Life sucks and then you die, yeah right, not with my luck. My life was perfect or so I thought but now I'm a pissed off, depressed, 28 year old vampire, in a band with three werewolves and another vampire, all of them in relationships where as mine was fucked up 10 years ago and am, you guessed it, pissed off. I can still remember both the days I was changed and my whole life turned upside down, all in one month, yeah life is totally shit.

It was only a few days after my disastrous 18th birthday party that Alice had thrown. Where her mate had lost control of himself and tried to attack me. How much I wish he had succeeded, maybe then I wouldn't have to try and get by an hour at a time, only having my music to keep me going. I never blamed Jasper, I knew exactly why it was only him that had tried to attack me, not only is he the newest on that diet but he also had to deal with everyone else's bloodlust. Still, so many why's and what if's, like why couldn't Edward have killed me that first day or the rapists succeeded in killing me, why couldn't that van have crushed me, why couldn't James have killed me and what if Edward hadn't sucked the venom out? Actually I knew the answer to the last question. I would still be alone, Edward just would have hung around longer and I would have tried to chase him and eventually given up and asked the Volturi to kill me. That's another one, why haven't I asked them to kill me? Oh because Aro loved me like a daughter and wouldn't kill me no matter what happened even if I gave out hints that could easily lead to vampires. Trust me I've tried, almost all of my music video's include the Cullens and all hint at what they are. Edward walked me into the woods at the back of my house in Forks we had barely walked a few paces into the tree's away from my house when he stopped. Some walk.

"Bella, I don't want you anymore. Me and my family are leaving Forks." Honestly you would have thought I would have cried, or broken down or something but really I was just angry, no other feeling could get through. Well not then anyway.

"What?" My voice was normal, kind of, the calm before the storm and all that bollocks.

"You heard me right Bella, I want us. To. Break. Up."

"Yeah I heard that. What I didn't hear was the reason. If this is to do with Jasper I will honestly kick your ass." He actually smirked at that. SMIRKED. HOW FUCKING DARE HE!

"DON'T YOU FUCKING SMIRK AT ME YOU BASTARD! HOW FUCKING DARE YOU? I WAS THE ONE WHO PUT UP WITH SO MUCH SHIT AND. YOU. DUMP. ME! I SWEAR DOWN, I'M GOING TO FUCKING KILL YOU!" He actually didn't look scared and I don't really see why he would but he could at the very least pretend.

"You just don't belong in my world Bella." Never bothered him before.

"I belong with you."

"No you don't" Yes I fucking do Dickward.

"I'm coming."

"Bella I don't want you to come." Well if I can't come then why won't he stay?

"Please stay."

"Just move on Bella." Yeah right.

"Where do I go?"

"There are plenty of fish in the water. See you Bella, don't do anything stupid ok? I will always love you in a way…"

"Don't. Just stop. Fuck off. Before I do something I will. Not. Regret." I closed my eyes and took a deep breath to say I'm sorry and ask him not to leave me but when I opened them he wasn't there. He was just. Gone. That was when I broke. I fell to the ground crying and screaming.

"Please, come back, come back." I whimpered into what I thought was an empty forest.

Three weeks later when I was sitting outside the Cullens house –I hadn't managed to build up enough strength to try and go in–The Volturi found me. Before they did I had already started riding motorbikes, gotten a tattoo, been cliff diving, sort of dated Jacob Black until we figured it wouldn't work out and he then fell in love with Leah. Oh and the Quileute Teenagers began turning into werewolves, Jacob, Leah and Seth were some of them.

"Ahh. You must be the Swan girl, the Cullens pet." I looked up to see four hooded figures. One of which had black hair and spooky red eyes but they were kind of milky. I'm guessing that means he's old. Another was a small looking girl, with blond hair and bright red eyes and a boy around the same age. Black hair instead of blonde but they had the same basic features. Biological twins I'm guessing. Finally there was someone I actually recognised. Victoria.

"Go away." My voice wasn't strong like I hoped just a hopeless whisper.

"I'm afraid I can't do that Isabella. You know of what we are and so you must die or become one of us." Vampire? Yes before, not a chance in hell now.

"Then kill me because I honestly no longer give a flying fuck." Ahh shit I know that face, the bastard wants to change me and what was with the fucking glare, tiny girl was throwing at me, Victoria actually didn't seem to care, she looked how I felt, I threw her an apologetic glance and she just sent it right back. We both knew what it was like to lose our mates. But what if Edward wasn't my mate? I mean if I was, he wouldn't have left me, would he?

"Ahh but that would be such a waste. I have heard about the mind reader not being able to hear you and as Jane's power doesn't seem to be working either I believe I will change you and you can become one of us."

"No!" But it was too late he bit me and I was burning, I was in Hell.

I shook myself free of the memory and finished my makeup for the concert. I came back to Forks as soon as my thirst was mostly under control and had run into Jake he told me Charlie had passed away shortly after I went missing, victim of a heart attack. I couldn't bare to stay in Forks so we all moved to New York All of us meaning Jacob, his imprint Leah, also a wolf and her little brother Seth, again another wolf. Then in New York, I was hunting and found a woman who had been stabbed, Selene. Apparently Seth had been meeting up with her in secret and she was his imprint, she had gone to meet him and had been mugged. I bit her and she became a kick ass vampire with her short black hair, long legs and blue eyes that could make anyone fall for her. Her blue eyes stayed with her as she had a power, one that allowed her to not only change her own appearance but everyone else's. For a while I had posed as a black haired, green eyed girl called Raven and she was my twin sister Luna. But we were all back with our normal appearances and had not only created a band but became the best selling band since the Beatles in only two months. In this time we had created our own album that was released last week. Made 7 music videos and spent a month on tour. This time was harder though because we were so close to Forks. We were playing in Seattle where not long ago I'd had to help the Volturi destroy an army of newborns and had caught the scent that I still remembered from my human days. Edward. I really didn't want to see him, not now my life, or well existence was finally on track. Me and Selene were the best physical fighters since The God Of War, Aro still refuses to tell me his real name, not only that but my power is one that I carried since my human years and developed into something even stronger, I'm a shield, both mentally and physically.

"Five minutes!" Stage manger shouted through my door.

"Alright I'm coming." He'd been giving a time schedule and shouted out how long I had left every five minutes. For fuck sake I could be ready in five seconds. Taking one last look at my outfit I had to smile. I was hot, ever since becoming a vamp I've had total confidence in my looks, well okay most of the time I've chosen my looks but still. I was at the moment wearing a complete black leather cat suit, similar to our music video in my song 'What if'. Our first album was already on it's way to being a platinum selling CD. It was called 'Life goes on.' And had 14 tracks; Hot 'n' Cold, So What, Thinking Of You, Please Don't Leave Me, Battlefield, Bad Romance, Everybody's Fool, My Immortal, The Only One, Cinderella, I'm not a girl (not yet a woman), and fucking perfect, all of which sang by me and then Broken which is sang by Jacob and Leah and Dear friend which is sang by just Leah and is about me. Originally I'm the lead singer but play electric guitar and keyboard too, then Leah is mainly the keyboard player but sings some songs, Jacob again sings but is mainly an electric guitarist, finally we have Seth who is strict drummer and Selene, strict Bass guitarist. Together we were called Darkest Daylight. We were the first and last supernatural band, mainly because The Volturi would not allow anyone else to, but he loved me and a part of me loved him to, even if I did hate that he changed me against my will.

"You need to get on stage." Stage manager again.

"Yeah come on B!" Jake.

"Coming!" I walked out and headed onto the stage waiting just behind the curtain as the stage manager, what was his name? Erm… Mason? That was it; he was quite young and had been making eyes at me ever since we got here.

"Sheesh Jake, ever heard of being fashionably late?"

"Yeah it works for others but we are too popular and you defiantly don't want a repeat of last time do you?" Ugh. Don't remind me. I had taken so long that fans had headed back stage and broke in. That had scarred me for life, especially with the fact someone had cut themselves whilst smashing a window to get in. Even thinking about all that blood…

"Definitely not."

"Give it up for; Darkest Daylight!" That's our cue. We all got into our positions on stage and I looked at the crowd to see the people I had really wished I wouldn't. Cullens. Fuck My Life!