Loud yelling and screams came from the civilians and officers in the crowd. Policemen were running, armed, towards where the shot was fired. Everything was happening so fast, and it was all so unreal.

But through all of the noise and chaos, Richard Castle found himself to be in his own world. The sounds of people running and screaming didn't phase him. The sounds of policemen running by and yelling orders didn't even break his gaze he had held on the one person who was slipping away right in front of him. The one person who had him fascinated and amazed everyday they were together. The one person who had allowed him into their life, even when they didn't always want him to be. The one person who knew him through the good and the bad. The person he had just told he loved…Kate Beckett.

"She's my friend." Lanie cried, as she continued the chest compressions on her best friend. There was blood everywhere, including Lanie's gloved hands and dress. She had her heels up on the metal bar that was underneath the stretcher that Beckett was laying on, unconscious.

"Then let us save her!" the doctor ordered. Lanie hesitated and then stepped down. The doctors and emt's disappeared down the hospital hallway, leaving a crying Lanie and a worried Castle.

Lanie turned to Castle and leaned on him. He wrapped his right arm around her and they turned back towards the waiting room. Castle's heart felt like it had been ripped out, and he was still in disbelief at what was happening. He had finally told Beckett how he felt, he never expected to of said it in a situation like this. Esposito took Lanie and they sat down together. Ryan sat in a chair next to Esposito, with his hands in his hair, as he looked down at the ground. Martha and Alexis rose up as soon as they saw Castle. Alexis ran into her dad's arms, as he held her tight. He then reached out for his upset mother.

"You two shouldn't be…" Castle went to say.

"Nonsense Richard, we want to be here. Kate needs all of us here." Martha cut him off, she smiled slightly at her son. Castle smiled with his sad eyes, and looked down at his daughter. Alexis had tears stained on her porcelain cheeks. Castle motioned for them to sit down. Martha had her arm around Alexis and Castle stared down at the ground. Who the hell did this and why? Castle yelled in his head. He took his eyes off the floor and they drifted over to a man sitting across from him, the man was older and had tears falling down his face. It was Kate's father, Jim Beckett. Beckett's father looked up and held his stare with Castle's blue eyes. Castle didn't know what to say, what do you say? Both Castle gave him a look that said how sorry he was.

"When we find the bastard that did this…" Esposito started.

"Detectives." An officer said from behind them. Both Ryan and Esposito turned around fast in their chairs. The cop signaled for them to come over, and they shot up, along with Castle.

"I'm sorry sir but…"

"No, he's with us." Esposito said, patting Castle on the shoulder. Ryan also nodded to the cop.

"We haven't found much yet. He or she knew what they were doing. They shot from about a hundred yards away. We have men everywhere searching, and we won't stop until we get this scumbag." The cop said, as he looked at all three men. Ryan and Esposito wanted this guy as much as Castle did.

"Thanks, keep us updated if you find anything." Ryan said. The cop nodded, and turned away towards the elevator.

"The son of a bitch better hope we don't find him." Esposito said coldly.

"It's him…the fourth cop. Has to be, and not just because that's how I'd write it." Castle said in a low voice for only them to hear. Only the three of them knew the truth. The truth that they're captain had been involved in Beckett's moms murder case. The three of them, plus Beckett, swore to never mention it to anyone and that Captain Montgomery would die a hero.

"Maybe we should go back to the precinct and try to help. " Ryan offered, as he pulled out his phone checking for any missed calls. Esposito nodded. They both looked at Castle.

"I think I'm going to stay here for a while, but I'll try to stop in once I know…" Castle nodded his head towards the emergency room doors- where Beckett was. The two detectives patted Castle on the back. Castle turned to see Esposito trying to get Lanie to come home, she shook her head. He kissed her forehead and then headed out with Ryan. Castle walked back over to his mother and daughter.

"You guys should go home, get changed. It's been a long day. I'll call you as soon as I hear anything. I just need…" Castle paused.

"Call us dear." Martha responded. She stood up with Alexis. Alexis hugged her dad one more time before they walked away.

Castle sat down next to Beckett's father.

"I'm sorry."

"This isn't your fault, Rick." He replied. You could see the hurt in his eyes. This was a man who had lost his wife years ago, and now his only daughter was lying in an emergency room with a gunshot in her chest. Castle looked over at Lanie, she was over at the desk trying to get information on her friend.

Castle could feel his heart sinking lower. He wanted to see Kate. He wanted to hold her. He would give anything to just be sitting in his brown chair beside her desk, annoying the hell out of her with his theories of alien invasions and dirty talk. What he give to see her roll her eyes, or even just to watch her fill out paperwork.

"Where is she?" a voice yelled out. This broke Castle's thoughts and he immediately looked up to see the last person he wanted to see.

Josh.