Jealous Guy, a victorious fanfic

Jealous Guy

AN: HEY! This is my first Victorious fic, hope you enjoy it

DISCLAIMER:I DO NOT OWN VICTORIOUS

Jade POV

I was dreaming of the past

and my heart was beating fast

I began to lose control

So maybe I treated you more like a slave than a boyfriend but if you remember how we used to be before Vega came along and if you had realized our relationship was deteriorating before our very eyes, you would understand how I felt and why I acted like a gank.

I thought acting tougher on you will make you realize you want someone strong willed and not girly like Vega, ugh, even her name makes me want to puke. Anyway I guess somewhere along the lines of getting you back, I lost myself...

I didn't mean to hurt you

I'm sorry that I made you cry

Oh I didn't wanna hurt you

I'm just a jealous guy

Yes, I know I acted childish but what else could I do Beck? You didn't seem to care about me anymore or care about how I feel. You know I'm...I can't believe I'm saying this, but you know I'm really sensitive. I'm sorry for being jealous but it was my love for you. I didn't want to lose you

I was feeling insecure

You might not love me anymore

I was shivering inside

I know you're probably thinking what on Earth am I talking about, but Beck, I saw how you looked at her, I saw how you would jump to her aid in a snap of the fingers. But I guess while I was focusing on what you were doing for Vega, I didn't realize what you were doing for me until it was too late...I was terrified of losing you Beck, more terrified than when I saw you kissing Vega on her first day at Hollywood Arts

I didn't mean to hurt you

I'm sorry that I made you cry

Oh I didn't wanna hurt you

I'm just a jealous guy

I know I really have to deal with my insecurity and trust issues and against what everyone thinks including you, my father doesn't abuse me, the only reason he is so cold on the outside is because he never dealt with my mother's death, yeah, I never told you but my mom passed away after our first year together, that's why I wasn't able to make it to the anniversary dinner you planned, sorry about missing that by the way

I didn't mean to hurt you

I'm sorry that I made you cry

No I didn't wanna hurt you

I'm just a jealous guy

Reason a hammer was my favorite toy as a child? it was a way for me to take out my sadness which turned into frustration over the fact that my parents spent so much time at work, trying to avoid beding caught in the middle of my grand parents fights and I unfortunately had to hear and see said fights

I was trying to catch your eyes

I thought that you were trying to hide

I was swallowing my pain

And watching my grandparents fights made me grow up with this idea of the only way to keep your one true love around, was to keep them on their toes, so when you drifted further away from me, I did what I do best, push people away, I didn't wanna let you in anymore and I kept hiding my pain

Oh I didn't mean to hurt you

I'm sorry that I made you cry

No I didn't wanna hurt you

I'm just a jealous guy

Yes I know it seems like I'm trying to justify my stupid actions but I'm not, I just thought you deserved to know and this stays between us because if you do go showing everyone I will deny writing this and you WILL go missing

I'm just a jealous guy

So in closing I'd like to say I'm sorry for my behavior and I am and will always be totally and hopelessly inlove with you Beckett James Oliver

Signed, Jadelyn August West

AN: Yeah, that's it... please read and review!