My December, a harry potter fanfic

Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter, and I never will! This is HP/SS. Consider yourself warned.

This is my December
This is my time of the year
this is my December
This is all so clear

Harry Potter sat in the Astronomy Tower on a Saturday night. Apparently he didn't care if he got caught being out after curfew. He already defeated Voldemort so there wasn't anything he considered dangerous now. He watched the snow falling to the ground with a saddened look on his face. He sighed as a tear trickled down his cheek, 'Why did he have to be so weak?' he thought.

This is my December
this is my snow covered home
this is my December
this is me alone

Tomorrow he would put on his fake smile and go back to his fake happy life. Sometimes he wished he wasn't a wizard and he never came to Hogwarts. It has been nothing but hell for him here. He heard someone behind him, light footsteps coming his way. He angrily wiped his tears away and turned around to see who dare interrupt his peace. There stood Severus Snape, the only one he'd ever love.

And I
Just wish that I didn't feel
Like there was something I missed
And I
Take back all the things I said
To make you feel like that
And I
Just wish that I didn't feel
Like there was something I missed
And I
Take back all the things I said to you

"Mr. Potter what in Merlin's name are you doing here at this time of night" Severus walked over to him and looked down on his scrawny figure. Harry gave no answer, "Well?" Severus prompted.

Harry sighed and stood up walking over to the window, "Contemplating suicide sir." Severus gasped and placed his hand on Harry's shoulder, "why?" Was all that the professor could choke out. "My life is nothing but hell, might as well live there. Besides no one would notice anyway."

"No one notice. You're the Boy-Who-Lived, of course they would!" Severus tightened his grip on Harry's shoulder. "Exactly!" Harry screamed. "They would notice the Boy-Who-Just-Wouldn't-Fucking-Die! But who would notice if Harry died?" Harry looked up at Severus with tears in his eyes. "Who?"

And I give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to
Give it all away
To have someone to come home to

This is my December
These are my snow covered dreams
This is me pretending
This is all I need

Severus looked into those emerald green eyes. 'So much like Lily, not at all like James' the Potions Master thought. Finally he broke down, "I would," he said through tears of his own. Harry looked at him as if he were crazy, "what?" Severus smiled, "I said that I would notice if Harry died." Harry looked back out the window.

"When I was little I used to sit in my cupboard and wonder what it was like to be loved, what it was like to have a family, what it was like to be normal, and what it was like to watch the snow. I've only known one of those things, I think I've played in the snow too much lately." Severus frowned, 'a cupboard?' he thought.

"Well Harry, yes I just called you Harry, you've always been loved." Harry looked up at him confused. "Not just by your adoring fans either." Severus bent down to capture Harry's lips with his own.

Harry pulled back and sighed, "I have to be dreaming" he said as more tears came. "Harry what's the matter? You don't love me, I should have known." Severus put his façade back up. "I'm sorry for wasting your time Mr. Potter, Oh and it would make more of an impact if you screamed while falling out of the window." He said harshly. Harry winced at those words. He knew Severus could never love him. Harry sighed as Severus began to leave. "I do love you Severus Snape."

Severus stopped dead in his tracks and turned around, "No need to lie Potter, I'm the cold hearted bastard remember, I don't have feelings" Severus sneered, "besides what would make you think I want you" Severus knew the words were hurtful but it was his way to make himself hurt less. Severus turned around and left. Harry broke into sobs as he looked at the window he began to sing, "And I give it all away just to have somewhere to go to give it all away to have someone to come home to"

He sighed and climbed onto the windowsill, looking down he saw Severus. His heart began to beat faster. "This is my December," he whispered.

This is my December
This is my time of the year
This is my December
This is all so clear

And I give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to
Give it all away
To have someone to come home to

Harry took one step and let himself fall out of the Astronomy Tower, and just for effect, he screamed all the way down.