Alright, guys. :D Welcome to my first Kingdom Hearts fanficton! My friend and I were up until 4 in the morning making the ideas for this story, and this is obviously the first chapter.

This will be a looooong story, just so you all know! So get settled in, because when I get around to updating (I'll try to get at least 2 in a month), it'll get longer and longer. Quick note; underlined parts are flashbacks.

I have to give a thanks to my beta (and friend who helped me with the idea): shugo381. She seriously like, is amazing. xD So yes, enjoy reading and please rate and review! It helps the esteem of us writers!

For Reasons Left Unsaid

You're worthless. Absolutely nothing.

It's been like this all day. Normally I don't hear it, but today it is relentless and I can't ignore it. If it keeps up, I swear to god I'm going to fucking...snap.

"Roxas! Pay attention!" My math teacher barks at me for attention, which made me snap my head up from the position I was in, looking up at him with slightly startled eyes. Ouch, I think I tweaked a nerve.

Luckily, he had just yelled at me to copy the assignment that was up on the board, but I had already copied it at the beginning of class and got half of it done while he was going over the lesson. Seriously, this class was too easy for me. Once other people finished writing down the assignment, we had just enough time to put away our books before the bell rang, signaling us for our next class. Thank god mine was lunch, I really needed to have some quiet time. Well, whatever quiet time I could have. I was the first out of the class, adjusting the headphones to my music player and blaring some music to try and drown out the voice. But it piped up over the music and I sighed in response, turning the music up louder. I don't know what the hell was going on today, but it must be important. It just won't shut up.

By now, I was in the lunch line, grabbing myself a soda and going through and making myself a sub, my normal lunch of champions. I pay for it, the lunch coming to a total of $3.50, like it always does. I took one of my headphone bud things out while I walked over to the lunch table I shared with a few friends. Once I sat down, I waved to my friends when I noticed that Riku, badass of the whole school, sitting alone and waiting for Sora to get back there with their lunch. God, I can't stand Riku.

And you ask why I hate him so much? Because he treats my twin brother, Sora like a little maid and it is completely disrespectful. The two of them are dating, for hell's sake! Sora is always telling me about how amazing Riku is, and at the end of every week how long they've been dating and that he's going to marry Riku some day. I really feel bad for my brother, because he's been in love with Riku since our freshman year of high school. It was a complete dare for Riku to go out with Sora from his friends, but he hasn't broken up with him because he 'doesn't want to hurt him.' Bullshit. Just...argh.

"Hey, Rox. Mind paying attention and totally not stare at my face? That's your brother's job," Riku was glaring coldly at me, which made me realize I had been staring for a few seconds while I zoned out. Shrugging, I look away and pop my soda open, taking a sip.

At that moment, Sora came walking up and sat down next to Riku, earning several death glares from girls around us while he set a tray of food down. "Riku, stop being mean to Roxas! Besides, I do not stare!" He was whining the last bit while lightly hitting Riku's chest.

Riku winked down at Sora while wrapping an arm around his wait. He pulled him close, and leaning down to him locked their lips in an incredibly not-school appropriate kiss. It nearly made me gag up my sub that I had started to eat.

"Aw, don't be like that, Sora," Riku practically purred these words as he licked Sora's lips, and I could faintly catch the moan come from them. "You know that you stare sometimes. Besides, the face you made is damn sexy."

"Well it's not my fault you're the most gorgeous guy in school!" Sora protested with a whine, his cheeks flushing to a light pink. Riku only smirked in reply before he let go and the two of them began eating.

After a few good minutes of silence, mainly my silence, Sora swallowed his food and looked over. Tilting his head, his eyes were watching me in concern."Roxas, you okay? You're being even more quiet than usual."

I simply shrugged as I took a sip of my soda, not really knowing a response. While eating, I studied my brother in boredom. His brunette hair was naturally spiky, and is always that way, even when brushed. His eyes are a deeper blue than my own. Really, we don't look alike. The only similarities we have would be our voices and skin tones.

"Yeah, I'm alright," I reply simply, and Sora gave a nod and went back to eating, although he looked over at me every once and a while to make sure I was really was.

After that, nothing exciting really happened. Really, our lunch table is 90% boring, quite sad. Though once we were done eating, Riku decided to assault my brother with kisses once more, and I took the time to leave to put my tray back so I wouldn't have to see any more of it. After I took my tray back to where the kitchen was, I was heading back I heard someone mumbling under their breath. They were calling me an 'emo fag.' Normally when people insulted me, I just walked past. But like I've said before, today is different.

"Excuse me?" I spoke harshly, turning to the table where the person had called me, and of course it just had to be the one person who seemed to be out for me with every move he made. Hayner. He smirked and stood up, placing his hand on the table and leaning forward to seem more intimidating.

"You heard me, I called you an emo fag. Because that's all you are."

"Oh yes, I'm the fag. I've seen you making out with Pence about a dozen times on my way home from school." I smirk as I finish, crossing my arms over my chest.

By now, most people in the tables around us were watching with excited murmurs and gazes, calling over people from other tables to come see. In my peripheral vision, I saw Sora watching me with a worried expression, clinging to Riku, who was smirking while watching us fight. Riku and Hayner were in the same clique, which is a reason why I hate both of them.

Hayner stood up straight, glaring down at me viciously to try and scare me. "How the fuck would you know that? Besides, it probably turns you on."

At this, I couldn't help but burst out in laughter, shaking my head back and forth before looking up at him, clenching one of my fists. I noticed him shift slightly at this as I countered.

"Oh yes, because seeing you pretty much rape Pence excites me to all extents. I had to change my pants because seeing you like that just made me jizz in my god damn pants."

The next thing I knew I was laying flat on the ground, and pain rushes through the side of my face. Growling, I got myself up and before anyone could get a hold of me, punched him as hard as possible in his gut, making him double over in pain, coughing. Oh, but I didn't stop my assault there. I knocked him over and pinned him before repeatedly punching him in the face, chest, anywhere I could hit. People all around us were yelling, calling over teachers, but the two of us were focused in on each other.

Suddenly, a scene popped into my head and I stopped beating the shit out of Hayner, frozen.

A random man had another, younger person pinned down under them and was just going at them, much like I had been a few moments ago. I couldn't see the person who was getting beat up very well, because tears were streaming down my face and I was struggling to get over to help him, but I was being held back by someone else.

"No, let him go! He didn't do anything to you! Stop it!"

I recognized this as my voice, my voice from when I was a little kid. It continued on like this, someone very close to me getting the shit beat out of them and I couldn't do anything. I didn't even know who it was, all I could see was a bit of their hair, it was a bright red.

"Roxas, Roxas! Calm down, it's alright!" Sora was yelling, shaking me to bring me back to the present time. I heard loud screaming, and after a few moments I realized it was mine, I was screaming my lungs off and gripping my hair tightly. Slowly, I managed to calm down, though I couldn't help myself from shaking uncontrollably.

Looking up at my brother, my shaking slowed down enough so I could speak. "Sora, it wasn't his fault, I swear...!" I could tell that I wasn't fully aware yet, as could Sora because his eyebrows furrowed in confusion.

"What do you mean? Who's he?"

I shook my head and curled into myself, trying to calm down. I was so confused right now, and my head was throbbing from when I had been knocked against the ground. I peered over to my side to see a group of people around Hayner, who was unconscious and bleeding at the lip. This made me laugh slightly.

Sora managed to help me up and was starting to lead me to the nurse's office before I grabbed my head and groaned. I could faintly hear Sora asking me what was wrong, but I was drifting away into a sea of unconsciousness.

You couldn't even save him from being taken away like that.

I remembered my last thought. 'What do you mean?' But then I blacked out in my brother's arms.