My life had never been simple but it had routine, now everything was changing, too quickly for me to really hold on. Maybe I should start by explaining how my life used to be.
It had always been just me and my mom, Renee. She was really a great person, but was also a good time girl, so I guess it's a good thing that I'm the same, she's my mom, best friend and sister all rolled into one. We'd always had a routine, I would go to school, come home, help mom clean up a little, me and mom would swap over cooking, one day it'd be me and the next her, we both were good cooks, not exceptional but good, neither of us had gotten food poisoning from the others cooking at least, sometimes mom would have her friends who had quickly became mine over; Justine, Jay and Gavin, occasionally some others but they were the main three who were simply friends, our family were like friends too but mainly Shaun and Bobz, my uncles. A lot of the time we'd all get together on a Saturday and drink our weight in booze, Fridays were my favourite days though, I loved a good party but on a Friday it would just be me and mom sat by the fire with either a bottle of wine, or Vodka, just catching up on what had happened in the week, mom had only had three long term boyfriends, my dad –who she broke up with during her pregnancy, mainly because he'd wanted nothing to do with me, Jake –who had turned into an abusive ass after eight years of them being together and Phil – who she's broken up with when he'd cheated on her with his ex, it had only been a one time thing but he was never really a nice guy, not to me anyway, he had times when he'd treat her like a princess which is why I'd put up with him, but its been two years now and me and mom have been fine just the two of us living together. I'd had a boyfriend too, Edward Mason, I'd met him at school not long after I started smoking in my 3rd year at Barrs Hill. Our group was strange and consisted of people from all ages, the only thing we had in common was that we smoked, but we all had a laugh together at break and lunch and most had come over to parties I'd thrown in the past. Our family were mainly orientated around each other, we were close, and had loyalty drilled into us since infancy, it was good that way though, you would always know that they had your back. My friends Peter, Charlotte, Emmett and Rose had been with me through everything, I had other friends too but they were just the ones that I could depend on as much as my family. They still had my back, my family did too but now they were the only people I really had left.
Things have changed now, first by Jay constantly hitting on me, I'd never told anyone because I didn't want to break our group apart but eventually more stuff happened. He had kissed my mom one night when she'd been passed out drunk on the sofa she had woken up and pushed him off but he had begged and begged her not to say anything to Justine as he knew that she would never forgive him but would always forgive my mom, a year later he started going around claiming to have slept with her, mom and Justine fell out a little but only because Justine was hurt my mom never told her the truth about the night they kissed. During the time that was kicking off I found the strength to tell my mom about the things he'd said to me with help from Rose, mom had called Gavin out and he'd admitted to having a conversation with Jay in which Jay had been commenting on how beautiful I'd gotten over the years. In the end we lost Gavin too, mom and I didn't want to be friends with him when we knew that he'd been going back to the others and telling them everything we'd been saying and so whilst that happened we lost everyone else that had been close to us, everyone but our family and my school friends. Edward was angry about what had happened and it was hard to convince him not to kill Jay, I just wanted life to go back to normal but it got worse. Last week I had gone over to Edwards and walked in on him having sex with the school slut, Alice Brandon, I had been heartbroken, in a way I still am but I've had so much other stuff to do that it hasn't really hit me yet, thankfully I haven't had to face him as we were currently on summer break. Mom had gotten back with Phil, he wasn't allowed to stay over at the weekends, it was an unwritten rule between mom and me, weekends were our time, Phil would sometimes stay with us, on those nights I'd stay out of the way, we still didn't get on but I was sucking it up because I know mom had missed him and still loved him and I was pretty sure that he loved her too, other nights mom would stay at him and I'd normally spend those nights by inviting Char, Pete, Rose and Em over. The best bit about not seeing Phil at the weekends was that I rarely had to see his kids too, his son who was 11 Mike, he wasn't that bad but his constant singing used to give me a headache and then his daughter Tanya she was fourteen and followed me around like a lost puppy, it really irked me because I could never get any peace, I'd be watching a show and would have to explain everything that had happened to her, or I'd be reading and she'd constantly ask me what it was about until I answered her, thoroughly putting my off. However everything wasn't all bad, mom was thinking about adopting, she'd gone there today, I wasn't aware of how long these things took but was genuinely excited to welcome someone knew into our family, I kept wondering what they'd be like, and hoping that we would get on, mom promised me she would adopt someone either older or the same age as me as she knew that I wasn't maternal and that younger children just annoyed me after an hour or two.
"Bella? Bella! BELLA!" Shouting caused me to jump and face whoever was standing across the bar from me, shit, I really need to pull myself together at work.
"Sorry boss." The boss of Eclipse, the pub I was currently working for during summer wasn't a bad person, as a matter of fact she was lovely and I really got on with her, but I kept spacing out today and I was sure she could tell something was going on, upon inspecting her face I could see the concern in her eyes.
"Are you okay Bells?" I smiled and nodded at her.
"Yeah I'm good Leah, sorry moms gone to the adoption centre today and I'm just nervous about having a new brother or sister, excited too though." She smiled back at me causing her already sparking blue eyes to gleam and glitter, the black of her hair shined too as it fell down her back, everything about her was dazzling and I felt sorry for any guy that thought they had a chance, her boyfriend was not someone you wanted to get on the other side of, though he's lovely to friends he is positively evil to enemies. Jacob Black just as physically attractive, has been like a big brother to me here since I started working here, and it had only been a week.
"Don't worry, I'm sure everything will work out, I'd actually been shouting to let you know that your shift is over." I looked at the clock to see that it was indeed five and I could go home. Well shoot, time flies when you're in your own world.
"Damn, I really have been elsewhere today." Leah laughed with me.
"I have something for you, come on." I followed her to her office, it was beautiful I'd rarely gotten a chance to come in here but it was really homey and suited Leah perfectly. She opened a box that was on her desk and nodded to it, looking inside I smiled, bless her heart.
"Are you serious? As if it isn't enough that you pay me really well you're giving me free booze?" She just smirked.
"Why not? It's to make up for the fact that you're not allowed to drink much whilst on the job. I know you enjoy your weekend parties, so I thought I'd help ya out a little." I had a huge grin on my face as I went around and hugged Leah, hard."
"You know I love ya right?" She just laughed.
"I believe I've heard you say it now and then." We messed around for a few more minutes and had a few shots together before I had to leave; I hailed a cab and carefully put the box of alcohol onto one of the seat before climbing in myself. Grabbing my phone out of my bag and turning it on, I saw two missed calls off my mom, she hadn't left any messages so I put it back in my bag, no point ringing her I'd be home soon.