As I walk through the pit, I wonder why I haven't seen Tobias in two days. He always used to see me every day, at least. Then again, maybe he doesn't like me anymore? I don't know. I decide to go to his apartment. As I walk through the pit, I see Peter, Drew and Molly walking around, obviously drunk. I suppose I should have known. They get drunk every New Year 's Day. For the past five fucking years they have gotten drunk, every January the first. It is stupid. Oh well, it isn't my problem.
I arrive at Tobias' apartment within the hour, and knock on the door. He opens it, and says,
"Hey Tris, what can I do for you?" I realize that I just want to kiss him, to hold him, for him to be mine again. But all I say is,
"I miss you. I haven't seen you in two days. I know I might sound a little clingy to you, but I miss you." At this, he hugs me, and says,
"I've missed you too. I've been trying to figure out how to ask you something. Come inside." We go in, and I see clothes all over the floor. I wonder what all this could be about. He takes me into his arms, kissing me passionately. When he lets me go, I sit down, euphoria taking over me. He goes into his walk-in wardrobe, and comes out with his hands behind his back. He walks over to me, and asks me to stand up. I do, and he gets on his knees.
"Tris, my love, will you marry me?" He asks. It takes me by surprise. I thought he didn't like me anymore, and then he asks me to marry him. I don't know what to say. I love him, I truly do, but can I do this? This would mean dealing with my fear of intimacy, eventually. But do I love him enough for this? To marry him? I think so. So I say,
"yes, Tobias, oh, I would love to marry you!" so, grinning, he puts the ring on my finger, and kisses me, softly at first, and then more passionately. We sit there for a while, before I have to go back to work, to training initiates.
"I'll see you later okay?" I say as I walk out the door.
That night at dinner, I sit with Christina, and try to hide the ring, hoping to tell her about my engagement that night, but she sees it, and says,
"What's with the ring, Tris?" So I have to tell her.
"Tobias, umm, might have proposed," I say.
"REALLY?" she yells out.
"Yes, keep your voice down!" I hiss at her, "Now, I was going to tell you later, but since you know now, would you like to be my maid of honour?"
"Oh my god yes!" she says.