A/N: So I'm more than a little annoyed at how they left things with Mads and Lenny. I know they weren't everybody's favourite couple but I loved them and feel they at least deserved a proper ending. I need some closure so this story will be my attempt to get that for myself. If anyone else wants to read it then that's a bonus. This is also for monalisa62003 who asked me to write an ending for them. I think this is probably totally different to what you had in mind though so I'm sorry about that. The story totally took on a mind of its own. I hope you enjoy it anyway.

As usual I don't own these characters and this is only for fun.

It was strange coming back to the ED after so long. More than 6 months had passed since she had last seen anyone from the hospital. The only person she had kept in touch with was Zoe and she had begged her not to tell anyone else that they were in contact. At the time she had considered just making a clean break but it had seemed like too much all at once, to sever all ties with a whole part of her life.

The occasional phone call with the doctor had made it easier. She'd been able to find out how everyone was doing. The one person they had never spoken about was Lenny. She couldn't bring herself to ask about him and Zoe had never brought him up. She suspected her friend had taken the cue from her that he really wasn't someone she wanted to talk about. Today as she walked back through the doors she was so glad that Zoe had been able to contact her.

It had only been two hours since she had received the phone call but it felt like an eternity. She had heard the words, "There's been an accident. I'm sorry but it's Lenny," and the world had seemed to switch into slow motion. She still felt as if she was moving through quick-sand now. Zoe had carefully explained that he'd been hit by a speeding car and that the injuries were so severe they weren't sure if he would make it. She had dropped everything and made her way back to Holby as quickly as was humanly possible.

Noel spotted her as she approached the desk in a daze. He moved forward and gathered her in a big hug before he shouted for Zoe.

"How is he?" she asked as soon as the doctor came into view. Noel moved back behind the desk and Zoe took her to one side.

"He's more or less stable for now. His pelvis is shattered and he's severely injured his shoulder. However what we're most worried about are the internal injuries and we won't have a full picture of how severe those are till they operate. They should be ready to take him in for surgery in a few minutes."

Zoe paused for a minute and then spoke again. "Listen is it OK that I called? We don't even seem to have a next of kin on record for him. Yuki was the only other person I could think of and apparently he's out of the country."

"Of course you should have called me. He's my friend."

Zoe looked relieved, "Good, I just wasn't sure. I didn't really know how you'd left things but I didn't want him to be on his own. He just isn't as close to anyone else here now as he was to you."

Mads felt a stab of shame at Zoe's words. She had abandoned her friend. No matter what else Lenny had been to her he had always been there as a friend when she needed him. She'd left him all alone.

"Can I see him?" She was ashamed of the way her voice was shaking. Now wasn't the time to fall apart. She needed to hold it together for Lenny.

"Of course you can," Zoe softly replied. "He's quite groggy though. We've got him on a fair bit of medication. He was very distressed and in a lot of pain. You should prepare yourself. He looks pretty bad."

She steadied herself, "I'm a nurse, and I'll handle it. He needs me now and I have to do this."

She followed Zoe into one of the examination rooms and stopped short as she entered. She'd thought she was ready but this was her Lenny and he barely even looked like himself. It was terrifying. It wasn't the same as dealing with a stranger.

She felt Zoe's hand on her back and she took a deep breath and approached the bed he was lying on. She had never seen him so still. Lenny had always positively hummed with energy and now he was lying in front of her completely broken. As well as the injuries Zoe had mentioned he was pretty beaten up in general. He had numerous abrasions and what looked like some very severe bruising. He was a total mess.

She reached his side and took his hand. Out of the corner of her eye she was aware of Zoe backing away.

"Lenny, it's Mads. I'm so sorry," she whispered.

At that moment she saw him struggling to open his eyes but they closed again almost immediately. When he tried again she realised that she was possibly upsetting him more than anything else and very gently stroked the uninjured side of his face as she spoke again.

"Hey, keep them shut, you need to rest."

"You'll stay?" he mumbled so softly that she could hardly hear him, and her heart tightened in her chest. He sounded so scared.

"Of course I'll stay. We'll put things right. I should never have left but this time I'm not going anywhere, I promise." Her voice broke on the last few words and she felt his fingers grip hers tightly for a moment.

She hoped with all she had that she would have a chance to put things right. If he didn't survive she would never forgive herself for what she had done to him.

When they arrived to take him to surgery she ended up in the lift alongside him.

He wouldn't let go of her hand.

TBC