Disclaimer: All characters in this story associated with Twilight, New Moon or Eclipse are sadly, not my own, but creations of the fabulous Stephanie Meyer.

Summary: The story begins right at Bellas transformation into a vampire. She has an enormous amount of bloodlust that she finds hard to control, and it begins to eat away at her relationship with Edward and the rest of her family. Bloodlust becomes her very existence, rather than Edward. With the help of Carlisle, Esme, Alice, Jasper, Rosalie, Emmett and of course, Edward Cullen, can she go back to being the same Bella the Cullens know and love? MUCH BETTER THAN THE SUMMARY SOUNDS!

Authors Note: Hello! This is my first fanfiction ever… so please go easy on me! I humbly ask that you kindly bestow upon me the honor of your reviews. Read and enjoy!!

Betas Note: Hello! This is Breathe Bella speaking (writing?)! As Vampyrrhic Victory's beta, I expect you to worship this almighty author with your glorious reviews filled with praise and love! Please and thank you!

BELLAS POV

"Are you sure you're ready for this?" Edward asked, not even attempting to hide the fear and reluctance in his voice. "We could wait another year… or even until you graduate college! Bella please…"

I put my index finger to his lips to quiet his worrisome ranting. "Edward, I want this more than anything in the world. Please, I don't think I can wait any longer."

He nodded silently with a tortured sorrow in his eyes "I love you, my sweet, beautiful Bella."

"I love you too, Edward. I always have and I always will. Please don't worry about me. I promise you, this is what I want.

Carlisle opened the door slowly. "How do you feel, Bella?"

"I'm ready as I'll ever be!"

Carlisle looked to Edward, sending him a though.

Edward took a long, deep inhalation. "I can only hope so, Carlisle." He turned to me. "This is going to hurt, love. It's going to hurt a lot. And I'm sorry I have to do this. I love you."

"I love you, too." He leaned down and kissed my lips gently. Then, he turned to Carlisle, exchanging a nod.

"You'll do fine, son."

Edward leaned over me, and I winced as his teeth lacerated my wrists. The venom there was only starting to burn.

"You're doing great." I heard Carlisles placid voice. "Now her ankles."

Edwards cold hands lightly gripped my calves as he made searing incisions in my ankles. I groaned and squirmed. The venom was seething under my skin. I let out an unintentional scream.

Edwards voice was distressed. "Carlisle…"

"You know how this happens. She will be fine, just finish her neck and soon enough she will be asleep."

I knew this would be the most painful cut. He pushed the hair gently away from my neck and kissed the spot before he sliced into it.

The pain was horrible. I could feel the venom burning through me. I was writhing and convulsing on the bed and screaming in pain. My heart was beginning to slow.

Thud. Thud. Thud… Thud…… Thud……….

Edwards distressed, horrified voice was slowly fading into the background and the high-pitched ringing in my ears was becoming prominent, wracking my brains and making me hold my ears. I could hear myself scream.

"Carlisle, what do we do?!" Edward was screaming, but it reached my ears as only a whisper, barely audible over the ringing. I could feel myself going into unconsciousness. A sudden pang – my heart must have stopped – and I slipped into the last slumber I would ever have.

EDWARDS POV

She was asleep now. Every once in a while she would squirm or whimper, but it was far more bearable than before. It had been quite a few hours since the change was initiated, and I hadn't left this room once. Mostly, I had been alone, with the exception of Carlisles occasional visits to make sure that her change was preceding normally.

This was the most nerve-wracking day of my long, long life. Bellas pain was my pain, and seeing her writhing in agony ripped my cold, dead heart from my chest.

I only hoped that she made the right choice; that she wouldn't take one look at us and the way we live and wish she had never been changed in the first place. Or worse yet, wish she had never met me! I was pacing the room, going through all the possibilities in my head when Jasper opened the door slowly and poked his head into the room.

"Edward, please… your anxiety is overwhelming."

"I know, Jasper. I'm sorry, I'm just so worried about her. Don't you think she should have woken up by now? She was in so much pain. And what if she doens't like being a vampire? Or what if she doesn't like me?..."

And then, Jasper's palm collided with my cheek. He'd never done that before!

"Jasper!" I stuttered, holding my cheek, "You just… I can't believe you… WHAT?!"

Jasper shrugged. "You were in hysterics."

Silently, I took my seat in the arm chair next to Bellas bed. "I needed that, didn't I?"

He nodded in response.

"Thanks."

"Your welcome. You know Bella will love you no matter what. She loves you more than anything in the world. She knows well what is to come and there was not an ounce of fear in her body. Alice has seen everything. Bella will be fine."

"I know… I just love her so much. I can't keep my mind from dwelling on it."

"Dwelling on what."

I whipped my head around to see my beautiful Bella, sitting up in her bed, smiling back at me.

"Bella! How are you feeling?"

"Like a vampire."

I lay down next to her and held her close to me. I sighed when I realized the absence of her heartbeat. "You look beautiful as ever, my Bella. I love you."

"I love you too Edward. And now, I will be able to be with you forever."

Despite my doubt, her words were music to my ears. I swept her dark hair from her face and pulled her close to kiss her. Her lips were as soft and smooth as ever. They traveled over mine so perfectly. This kiss was so full of meaning and love and passion. It was a kiss that said 'I will love you for all eternity'.

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Author's Note: I'd like to thank the academy, and all the little people, and my wonderful Beta, Breathe Bella! Love you!