Authors note: Well, my next Castle fanfic- definitely multi-chapter… Mainly about all of Castle's and Beckett's secrets falling out and spreading out.

Please review and let me know how this one is.

Disclaimer: I own nothing Castle related… unless building a sand castle a long time ago counts.

"Goodnight Castle," came Beckett's voice from afar as Castle was walking to the elevator of the 12th precinct. He nodded and said, "Night."

Beckett sat watching, then said, "Night you two," to the two other co-workers of hers that were heading off. They replied in unison, "Night Beckett." Everyone was off now, going their own ways: Esposito was probably wondering how he and Lanie got separated, Ryan would go home to his wonderful girl. However, this did leave Lanie left, which meant Alexis was still here. Wait… Why would Alexis be here if Castle left? Beckett began thinking in a day-dream state, and I guess… I guess I'll never know. Beckett was sitting, a long while, even enough for Castle to have time to get home.

Of course, when Castle got home, he found his mother- sipping wine. Once Martha noticed his son was home, she asked him, "And Alexis is…?"

"Oh, she had to stay late with Lanie, some sort of thing from down there," Castle replied.

"Ahh, so you let her stay with the dead body's at the dark of the night?" Martha still questioned him.

"Mother, she's fine. Plus Beckett's there."

"Whatever, I'm off to bed, Rick… Goodnight," Martha proposed as she went off to bed.

Meanwhile, Beckett was still at her desk, she had gotten up for coffee, though. She started to daydream about all of the stuff she and Castle went through. She decided it would be best to go in chronological order. First, Castle kissed her cheek, which made her feel great- and blush. Second, he caught her in the bathroom telling her where the sex scene was in the book. She started drawing general blanks of him giving her coffee, then went further- third, they kissed- her best kiss ever- and for twenty seconds which was way longer than needed for a distraction. Fourth, the freezer- Beckett just about to say how much she cared about Castle when she fainted due to being frozen, and them nearly dying in each other's arms. Fifth, Castle saying he loved her- twice to be exact, while she was nearly dead, shot in the stomach.

Of all the major stuff it was a lot of the small stuff that made Beckett love Castle from the beginning: the new coffee machine, coffee every morning, bigger things like- being able to share a dog, being in perfect sync interrogating people, caring for her when it mattered most, not being a complete ass when around her boyfriends- that she didn't love or even like. Castle could be her only boyfriend.

Lanie came up to find Beckett. They were both very surprised to see each other. Well, Beckett wasn't as surprised as she knew Lanie was still there. Beckett hadn't seen Alexis so she figured Alexis wasn't there. Alexis had actually slipped passed them both to get a coffee.

Beckett started to converse, "Hey Lanie, what brings you up here?"

"Just came to get some files for this body."

"Body? What body, we haven't had a case for over a week." Beckett said, surprised.

"Oh, it's one from a long-while ago, the poisoned victim."

Lanie was showing Alexis a how to find poisons even after an autopsy doesn't detect them. Alexis was listening in and found it odd that neither of them mentioned her. She guessed there was more on their mind and to not make a big deal out of it.

Just as Lanie was walking away, "Hey, Lanie…" Beckett's voice came.

"Yeah?" Lanie replied in her usual tone.

"Umm, well, I was wondering if we could talk?"

"Talk? You mean like talk? Girl, you mean serious 'talk'?"

Beckett looked at Lanie curiously, like talking was weird. Well, it was for Beckett, she never wanted to talk, she was all sucked up inside. Beckett, not knowing exactly what to do now, felt like she was going to explode- and take the town with her- if she didn't come out soon.

Beckett bit her bottom lip, trying to think of the best way to approach this. Starting very quickly, "Umm, yeah, it's about-" she slowed down, a lot, "Ca-stle"

"K girl, I'm all ears now, talk away."

Alexis was now hiding so she wouldn't be found, she wanted to hear this and not interrupt them. Lanie had completely forgot about Alexis at the astonishment that Beckett wanted to actually talk.

"Well, see, I like him and all, but I don't know if I can actually like him, if you know what I mean." Beckett had trouble finding words.

"Detective Kate Beckett," Lanie began, very odd for her to say that, "If you like him, he clearly likes you, what's the problem?"

Beckett mustering up some words, "It's just I don't know how, and if we had a relationship, it would be totally messed up. Like, we would be with each other all day, then go home to each other, the same thing all the time. We would go so crazy, I just mean. Oh Lanie, what do I do?"

Lanie, stunned at how open Beckett was, "Okay, so, you talk to Castle."

Beckett now feeling so alive and strong let out more, "See, when we were in the freezer I was about to confess my love to him, then later, when I was shot, he said he loved me. I've pretended not to have known anything after being shot. See, that's the problem. If I tell him I heard him say he loves me, he'll get all mad that I wasn't straight with him. But then he might love me still. K…" Beckett was sweating and in a near sobbing state. She had opened up to someone and it made her feel good inside, somehow.

"K. This is for you to decide, I can't decide your boy and girl stuff for you. Feel your inner-self and do what that thinks. Follow your heart, let it lead you." Lanie spoke, wisely.

Beckett somehow started standing at the beginning of her speech, she sat down, wondering how Lanie was able to speak words of such wisdom. So Beckett was able to speak again after a while, "Thanks Lanie, much appreciated."

"Any time, girl." Lanie said as she went to get the file, finally. "Oh shit!" Beckett heard Lanie.

"Lanie, you okay?" Beckett asked surprised she said 'shit'.

"Uhh, yeah sorry, just-uh- wrong papers were in file. I got it now, thanks."

Lanie had actually realized where Alexis was.

A/N: Soooo, hope you all enjoyed. I certainly liked writing it. Please let me know how this one was, I do plan on updating soon as kind of a cliff hanger at the end… hehehehe!