:EDWARD POV:
She pushed the text book away from the table while I pushed away from the table. She straddled my lap rocking our hips together. I couldn't resist her, she was too bitter sweet. I had tried to get up and let her down but she was to fast and her sweet smells caught me.
I couldn't stop my hands, they just clutched onto her hips helping her rock against me. My body was working on their own, on instinct. What was she doing to me, I wasn't like this. I mean I know I was the quarter back of Forks high but that didn't mean I fucked every girl a see or come into contact to.
My mind was deep thought and she stopped. She was confused I know it. I was painfully hard under her, clutching her helps, rocking against her, but my mind wasn't their. I was confused; this emotion was nothing I ever felt before. She was too intense.
"What's wrong…isn't this what you wanted?" she asked as I looked through her eyes that were showing embarrassed and disbelief.
Before I could stop myself I blurted, "I don't know"
I knew I sounded stupid but I didn't and I was scared. I didn't want to feel this way. I had a future to live up to. Places to go after school, scholarships, and way more. People thought I was just that typical high school jock, stupid, and Justin it for the girls and attention but I was different.
"What do you mean?" she asked grabbing my face in her palms gently, "Don't you like me…want me? When you said study I thought you meant-"
"That's right you thought. Did you ever think that maybe just maybe….I'm different" and with that I grabbed my books and left.
I was confused and mad and to many things to even mention. Did she think that little of me? Was I any thing? Was I just a lay to her to boost up her popularity?
I quickly walked out the door and into my viper leaving her crying on her bed. I couldn't take it right now. I didn't want any extra pressure. Maybe when I asked her to study I wasn't thinking straight. I could never just be friend with bella. Never and that's what scared me.
I had no clue what was going to happen and it scarred me. Even thought I knew I couldn't get close to her, I could resist not to.
That day I knew one thing for sure. I didn't know how it happened. How I had gotten so consumed in such a person. So ordinary she's extravagant, beautiful. And the one thing I would never give up is the flu. The Swan flu. Once you catch it, she becomes your life. She pulls you in her deep abyss without you even knowing it. I'll never find a cure, nor do I intend to. She's become my everything, everything I've every wanted, everything I'll ever need.
I loved her. Bella Swan.
a/n: Tell me what you think…first Twilight fanfic….and I hope it's catching your attention. There will be a lot of lemons once the story passes the prologue.