BPOV

I was getting for Alice to pick me up for the wedding. Last night I had the weirdest dream that Jacob and I had sex. I woke up crying because I miss Jacob so much and I want him to come home. I know that Jacob has been gone for 2 and ½ months now but I just need him home. Right now I don't even think I can go on with the wedding without him. I blame Edward and myself for not telling Jacob about the wedding or me changing right after we got married.

Now I feel so alone. Like when Edward left there was hole inside my chest, now there's an even bigger hole without Jacob in my life. All I can think about is Jacob. His smile, muscles, laugh, voice and most of all his lips. Alice said she would pick me up around 1:00. It's already a quarter to 12 I'm so tired but I'm ready. I decided to lie on my bed and think about what I was giving up. Maybe getting married to Edward isn't a great idea. If getting married to him means no kids, or reliving high school or college all over again then maybe living a vampire life isn't for me.

If I had kids with Jacob, I could just imagine what our kids would look like. Having a combination of my pale skin and Jacob's russet skin, my eyes, Jacob's smile and hair. When I was deciding between Jacob and Edward, I had a dream about small children with black hair and light russet skin tone running together and playing together, while Jacob and I were watching them. I was snapped out of my concentration when I heard the phone ring.

"Hello?"

"Hi Bella this is Cleo Jacob's sister."

"Oh what can I do for you?" I heard her sigh sadly. "Is everything ok?"

"No not really."

"Is something wrong with Jacob? Have you heard anything?" I started to get worried.

"Well kind of. Jacob might be coming back today to take care of some things then take off."

I was shocked that Jacob might come back; leave, and I'd never see him again.

"Cleo do you know when Jacob might come again?"

"No Bella I don't look I'll call you later or just text me ok?"

"Ok."

As soon as the call ended Alice walked in.

"Bella grab your stuff we have to go!" She shouted

"Ok!"I shouted back.

When I got into Alice's car she asked me if was ready, I told her I was even though I wasn't sure myself. Through the rear view mirror I saw the house that my father and I have lived in for the past two years and saw it fading in the distance.

Okay everyone I am posting a revision on all my chapters,and it may take for not posting anything lately and have had a rough time with family and school so please bear with me.

-JacobandBellaEVer