**Author's Note- THIS IS AN OLD STORY! I uploaded the first couple chapters last week, but when I tried to update it the site would not let me. So, I had to re-upload this story. Sorry for any inconvenience. **

Prologue

"In the rain the pavement shines like silver

All the lights are misty in the river

In the darkness, the trees are full of starlight

And all I see is him and me forever and forever"

All I can see in the downpour of rain is the gorgeous blue green eyes of Kurt Hummel. There is not one other person, from what I can see. It is just him and I. I run to him, and upon seeing that he is smiling I look around to see if there is in fact someone behind me. There is not. Why is Kurt smiling at me? I am nothing but awful to him, and I certainly do not deserve the sweet expression on his face.

I know when I finally reach where he is standing I can tell him my true feelings. I think I am falling in love with him. I know it's weird since I don't really know him, but there is just something about Kurt that makes me fall, and fall hard. Even though the chances are that he is going to push me away and think I am some kind of crazy maniac, for some reason I feel invincible.

I am now about a foot away from him but before I have the chance to tell him how I feel he pulls me into a loving embrace. I am instantly confused, happy nonetheless, but confused. The last time I got near him like this he pushed me away with a disgusted look on his face. But this time he hugged me, and I felt as happy as I have ever felt in my life! We pull away and I look at him and I speak the only three words I know how to say right now, the truth.

"I love you."

"I love you, too" he says.

Just like that he grabs the back of my neck and pulls me down for a kiss. His eyes are closed and he looks so expectant so I lean in and I kiss him with just as much passion as the first time in the locker room. Before I realize what's going on everything fades and I feel different. I feel less happy.

I look around and I see my boring old room, my boring white room with repulsive pictures of half-naked girls and cars. It is just a normal teen boys' room. I am not a normal teen boy. It was all a dream. I cannot believe I left myself fall for it. Kurt would never ever forgive me for how I have treated him. Hell, I can't even forgive myself. I hate who I have become and I think everybody else, except my so-called friends, do too. Even my parents hate me... It is exhausting, and terrifying.