I miss you
My packmate
My friend
My love
I know I shouldn't
Perhaps
Because you betrayed me
Because I have him now
The one to whom you betrayed me
I apologize to him
I try so hard to make him see me as a man
Not a monster
He asks much
Much more than you
Much sooner than you
No
I can't think of such things
He doesn't forgive me
Not yet
But he says
So often
That if I show him I can love
Like a human
Then he can forgive me
Trust me
Love me
Like you did
No
Stop
He dominates me
Makes me bow and bend to his whims
But if I am to be honest
It's not a struggle
I want to be dominated
I want him to tell me what to do
Because I wouldn't know otherwise
I want him to control me
So I can stop thinking
Thinking only hurts
And if I can try hard enough
Maybe someday I will love him
Like I love you
Loved you
There, that's better
Maybe I can win back some sense of myself
Maybe he can lead me back
I don't know
Sometimes it seems as though he just seems to be leading me further
Away
Because I can't think of myself without you
And he
Is
Leading me away from you
No
He is my partner now, if not my packmate
Not you