Out of Goodbyes

by CRene

Kate makes a confession to Rick that causes both of them to look at their relationship differently. And a murder case makes Rick question whether he can trust any woman in his life - past or present.

1. Chapter 1

Title: Out of Goodbyes

Author: CRene

Rating: T

Summary: Kate makes a confession of her own that could destroy her relationship with Castle.

Notes: Story is set in Spring of 2012, everything that has happened since Season 4 Episode 8 has occurred; everything set after is of my own little creation. And this is my first Castle fic, but I have written many other fanfics throughout the years, just never posted them on before.

Disclaimer: Don't own the show, the characters, or the actors, even though I wish I did at times.

Prologue:

"I don't know how to tell him," Kate admitted looking down at her hands clasped in her lap. "I mean we have gotten so much closer the past few months, yet I am keeping this from him."

"Do you think he would leave, if he knew the truth," the psychiatrist wondered.

"I don't know what to think anymore," she whispered wiping away a single tear. "He spent the night with me last night. I had every chance to tell him."

"At our last session, you mentioned that he has spent the night before. Has anything changed?"

"No, I keep pushing him away before we become too intimate."

"Kate, does he know anything about last summer," Dr. Carson Burke asked while scribbling down a few notes.

"He knows that I spent the summer at my father's cabin and that Josh and I broke up."

"But does he know the truth on why you and Josh broke up?"

"Castle told me I push men away because I can't let anyone get too close. He knows until I find who murdered my mother, I can't fully commit to a relationship," Kate explained tearing at the lint on her jeans.

"Kate, if you and Castle are not in a relationship, then what would you call it?"

"I don't know. I know how he feels about me, he has made that clear plenty of times, and I know how I feel about him."

"Then what is stopping you?"

"I can't let go, not until he knows the truth."

"The truth," Dr. Burke interrupts, "about the baby?"

She instantly put her hand over her belly and the tears began to fall. She couldn't hide the loss any longer- the loss of her mother, Captain Montgomery, or her baby – the dam had finally burst.