So after finishing the last story I got in the mood to write another AU but this one is gonna be from Lightning's pov

So without further a due time for the obligatory I don't own final fantasy Square Enix does.

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Chapter 1: The Voice

As my eyes shot open dreading the day to come. It was always the same. I'll get up make breakfast for Serah, mom and the bastard known to the people of New Bodhum as the prestigious writing genius Cyril Farron then I would lock myself into my room and try to ignore that annoying voice.

Once I was done making the food Serah was the first to come into the room. "Good morning Claire." It was always the same. The only difference was the voice came early today. 'Serah is always a nice girl… maybe you could spare her. Hell I'll even let your moral compass decided on your mother but you really need to kill Cyril. Or at least give him a NICE. BIG. CHESHIRE. GRIN.'

"No, no, no you're not meant to come out right now!" running my hands through my hair and pounding my head, Serah came running over and holding me while I was in the fettle position, I didn't even realise I collapsed. "She is back isn't she Claire? Don't listen to her. She will always mislead you and try to taint you further." I knew she was right, hell if Serah wasn't my voice of reason I would have fallen a lot further.

'Ohhh sharp as a tack like always. That is why I like her. But who are you going to listen to, your true self or your goody two shoes sister? Hmmm you know the favourite. The only one who your dad would ever miss, maybe you should give him reason for concern. What's a broken arm you have already had a few? Granted they were to get me to shut up but we both know how that turned out.' She never until recently began to threaten Serah, ever since she learned that Serah was starting to suppress her.

I shot up and quickly pushed past Serah I can't let her get hurt, but something was holding me back. I looked around and saw that she was clinging onto my wrist. "Please Claire say something to me. You never say anything to anyone except her. At least say 'hi' or something to me." She was pleading, I always hate it when she gave me that look but I needed to get away from her or I may be tempted further and I don't want to injure her again. "I'm sorry Serah but I need to get back to my room or she'll get more persistent. I don't want to hurt you." I was starting to feel the tears building up, but I made a promise long ago to never let her see me cry. I pulled my wrist from her and ran to my room and locked the door.

My mom must have heard some of this as I passed her to storming to my room, she always had that worried look on her face when she heard me and Serah talk like that, but my mom's face was the least of my concern. 'Come on, at least stab someone a little. You're no fun ever since you accidently hit Serah and broke her collarbone. Boohoo what about me I have needs too.'

"YOU JUST WANT TO SEE ME SUFFER DON'T YOU?!" The only solace my awful father gave me was letting me lock my door when she came out and wanted me to harm anyone. So I slumped against the door and began to hit my head trying to get her to shut up. 'Oh come off it now, I don't want to watch YOU suffer I want to watch EVERYONE suffer. I want to watch their faces as they see the end of their pitiful existence and if you suffer than that is just icing on the cake.' Why did she have to always punctuate things like that giggling? Why does she want me to suffer?

There was a soft knock on my door. "Light honey, are you okay?" my mom was always so sweet she always tried to make the voice go away. 'Go on tell her to screw off and leave you alone.' "Mom, I'm fine I'm just feeling a little under the weather that's all." I knew that she knew it was a lie but I also knew she wouldn't push me to talk about her. "Okay honey, remember if you need to talk to anyone we are all here for you." She always sounded sad when I would shut her out but she was just like Serah, I loved them too much to hurt or let them know what the voice wants me to do. I struggled to go to my bed so that way I could force myself to sleep. 'Ohh don't be an outright poo just because I started to speak earlier today. Truth be told I could speak to you whenever you are awake but I normally just give you some time to relax and contemplate life.'

"I'm not hearing you!" I said to the empty room but she knew it was directed to her. 'Fine then I'll just start practicing my singing career.' I closed my eyes and tried to go back to sleep as the bitch that lived in my head began to sing 'Mangled.' Luckily enough it was a good song. As the darkness took over I was happy because I knew she could never touch me in my dreams and neither could he.

I awoke some time later; the sun had already begun to set. I could hear Serah yelling at someone. I sighed knowing full well that when there was someone here I wasn't supposed to leave my room and there was only two people who Serah yelled at her annoying boyfriend Snow or her Father but either meant that I don't want to or can't come out of my room and seeing as it is rude to eavesdrop plus I don't care about either of them.

So all I did was wait until Serah eminently would knock on my door. It was a comfort thing because if something got Serah annoyed enough to yell she would come to me. As if on cue just as I got up I heard a knock on the door or rather a heavy pound… it was him. I walked over and unlocked the door and pulled it open slightly to see his disgusting face. 'You know what would make yourself happy and by extension me if you just would straight up and kill him here and now.' 'I'm not going to lie that is very tempting but mom is just behind him and she looks scared.'

"I know we both hate each other but we need to talk so be in the living room in one minute." He said and stormed off. I looked to my mother for some sort of guidance which she always would give or at least translate from jackass to human. "Serah and a few of your friends decided something and he wants you to hear it from her because he knows you won't believe it from him and you know we both love you."

"He has a funny way of showing love then I'd hate to think how he proposed to you." I spat under my breath so she couldn't hear and followed her into the living room where Serah, Hope, Lebreau, Maqui, Yuj, Gabot, even lord block head himself Snow sat pouting in the corner and the lord of douches was nowhere to be seen. 'He probably went to go vent steam by burning something important to you meaning Serah actually yelled at both of them.' 'I thought you were trying to practice your singing?'

'I was but seeing as this is important I decided that you need me to narrate to you for at least the morron plus I kinda ran out of good songs while you slept.' "Light please sit down we need to talk." Lebreau said pointing to the open chair opposite the group. 'uhh this always spell good do you think that they may want to force you into a looney bin or maybe give you a lobotomy' "Claire we got together and even convinced mom and dad that you need to seek some help I talked to the people your old Kendo master Auron suggested she said that she will come by in a tomorrow to talk to you to see how bad you are." Serah knew fully well that I hate it when she called me by my real name in public.

"I'm. Fine. Serah. The voice doesn't bother me all that much." 'Ahh bad Light I know your mother taught you not to lie and we both know you are because I annoy the hell out of you!' "CLAIRE FARRON DON'T YOU DARE LIE TO ME" 'Ohh busted turns out she knows you pretty well.' "I know she bothers you which is why there is everyone here to even if we have to force you to talk to the psych so you might as well be honest starting now Snow and dad are both told by me not to interfere unless it is life threating."

"How did you know I was lying? Plus you know I hate it when you call me that in front of people" I didn't mean to sound so angry but I despise that name because he wanted it and mom didn't think it suit me and she knows something that I don't if she knew I was lying. "Because Claire I know you intentionally shattered your arm to get drugs to shut her up for a few hours so you could function in the outside world and I don't care I'm angry at you right know there is no discussing this, the psych will come and you will tell her the truth and she will decided wither or not you need to go and seek help." How can Serah always sound so terrifying when she wanted to be stubborn, it actually scares me.

"Right well we learned a bit about Light or should I say Claire?" Lebreau said standing up. I just glared at her "Call me that again and I swear to god I will listen to the voice and slaughter all of you!" They all except Serah flinched as they realised how serious I am. "O-o-okay there Light but before we leave Serah made all of us promise that we need you to say truthfully that you will at least talk to the psych." Yuj said raising his hands to defend himself. I still love how I can make them all terrified with just a glare.

"Fine if it means I can get you all to leave I will talk to the psych but I'm not telling them everything." Serah raced up and hugged me I'm trying to fight against her hold on me but I swear when she gets all touchy feely she has incredible arm strength. "That's all I ask of you. Even Auron wants you to get better." Serah said muffled into my shirt. "Fine there I agreed now can you all leave." I said and practically ran back to my room a little safe haven in my chaotic world. I may have agreed to talk to the psych but doesn't mean I'm going to make it easy for him or her or whatever.

Not even an hour after the whole fiasco in the living room my mom poked her head into my asking me if I wanted food but I just faked being asleep. I wasn't in the mood to even see my dad and Serah right now but I wasn't going to say that to her she barely accepts the fact I loathe my dad but if I said I wasn't in the mood to see Serah I just knew she would cry and I can't handle that even if I was completely sane. Once I heard my door close I let sleep, slowly, take over again hoping it would be eternal.

Author's Note:

This one will be longer then my last one but I do enjoy writing stories involving insane people even when I was doing English in school. Again let me know what you think about it

Timmydog Out B)