Chapter 1 The concept takes shape
It had been about a month since Tommy's sudden disappearance, and no matter how I tried I couldn't seem to get over it. I wanted too; really I did, because I was tired of faking smiles. Coming into work each day with a gigantic cup of coffee, just to keep myself awake because I'd had that dream again. You know, that dream, the one where Tommy came back, and I'd woken up an hour after I'd fallen asleep to realize that that was all it was. A dream, and nothing more. Tommy wasn't coming back, he was god knows where, doing god knows what with god knows who. Well if god does know I wish he'd give me some incite, because this is killing me.
Though I have to admit that this whole new level of pain has brought my music to another level as well. I've even stepped outside my norm, and written the concept for a music video. Of course it was based on Tommy leaving, and coming back.
Thank god for the dreams that have made me lose so much sleep. If it wasn't for them I wouldn't be doing all this.
I cringed as I walked into G major, and saw Sadie at the front desk. We weren't fighting or anything, far from it in fact, but she was going to ask me how I was doing, and yet again I was going to lie.
"Good morning Jude," Sadie said.
"Morning Sadie."
"So how are you this morning?"
"Fine."
"Are you really okay?"
"Of course I am, why do you ask?"
"Because I know you didn't get any sleep last night."
"Yes I did." I said defensively.
"Jude you can't lie to me."
"What makes you think I'm lying?"
"Well first of all, you're my sister, and I can tell. Second of all you've got some major bags under your eyes. Cover up is your friend hun." Damn! That's what I'd forgotten, cover up. I'm not usually the kind of girl who likes to get all dolled up, or even give a damn about covering blemishes and other things of that nature. But as Sadie said it does wonders for dark circles.
"Look Jude, I know that Tommy's leaving hurt you but…"
"Why do you say that?"
"You cared about him Jude. You know it, I know it, hell, practically all of G major knows it."
"Everyone knew it but him."
"He knew it Jude. He knows it." Sadie said.
"Well this is new." I observed.
"What?"
"You defending Tommy. What's with the sudden change?"
"Um, no reason." Sadie said awkwardly. It seemed like she was hiding something. What did she know that I didn't? "I just think that…"
"Jude!" Darius said, cutting Sadie off. "No time for talk, get to work."
"I'm on it D!"
"Thanks for the attempt at a pep talk sis, but duty calls. And I'm fine, really." I flashed her a smile, and ran after Darius.
"D Wait!"
He turned around. "Something you need to talk about?"
"Yes actually."
"Come into my office."
""So what's up?" Darius asked once we were inside his office.
"I sort of came up with this idea."
"For a song?" Darius asked confused.
"No, for a music video."
"Really? For what song?"
"White lines." I replied.
"Okay let's hear it." Darius said, and I told him everything I had planned last night after realizing that I couldn't get to sleep.
"That's amazing Jude!"
"You really think so?" I smiled, happy to have some encouragement. I knew that Darius Mills did not say he liked something unless he absolutely meant it.
"Jude can I talk to you about something?" Darius asked.
"Can it wait?" I asked. "I've got to go record with Kwest.
"Well…"
"Thanks D!" I said running out the door. Man I wish I'd listened to him!
Author's note: So there you have it! Let me know what you think! Please please please review!
Much love
Annie