5 years…

It had been 5 years since she had seen him, face-to-face anyway, she had seen him on TV she made time so she could watch him on TV because it was the closest she could get to him.

Kate Beckett sat on her couch in her empty, dark living room staring out at nothing. She had her bag behind her and was ready to fly across the country. She doesn't know what come over her with Lanie and Javier asked her and Ryan to go with them to Africa to help with the children. But she wanted a brake and a chance to get Richard Alexander Rogers off her mind.

'God I'm pathetic… It's been FIVE YEARS Kate! Do you really think he is coming back?' She thought to herself then pulled the blanket a bit closer to her neck and snuggled into it. She was tried but didn't want to get cold while getting up and running to bed where it would be cold to, so she lied her head back and closed her eyes.

"What do you mean you have to leave?" Kate looked into Castles bright blue eyes.

"Kate, I've been here for 4 years I have plenty research. Please don't make this any harder than it already is." He begged.

"Then don't go. If it's going to hurt you to leave why are you going?" Kate was so confused she had no idea what brought this one. He was just happy and smiling 5 minutes before and now he is serious as a heart attack and telling me he's done following me…

"I have to. Okay? I'm sorry." He kissed my cheek, I closed my eyes savouring the feel of his lips on my skin. But when I felt him pull away I opened my eyes to see him walking the over direction… towards the elevator.

He stepped into the little box and turned and smiled at me, she couldn't move, she just started as the closed behind him. And that was the last time she ever saw Richard Castle in person…

Kate woke from a bagging on her door. She was still dressed in her PJs so she run into her room then to the joining bathroom for her robe before running back to the door. Looking though the peephole she saw Javier and Lanie. She sighed.

"Yes?" She asked as she opened the door.

"Come on get dressed we need to do some stuff before going." Lanie said excitedly while she pushed past Kate with Esposito in tow and turned back to Kate.

She groaned. "Fine, fifteen minutes." Kate shuffled back into her room, then bathroom. After closing both doors she striped from her clothes and opened the shower door, turning it on.

She stepped in after it was warm enough and let the stream calm her down.

Waiting at the airport she sat in a plastic blue chair holding onto a nice hot coffee, she was sitting next to Ryan, who brought Jenny, and they were all in gashed into a conversation when we were called to board our plane. This was going to be a long flight and she could feel it.

"You alright, Girl?" Lanie asked at the gate to board.

"Yeah, just thinking." Kate forced smile.

They all walked onto the plane together and toke there appropriate sits.

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