Title: Amnesia
Rating: G, loss
Pairing / Characters: Ishida Uryuu / Inoue Orihime
Word Count: 319 words
Warnings: Spoilers for the manga, can't remember what chapter
Summary: Ishida supposes it's like amnesia
A/N: I listened to Hoshimura Mai's 'Sakura Hiyori' at least five times during the writing hereof. It's a beautiful song…
FOR CELLI, AND FOR ALAENA NIGHT. ENJOY.
Ishida supposes its like amnesia – no matter how he tries, all he can remember is the little things.
The sweep of her gloriously bright hair.
A faint, lingering scent of perfume on his hands.
Her eyes, sparkling with tears of joy.
The shape of her hands.
Each is a precious, crystalline memory, because they are all he has left of her. Ishida wonders if it's pathetic that he only has memories to keep her alive in his mind.
At night, when the darkness closes in on him, he believes he can hear her faint laughter on the breeze, and he thinks that she's haunting him, a sad little ghost in need of saving. In those moments, he knows that the most pathetic thing is not his memories of her, but that he just can't save her.
No matter how much he wills it, Ishida can't follow where she's gone.
Perhaps, it really is amnesia. Her chair lies empty now, her table covered with a light layer of dust. Ishida can no longer look out of the window because there's a gaping hole where she used to be, and it hurts more than he cares to admit. Besides, even if he did, it wouldn't bring her back.
He isn't sure anything can.
If it is amnesia, then the two who took her are the dreaded disease that caused it. Ishida knows that he's powerless to do anything about it. Love doesn't make you strong, in a way, it makes you weaker than anything else could. Losing his Quincy powers made him feel defenseless, losing her made him feel helpless.
The trouble is, it's not amnesia, not really.
The memories are there, but he's buried them. Ishida doesn't want to remember, he's afraid that they will destroy him, taunt him with the knowledge of what he's lost.
Inoue is gone. She's gone, and he doesn't know if she'll ever come back.