Disclaimer: I don't own anything, Shonda Rhimes does. None of these are written for money. But if I have one wish its not to own them but be her… *cough* be Owen's Cristina *cough*

This me not being a fluffy kid, to be honest its easier for me to be like this. I'll be brutally honest I'll be deleting this fic once the season starts. This is me releasing the craziness inside my body. I just really have to get this story out of my system. The story happens right after the season five finale.

I dedicate this to all Kevin Mckidd Fans like me, for I pledged my heart to your wonderful shoulder blades. (sorry for my... that…)

Rated T for now it expect it to change to M on the future chapters.

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Part One: The Cold Rain

Life is fragile, just one wrong move, it can just fly out of the door.

"Clear!"

"Just hold on Izzie!"

"Still no pulse!"

"Clear!"

Nobody knows when it will end or how will it end.

"He's crashing…"

"O'Malley stay with us, you hear me. Stay with us!"

"Scalpel…"

One snap, you're gone like you never existed.

"Izzie, you cant die, okay?! You hear me you CANT DIE!"

"Clear!"

But if you have the chance to know when you will end, will that change how you lived your life?

Life it's fragile, then what?

"Cristina what happened?" Meredith slowly approached her, her own body still in shock but the sight of Cristina made her worry. Sitting down the floor, her face defeated. Her eyes puffy, red rims around it. "Did Izzie?..." Meredith's voice trailing off.

"No she's fine, she crashed but she's fine now. She stabilized now, but we're still observing, I've been paging Shepard but he's not answering and he was at surgery," Cristina's voice was throaty.

"John Doe is…" Meredith cutting Cristina mid sentence as her tears starts to well up.

Cristina stood up grabbing Meredith's shoulder, "What?"

"George…"

"What?" Cristina now shaking Meredith. "WHAT HAPPENED?! DAMN IT MER TELL ME!!!"

"He's fine… They're both fine, Oh my God Cristina, we almost lost them…"

Nothing else was spoken. As both their legs gave in they sat on the floor tears running down there faces ant their arms around each other. They knew what could have happened, them losing their closest friends forever. They might not have been graceful about it all the time but those two people, Isobel Stevens and George O'Malley is their family, their self made family.

Dr Bailey came out the room of Izzie seeing the sight of her former babies, crying out loud, their bodies shaking with anguish, there's emotions out of control. As her own tears well up, she approach them taking their hands.

"Come on now stand up, get some rest. Go to the nearest on call room, stay there," Bailey's voice is not ordering even though all she want is force her girls to do what she asked but all he can do is plead.

"I need to see Derek, you can go ahead," Meredith said to Cristina.

Cristina just nodded then started to walk. She didn't know where to go. Her feet started to drag itself going towards nowhere. As her feet began running, still going towards nowhere her thoughts run wild on the sight, the vision on her father death.

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"Dr Bailey, do you know where Dr Yang may be?"

"She might be at the on call room at the second floor," Dr Bailey said to Owen

Owen cant think of nothing else but Cristina. He knew how it felt like losing friends and the feeling of knowing you might lose them. He knew how much pain it can be and he knows that Cristina is feeling that now. This is not my savior complex, he chanted to himself. He knew it was true this is not him saving Cristina from whatever pain she is feeling this is him just want to be there, for her.

Owen been to every on call room even to the vent but Cristina was no where to be found. His mind started to run wild, panic building in his chest.

"Cristina!" He called out didn't care anymore what ever people may think of him. Now running in the corridor he saw Meredith and Derek on the conference room, Derek consoling Meredith. He didn't even bother to knock.

"Do you know where Cristina is? I've already page her and called her phone but no one is answering," Owen almost shouted, desperation written on his voice.

Meredith just looked up and shook her head her voice still too constricted by her cries to be able to talk.

Owen started running again.

Damn it Cristina where the hell are you? Don't you dare do anything stupid!

When he reached the stair leading to the roof the saw a shoe, he knew who's shoe it is, Cristina's. He took two steps at a time as he climbed up, Don't tell me she…

At the roof, with its cold breeze and light rain shower Cristina was at a corner , one shoe still on her. She held her legs with her arms. Her loud cries covered by the sound of drizzling rain. Her eyes still crying, her body rocking back and forth. Owen slowly approached her. The sight of the woman he loves so defeated was death to him. He'd rather dream of his past at Iraq than seeing her like that. The strong woman who willing stays on his side even though his soul is still the dark, Cristina who willing loves him even though he is all broken up... Cristina the person who made him complete.

Cristina looked up meeting Owen's eyes. No words came out of there mouth but as a new tear fell down Cristina's eye Owen kneeled in front of her taking her into his arms. Owen wanted nothing more then to take of her pain, protect her from the cold breeze or anything that may harm her.

Slowly he placed her on his lap his arms still around her. Cristina cried louder as she placed her face at his chest clings her fingers on his shirt not knowing what to hold on to. Owen sat there kissing her hair, holding back his own tears. He cannot bear seeing Cristina like this, it torn him completely.

"DON'T YOU DARE DIE! DO YOU UNDERSTAND ME OWEN HUNT DON'T YOU DARE DIE!!!" Cristina started screaming. She continued to chant those words shrieking at first then it started to plead.

"I promise," Owen answered every time she muttered her plea, nodding at the same time.

Owen held Cristina's face and placed his lips to hers. As she kissed back the need to knowing that he is there and will never leave her washed all over her mind. When the kiss ended they stay there nothing more said.

As the rain stopped Cristina drifted, she fell asleep on Owen's arms her body so exhausted. He scooped carefully her caring her not wanting to shake her out of her sleep.

I promise I will be here, not just for forty years but forever.

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End of Part One

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