A/N: Yeah well, since my friend nearly begged me to write this story and tomorrow's her birthday, I decided to just write a prologue and see what happens from then on *g*
So… this is SLASH and a THREESOME with MORGAN/REID/HOTCH… just so you're warned *smiles*
I know the beginning may seem a little abrupt, but I promise there will be more explanation in the next chapters (and also flashbacks on how Morgan, Hotch and Reid got together)… this prologue is merely an introduction to the situation and conflict that will develop throughout the story *smiles*
Oh and things in //…// and italics is //Thoughts//
So I really hope you enjoy the prologue and comments would be most appreciated *puppy dog eyes*
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Summary: Hotch, Reid and Morgan have found happiness in each other's arms… but as always, happiness doesn't last forever… in this case not even long, when suddenly one of the three feels left out because of some misunderstandings. There will be jealousy, drama and of course fluff and romance (SLASH)
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Disclaimer: None of the CM characters belong to me… I just borrowed them for this little story… my OC'S do belong to me though… this story doesn't mean to offend anybody… this is just for fun… and not for money either...
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If I needed Someone
Prologue
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Spencer Reid was dead tired when he finally pulled out the keycard to his hotel room out of the pocket of his well-worn trousers.
He had worked pretty late with Prentiss on the geographical profile for their newest case and they had forgotten the time.
And it had been a tiring day and all Reid wanted to do now, was to snuggle into bed with his two lovers holding him.
Said lovers, Aaron Hotchner and Derek Morgan were probably already asleep, so Spencer tried to be as quiet as possible, so he wouldn't wake the two up.
He knew that they needed their sleep. The team had had some hard and gruesome cases in the last few weeks… and Morgan and Hotch probably had a lot on their mind, because they had been keeping their distance from Reid in the last weeks and it was starting to irritate the younger man a little, but he didn't dare to ask them about it.
Why they might keep their distance from him, he honestly had no idea.
Maybe Aaron and Derek just needed a few more days and then everything would go back to normal again.
For now Spencer decided to ignore the nagging feeling that was growing in his stomach, that yes, they were distant with him, but they seemed even closer to each other.
//I'm probably just imagining things anyway…// Spencer thought when he finally slipped the keycard into its slot and silently pushed open the door.
A small smile made its way onto his face when he spotted his lovers lying on one of the two beds in the room, cuddled close together and sleeping peacefully.
They looked so beautiful together… so perfect and Spencer stood in the doorway for a moment to admire his two lovers, not believing how lucky he was to have the two men in his life, no matter that he was still feeling a little insecure in the relationship, because he could understand what both men saw in each other, but he couldn't really say what they saw in him.
So Reid was always afraid that one day they'd decide they didn't need him in their life anymore and would shut him out…
The last days had strengthened these insecurities, even though Reid tried not to let these get to him too much, because despite the fact that the three of them hadn't spent much time alone together these last days, Morgan and Hotch had never given any indication that Spencer wasn't part of their relationship… quite the contrary.
But the little doubts still remained and were slowly growing, nurtured by Aaron's and Derek's distant behavior since this case had started a week ago.
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Reid shook himself out of those thoughts and then closed the door behind him, before any guest who happened to pass by would be able to see the three of them in the same room.
Even though Reid, Hotch and Morgan had never intentionally hidden their relationship, they had always been discreet, especially during work.
Okay, Spencer knew that their team at least suspected that there was something between the three, or at least between Morgan and Reid, but they hadn't told anyone.
Well, except Garcia that was… but the tech whiz was the reason why the three of them were together, so they had decided that it was only fair for her to know about them.
A fond smile made his way on Reid's face when he thought about the first time they had all admitted how they felt about each other.
Now Reid couldn't wait to really crawl into bed with Hotch and Morgan, because that would help him to forget about all the nightmares and all the stress of the day…
But Reid suddenly realized something else: there was no space for him on the bed, unless he woke Morgan and Aaron up.
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And there it was again… this strange feeling that had grown in the last weeks… this had never happened before.
Ever since the three of them had gotten together three months ago, they had always slept in the same bed whenever they had the possibility to do so.
And no matter what time it was when the last of them came to the hotel room there was always space of him on the bed.
But now… now Spencer felt oddly left out, even though his brain immediately told him that it was an irrational thought and Morgan and Aaron hadn't hogged the whole bed intentionally.
//I could also just wake them up… I'm sure they won't mind.//
And Reid knew that this was probably the most rational reaction to do exactly that.
But his insecurity came back full force and he didn't want to anger the two other men… besides, they needed their sleep.
So Reid decided to just sleep on the other bed, even though he knew he wouldn't sleep much tonight, because he had gotten so used to sleeping sandwiched between the two men he loved most in the world, save in their arms, protected from all the nightmares.
//Hey, it's not their fault that they were so tired and it's even less their fault that I was up this late.// Reid tried to reason with himself, while he slipped down to his boxers and a shirt and crawled under the covers, only bothering to quickly brush his teeth before he did so.
Reid squeezed his eyes shut and tried to sleep, but he just couldn't find a position he was comfortable with and he knew it was because he missed Morgan and Hotch lying next to him…
Spencer's eyes snapped open and he focused on the other two men, who were sleeping peacefully, obviously more than content in each other's arms.
//Without me…// The thought popped up without any warning and for a second Spencer's heart clenched painfully.
//No, they love me. I'm just overreacting…. They probably have a few things to sort out together and don't want to drag me into it so that I won't worry too much.// Again the rational part of his brain tried to tell him and calm him down and for now Reid decided to keep this thought and try to get some sleep.
He could always talk to Derek and Aaron in the morning and then everything would be okay again.
But this feeling of being left out didn't completely vanish and Reid finally couldn't take it anymore and turned his back towards the other bed, so that he wouldn't have to see his two lovers wrapped up in a comfortable embrace without him.
He squeezed his eyes shut, clutched his pillow tighter and curled into as small a ball as possible, so that he could pretend it were Derek's or Aaron's arms that were wrapped around him.
Sleep still didn't come easily and even though it might not seem like a big deal in other people's eyes that he couldn't sleep in the same bed as his lovers, it was a big deal to Spencer, because it hurt… even though he was sure Derek and Hotch hadn't intended to do that… but this thought made it nearly impossible for the younger man to give his body the sleep he so desperately needed.
//It doesn't mean a thing… they were just tired. And the bed in this hotel is smaller than the ones we're used to… it really doesn't mean a thing.// Reid told himself over and over in his thoughts, squeezing his eyes shut even tighter… and finally, around five o'clock he fell into an exhausted slumber that was plagued by nightmares…
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to be continued, if anyone is interested…