5/16/09
"Who are you?"
Three little words sent tears to my eyes and my heart to my stomach. I spent four days waiting and hoping for him to wake up. I hadn't even considered that he would have retrograde amnesia. I had hoped that he would wake up and be fine. I had hoped that we would be Booth and Bones, the same as before. I had hope that we would be different than before, more than what we were before. I had been serious when I said I wanted him to father my progeny. Things would be different now. Not the different that I wanted though.
I left the room without answering him. I didn't go into the waiting room. I went to my car. I sat there for who knows how long. It was dark when I went back to the waiting room. Angela was the first to see me.
"Sweetie, Booth's awake! Why aren't you happier?" How did she not know?
"Ange, Booth has retrograde amnesia. He doesn't know who I am" Tears pricked at my eyes, but I wouldn't let them fall. Angela's mouth formed an 'o'.
"Booth…?" In all our eyes Booth was perceived as invincible. This was the man who had conquered death many times. A little thing like amnesia couldn't touch a strong man like Booth, or so we thought. Angela and I embraced and that was enough to send me into tears. A few minutes later, I was sniffling and Parker came out of Booth's hospital room following Rebecca. HE pulled his arm out of Rebecca's hand and raced over to me.
"Auntie Bones, why doesn't my daddy remember me? He only remembered mommy." I hugged the little boy, that had Booth's chocolate eyes and I couldn't answer him. Instead we cried together.
"I'm sorry Parker. I'm so sorry." I whispered into his curly blonde locks. He pulled away and looked up at me,
"Auntie Bones, can I come stay with you until my daddy gets better?" I looked at him. Shock was clearly written across my face.
"Park, what about your mommy? Doesn't she need you?" Parker looked down.
"I don't want to stay with her. Daddy 'members mommy but, not me. Since daddy doesn't 'member you we can talk about him together." Despite the tears still fresh on my face, I smiled a little bit.
"Of course you can stay with me Park. I'd love that. We should make sure your mommy is okay with it though." Parker practically skipped over to where Rebecca was sitting. I missed the look that Angela shot at Cam and Sweets. Soon Parker had the O.K from his mom and we were heading back to his house so he could get a suitcase of clothes and personal items.
"Parker, I'm glad you're staying with me." I said to him as we were driving back to the hospital. I got no response. When we got to the next red light, I turned around in my seat and looked back. Parker was fast asleep. I smiled. We got to Walter Reid Hospital and Angela was the only one left in the waiting room. I set Parker down next to her and took the seat on her other side.
"The doctors ran some tests but, they don't know anything." She said without my even asking. I nod. The tears don't even prick at my eyes this time.
"Can you watch Parker? I want to go see him?" I say. This time its Angela's turn to nod. I leave my purse on my seat and head into his room. Now Booth is asleep. He looks so peaceful, more like the old Booth. But I know that when he opens his eyes he won't be the Booth I know. Right now he is the old Booth, the Booth that is in love with Rebecca, the Booth that doesn't know any of us at the Jeffersonian. He's not the Booth that I love. I do know one thing though: I won't rest until I have my Seeley Booth back.