying, he wouldn't do anything to hurt this village! He loved it with all his heart. They wouldn't do this to him after all he done for this village, for them. They were just kidding right? It was all just a joke right? He looked at them his eyes desperate, but Tsunade didn't say anything. The next thing he knew Tsunade was in front of him. He wasn't even prepared when she punched him hard, sending him flying yards away. He just stood up shakily, his hair covering his face.
"Why?" He whispered, but she didn't say anything. "At least tell me why you are doing this... I think I deserve an explanation" Naruto said calmly, waiting for Tsunade response.
"It was later found out the seal that contains Kyuubi has been weakening and will soon be destroyed... We can't let that happen so we have to kill you to prevent Kyuubi from ever coming out. If you die so does Kyuubi. I'm sorry Naruto." Tsunade said even though she wanted to desperately cry. She didn't want to lose her light, but she had to do this. The village came first. That was her job, to make sure that the village was safe.
And with that in mind she charged at him.