Decisions of the Heart Chapter 1: Choosing between us, an avatar: last airbender fanfic

Author's note: i just watched the season 2 finale.. I set it up like Katara and Zuko are together now. Read it and tell me what you think..

Ever since the day she when I told her about my past on how I don't want to be the avatar, we've grown closer.

Unfortunately, our closest is never close enough.

After everything I've done for her, we're still just friends.

Sometimes I think that we could be so much more, and I know that there are times when she feels it, too.

She's dating Zuko.

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I sit on a tree overlooking the lake. I come here often to think. In all honesty, it's quite refreshing. I close my eyes, allowing the gentle wind to bathe my face becoming lost once more in my thoughts.

I've known since the day I befriended Katara that she always have a crush on some guy we always met on the way. And that was okay. I mean, sure I flirted with the too, but it didn't mean anything. Okay, I admit that I had a bit of a crush on her at the time. But now, it become something more.

I, the avatar Aang, have finally given away my heart to her. Not only that, but I've thrown it to the one girl who doesn't even want it! Now, it hurts to even see her, to have her talk to me like we're the best of friends, to come so close to her strawberry-scented hair and warm hugs, to know that I don't mean nearly as much to her as she does to me...that I never will.

So I've started avoiding her. And she has noticed. I know she has. I can see the hurt look in her eyes every time I brush her aside. It kills me to do it. It kills me when I don't do it. I can never win.

Whatcha' doin' tonight
I wish I could be a fly on your wall
Are you really alone
Who's stealin' your dreams
Why can't I bring you into my life
What would it take to make you see that I'm alive

If there was no Zuko? She and I would probably be together. She's even gone so far as to tell me so! That hurts worst of all. I'll never win in the fight for Katara's heart.

I throw a pebble into the lake, watching as it skips four times before sinking to the bottom. As the ripples fade away, all I can see is Katara. The curve of her lips, the amber flecks in her eyes. To me, she is perfect, a vision with no flaws. Her image dances over the water's surface, taunting me. I throw another pebble as I feel the wind shift and fade away.

"What are you doing out here, Aang?"

I turn my head below and see her looking straight at me. Apparently, the vision had been a real reflection this time...unless the Katara now sitting beside me is also a mirage? I'm truly losing it, aren't I? Who would have ever thought a girl existed who could make me lose touch with reality?

I shifted my position and airbend myself to go down.

If I was invisible
Then I could just watch you in your room
If I was invincible
I'd make you mine tonight
If hearts were unbreakable
Then I could just tell you where I stand
I would be the smartest man
If I was invisible
(Wait..I already am)

"Aang?" She places her hand on my shoulder, radiating her heat as it passes through my sleeve and encompasses my skin. Mirages aren't warm—or firm and solid.

"Hi, Katara."

"Are you alright, Aang??"

I shrug carelessly, an impartial expression plastered to my face. "Why wouldn't I be?"

"I don't know, you look...sad."

I look at her. She truly is as clueless as she is gorgeous. She has no idea of the turbulent thoughts that are tumbling through my head, does she?

"I'm fine, Katara. I'm just...lost in thought."

"About what?"

"Life. Have you ever felt like you're spinning out of control while everyone else continues to go though through the motions at a normal speed?"

"Sometimes, yes. More so now than ever before."

Saw your face in the crowd
I call out your name
You don't hear a sound
I keep tracing your steps
Each move that you make
Wish I could read what goes through your mind
Wish you could touch me with the colors of your life

"Really?"

"Yeah." She nervously twirls a strand her hair around her finger. "Sometimes, I feel like I don't know my left from my right anymore, that I've made so many wrong choices that I won't ever get back onto the right path."

I look at her curiously. She did? "Like what?"

"The way I dealt with Zuko. The way that I treated you."

"You regret being my friend?"

f I was invisible
Then I could just watch you in your room
If I was invincible
I'd make you mine tonight
If hearts were unbreakable
Then I can just tell you where I stand
I would be the smartest man
If I was invisible
(Wait..I already am)

"No, never! But sometimes I wonder if I've done the right thing. Maybe I should have given you a chance once Zuko and I broke up instead of pining after him. You were so supportive of me. I mean, you even helped me to mave a move towards him! And look at where we are now."

What in the world is she getting at? I stare at her, confused. "Uh...what?"

"Aang, you can't even look me in the eye anymore! You can only turn away from me! I've ruined our friendship!"

"No, Katara, I—"

"I guess deep down, I knewyou liked me. I was just so into Zuko, and—"

"You still are, Katara."

"Aang, I don't want to lose you!"

"I'm right here beside you."

"But are you? Everything is different now!"

"Katara...you can't be serious."

"Why not?"

"Because you're in love with Zuko! You have been since you saw him"

I reach out
But you don't even see me
Even when I scream out
Baby, you don't hear me
I am nothing without you
Just a shadow passing through...

"But am I really? Or am I just in love with the idea of being in love? He was the first boy I ever liked, Aang."

"How do you feel about him now?"

"I don't know. I'm so confused inside..."

"And me?"

"I...you're Aang. I don't know. I never expected it to hurt so much when you blew me off. But it did. I mean, it does."

"So you're saying...what?"

"Why are you making my head spin, Aang?"

"I'm making you think. Don't say things that you don't mean, especially to me."

"But it's all true, Aang! I mean, if I had never met Zuko, and you asked me out? I probably would have said yes. I've told you that before!"

"You can't like us both, Katara."

"Tell that to my heart!"

"Katara, you can't keep leading us on like this. You're going to have to choose. Who's it gonna be, him or me? You can't have us both, you know. If you choose him, don't come back to me later. If you reject me now, I'll move on." I stare at her intently, feeling as though the fate of the world lay upon her next words...

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