Title: The Killing Moon
Disclaimer: Alas nothing belongs to me. If they did I'd be able to afford my new car, oh yeah and i'd be way wittier. Plus there would be more vmars in this world and more LoVe.
Summary: What if instead of Logan kissing Yolanda before everything went to hell he and Veronica kissed?
Author's Note: So I'm almost done with Of Bloodshed, Babies, and Epic LoVe and Bondopoulos and I will be uploading our new dark story soon, but I wanted to write a Season 1 story because if you guys haven't figured out by now I'm overly in love with Season 1. The hate, the angst, the sexual tension between LoVe is too much to bare. So I wrote this. I don't know how long it'll be or whether anyway will even read it, but it's been fun to write and I promise it won't get in the way of OBBEL's ending, the sequel, or Bondo's and mine's project. It's probably the worst time to be starting a new story with finals etc, but I've always liked a good challenge and I couldn't write my paper on Native Americans so I took a break and came out with this. So enjoy! Let me know if I should continue or not. Title is also taken from Echo and the Bunnymen and the Chapter title is by Lita Ford
Chapter 1: Kiss Me Deadly
Fate
Up against your will
Through the thick and thin
He will wait until
You give yourself to him
In starlit nights I saw you
So cruelly you kissed me
Your lips a magic world
Your sky all hung with jewels
The killing moon
Will come too soon
Killing Moon By Echo and the Bunnymen
"Are you sure this is a good idea?" Yolanda asked nervously as Veronica punched in the password to open the gate that led up to the Echolls estate.
"Positive. I told Logan we'd come." Veronica said simply.
"But won't Lilly get mad?"
"What would she be mad about?" Veronica asked. She was confused wondering why Lilly would be angry that they were going to Logan's annual Parents-Are-Out-Of-Town party. They always went, but this year Lilly decided she had better things to do and ditched Veronica and Yolanda. Veronica had no problem attending Logan shin-dig, they were friends too. She maneuvered into a parking spot before turning off her new LeBaron she'd gotten a few weeks earlier as a belated birthday present from her parents.
"That we're going to Logan's party." Yolanda said hesitantly looking up at the big looming mansion in front of them.
"Lilly…Lilly is off being Lilly. I can't really explain it other then I think she broke up with him because she wanted to go to some other party. So I'm going to go in there and support my best friend with this party, since Lilly is being weird and Duncan is sick." Veronica explained.
"So Lilly just broke up with Logan so she didn't have to come to his party?" Yolanda asked bewildered.
Veronica bit her lip and then nodded begrudgingly. "Pretty much, and I know that paints Lilly badly, but you just have to know her."
Yolanda frowned, "doesn't it bother Logan that she treats him like that? I mean, if the love of my life broke up with me because he wanted to go screw other people I'd be pretty pissed."
"I didn't say anything about screwing other people." Veronica protested.
Yolanda raised an eyebrow at her. "What else do you think she's doing? I mean, I'm just saying when we were hanging out a few days ago I got the impression…" Yolanda trailed off and Veronica frowned trying to figure out what she was about to say.
"What? What impression did you get?" Veronica demanded to know.
"Just that she didn't love him as much as he loves her. How she talked about him…being possessive and always jealous I just kinda figured she was tired of him." Yolanda admitted.
Veronica's frown deepened and she sat back in her chair trying to comprehend what Yolanda was saying. Lilly did have a tendency to break up with Logan a lot, then go hook up with other guys, but Lilly wasn't intentionally hurting Logan…was she? And Logan allowed it anyway so what did that say about him? Then her mind went back to last night when they had their weekly sleepover. Lilly was going on about how possessive Logan was and how she actually was growing tired of being with him. She talked about other guys and Veronica had seen her flirting with Casey, Luke, and Sean at last weekend's party at Enbom's house. Sometimes Veronica even got the feeling that Lilly wasn't always so faithful to Logan either, she wondered if he knew. She wondered if she should tell him, but she had no proof other than a feeling. Then again could she really betray Lilly like that? Could she actually break Logan's heart? Could she really keep a secret from either of them? They were her best friends.
"You don't know what you're talking about. Lilly and Logan are just…they're Lilly and Logan." Veronica said masking how unsure she felt with a smile at Yolanda.
Yolanda shrugged and the two of them finally got out of the car and went into the overcrowded mansion. They moved their way through the rooms and bodies until they finally came to the kitchen both of them grabbing a mixed drink from the counter.
Veronica and Yolanda talked to a few of the 09ers, but Veronica was really scanning the crowd for Logan. She wanted to make sure he wasn't his usual drunken self, or at the very least wasn't too upset about the newest chapter in the Lilly-Logan saga. She saw a green shirt in the distance and her stomach dropped anxiously with the knowledge that Logan was approaching.
"Ronnie!" Logan exclaimed easily picking her out in the crowd and coming over to her. He whisked her into a hug and she buried herself in his chest feeling the warmth in his embrace. She sighed wistfully and reluctantly pulled back trying hard not to think about how much she enjoyed being in Logan's arms.
Once upon a time before Duncan had asked her to last year's Eclipse of the Heart Dance she had really liked Logan. She liked him to the point of secretly writing Mrs. Logan Echolls in her notebooks and her journal, but then Lilly found one of them and couldn't stop laughing at her. She told Veronica that it was never going to happen and that Logan saw her as just a friend since she'd never be his type. Veronica tried to ignore the pain the statement caused, but it was hard to do when all she'd thought of was being Logan's girlfriend. Soon after Lilly and Logan started hooking up and eventually dated, followed by Duncan asking her to the Eclipse of the Heart Dance, and her reluctant agreement. Although sometimes in the dead of night when she didn't feel as guilty about not day dreaming about her boyfriend, she thought of Logan and what things would be like if he'd asked her to the Eclipse of the Heart Dance instead of Duncan.
"Earth to Mars." Logan mocked and she snapped out of her daydream to glare playfully at him.
"What are you drinking?" he asked looking in her cup.
"Rum and coke." She said holding it up before going to take a drink.
"Don't drink that. Share with me. I have the good stuff." He whispered in her ear. She smiled and looked over at Yolanda, but found her talking to Enbom about music.
"Sure." Veronica said. He took her hand and began to pull her through the crowd easily maneuvering them between bodies until they were outside. The outdoor area was full with people making out and doing body shots off of Shelly and Madison. Since Lilly wasn't at the party the two cousins were the center of attention for once and were doing all they could to stay that way. Logan and Veronica shared a look at seeing Dick continuously mess up his body shot off Madison until she started yelling at him and they laughed together. They went towards the poolhouse, which was locked until Logan produced a key and pulled her inside. He shut the door and breathed a sigh of relief.
"Alone at last." He said smirking at her and grabbed a screwdriver to open the vent.
"It's your party, Logan, if you don't want people here tell them to leave." She stated sitting on the edge of the bed and watching as he took apart the vent. They had spent many nights in the pool house drinking and watching movies together, but tonight it felt different without the added bodies of Duncan and Lilly. "You learned that from Lilly." Veronica added smiling.
Logan snorted and grabbed something from the vent before returning it back to its original state.
"Lilly learned this from me." He said before going over to the liquor cabinet and coming out with a bottle of orange Patron.
"Fancy." She giggled scooting back on the bed and sitting against the pillows situated against the headboard.
Logan laughed and sat beside her pouring them two shots on the bedside table before passing her one.
"So where's Duncan?" he asked handing her a shot.
"He's sick."
"Lilly's not coming?" he asked a hopefully lilt in his voice.
She looked away Yolanda's words coming back to her. Instead of answering she raised the shot glass and cheersed him.
"To happiness." She said and he chuckled before they took their shots. She made a face, but gestured for him to pour another one.
"Logan—" she began, but cut herself off not sure what she was about to ask.
"Veronica." He said mimicking her.
She rolled her eyes and sat back further against the pillows. "Why do you stay with Lilly?"
She watched Logan tense at her question and he poured two shots.
"Why are you asking?"
"I'm curious."
"Did she say something to you?"
Veronica shook her head, "No, just…sometimes I see the way she treats you and I…I don't know. It's hard to explain."
He watched her quietly seeing the various emotions cross her face.
"Well she's hot for one, but…sometimes I don't remember why I stay with her either. Especially when she acts like she does now. She's been such a bitch lately." He admitted reaching for his shot glass.
"What do you mean?" Veronica asked knowing full well what he meant. Lilly had been extra bitchy. Ditching her tonight had been a good example. She had been more secretive too as if she were up to no good, which if Veronica had to bet, she was.
"Well she broke up with me for something stupid, and I know she did it so she didn't have to come tonight, then next week we'll be back together after she gets over fucking everyone in Neptune." He said bitterly.
Veronica frowned, "Logan, Lilly loves you."
"Yeah, just not like how I love her." He mumbled moving to cheers her again.
"What should we cheers to?" Veronica asked looking into Logan's deep chocolate eyes.
Logan smirked, "to friends."
Veronica grinned and they took their shots.
"I think she's seeing someone behind my back." He revealed.
Veronica gasped choking on her shot and he chortled at the amazed look on her face.
"Logan! She wouldn't! I mean I know—"
"Veronica, I know you like to think everyone lives happily ever after, but that's not reality. I know why Lilly breaks up with me. I know that she cheats on me with anything with a pulse. She's not subtle about it, maybe in the beginning she was, but now she's just… Sometimes I feel that it's habit that we get back together. She runs out of guys to fuck and I just can't imagine her not being in my life. She's like the sun that I revolve around. I don't know if I can live without her. Who else could handle my bullshit? I doubt you can understand." He said moving to pour another drink.
She stared at him feeling offended and then got off the bed needing to move around as the alcohol hit her system. "You know, just because you think I'm all innocent doesn't mean I actually am, Logan. I do understand what you're saying." She said hotly.
He chuckled mockingly and gave her a look. "You and innocent are synonymous. You've never done anything bad in your life, Ronnie, I mean, you and Duncan haven't even done the deed yet. You're as innocent as untouched white snow, Veronica."
She scowled and put her hands on her hips. "I am not! I'm getting drunk with you right now!"
"And you'll stay the night so you don't drive drunk."
"I've smoked pot with Lilly and you!"
"And you freaked out about it after thinking your dad was going to arrest you."
Veronica let out a frustrated noise and turned away from him.
"Face it, Ronnie, you're trusting, innocent, and pure. You aren't as broken as the rest of us." He said softly moving off the bed and coming to stand in front of her.
Veronica tilted her head up to regard him through bright blue angry eyes.
"I'm not that innocent, Logan, or pure." She snapped taking a step closer to him to try and intimidate him.
Logan laughed and shook his head, "yeah, ok, what's the worst thing you've ever done? And I can guarantee I've done a thousand things that are worse."
She glared up at him her mind trying to think of something really awful that she'd done, but all she could concentrate on were his lips being so close to hers. She tried to think of Duncan so that her desire to not close the few inches between them was deterred, but nothing she seemed to be able to think of helped with not wanting to kiss Logan. She wanted to blame it on the alcohol, but one of the reasons she tried not to spend so much time alone with Logan was because her little crush wasn't exactly so little. So maybe she only dated Duncan out of habit too, he was a good boyfriend, she could tell herself she loved him. She was good at denying her feelings.
"So? What's your deep dark dirty secret?" he asked leaning in closer trying to see into her, beyond her stormy blue eyes and into her soul.
Without thinking about what she was doing she leaned up and gently pressed her lips to his. When she pulled back she blinked several times and shook her head slightly bewildered at what she'd just done. The consequences had yet to hit her, but she knew what she'd just done was bad.
She took a step away and moved to walk around him, but he grabbed her arm and pulled her back to him pressing his lips hard against hers. It was like the world ceased to exist and Veronica couldn't remember her name. She felt an unfamiliar heat rise within her. With no regrets she wrapped her arms around his neck and pulled him closer. His tongue pressed at the seam of her lips and she opened them allowing him in. She felt the white hot passion flow through them and her stomach filled with butterflies as his tongue caressed hers. She felt a burning in her lungs and she knew air was becoming an issue, but the thought of separating from Logan was too awful to consider she might evaporate without him.
She pulled away reluctantly gasping for breath and she slowly looked into his eyes. He was staring down at her with an intensity she'd never seen before and suddenly the world came crashing down. What she had just done was really bad. She turned and ran. She felt completely ashamed and overwhelmed at what she'd just done.
She hurried through the party until she found Yolanda and asked if she could find her own way home. Enbom immediately agreed and Veronica disappeared into the night. Her heart was heavy with the consequences of her actions, but the one thing that she was absolutely sure of was that Logan was the best kisser ever.
(A/n: Continue or not to continue?)