A/N: Starts a few weeks after the season three finale. Every thing from the finale happened. And we all know Grey's belongs to Shonda. This is my AU take on what could happen. Enjoy and comment.

She couldn't believe this was happening. She couldn't be. She wanted to cry. Stupid hormones. This was the worst thing that could be happening to her. She was pregnant. Pregnant and alone.

"What are you going to do" Meredith asked.

"Can we just not talk about it," Cristina said letting out a frustrated groan. "I just don't wan to talk about it" she sighed as she walked out of the bathroom.

She didn't know what she was going to do. A Baby. She couldn't believe she was pregnant. A baby complicated things. She would actually have to make an effort in talking to him. That is if she kept the baby. He would never know. But she knew that he would find out. He wasn't supposed to know the last time, and the he managed to find out.

This was different then the last time though. There was too much hurt this time. A child deserved better than two parents who didn't love each other anymore. She grew up with that and the bitter memories of her childhood had made her into the unlovable and cold person she was told she was today. A child deserved better.

It wasn't like she wanted to be a mother. Kids were never part of her life plan. Though neither was love. Love and children were like the plague. She didnt want either of then and somehow they both became apart of her life.

"I just can't," she said aloud as Meredith walked into the room. "I can't do this by myself."

"You can do this, and you wont be by yourself. You'll have me. You will always have me," Meredith said as she sat on the couch next to Cristina. "I'm sure Izzie would help and Alex has been around a lot lately, I'm sure we can make him do something.

"What about Bur…," she stopped herself. She wasn't ready to admit that he would be the father of her child. "What about the father?" she finally let out.

"We can tell him together," Meredith said understanding that her friend was still hurting from the failed wedding.

"Or we could not tell him at all" Cristina said. Knowing that the only way for that to happen was for her to leave. And Meredith would never let that happen.

"Don't you think he'd figure it out when your stomach gets bigger?" she asked.

Groaning "Don't remind me." She said. "I'm going to be that fat pregnant girl who cares again."

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"You look like hell" Alex said watching Cristina get changed into her scrubs.

"Thanks" She said sarcastically "Stop watching me change its freaking me out"

"Just wanted to see if you've gained any weight" he said

"Well stop it" she snapped. "I can't believe Meredith told you, I'm going to kill her."

"She just told me to make sure that our okay" Alex said before walking away.

Sitting down on the bench in the locker room waiting for a wave of nausea to pass, morning sickness was not being kind to her at all. She just hoped that she would make it through the day without anyone noticing. She needed to make it though a least another month without anyone noticing. She needed time to figure things out. She had to find a way to tell him that he was going to be a father.

They were going to have to figure out a way to be parents and still not be together because she wasn't sure she could ever forgive him for what he did.