I never believed in dreaming or having my dreams come true, it never got too far than just a simple thought.

I never really thought that I would fall this deeply in love with anyone. Yes, I said it. Im in love. This isn't the typical high school crush, this feels a lot deeper than that. More than just a simple crush.

I never believed about the thoughts I had. A thought that became so real to me and scary at the same time. It was hard for me to come to terms with who I was. But, I had a best friend who was there for me through the good times and bad.

And he was also there to guide me, and giving me the best advice a friend could give the other. Sonny Kiriakis, who is my best friend, is the one person that I am talking about. Yes, I'm in love with him. And because of him, he has given me so many things to be proud of. I believe in him just like the way he believes in me.

When he came into my life, he gave me a whole new perspective and point of view on life. And just because we are the way we are, doesn't make us any different. Just like what Sonny's dad told him: Rejecting your son for being gay, is like rejecting him for having brown eyes.

I'm glad that I got mom to finally see things almost similar to that. It took her a while to come to terms with me. But honestly, I am just happy that I can now be more of myself, and I don't have to carry that secret any more.

I'm still the same person I was when I came out to my friends and family. A few however, have been treating me different. And one specific person being T. I never really knew that he would be that bigoted about it. I mean come on, its the 21st century man.

I remember when it had taken more than two times for him to finally get a hold of reality. I especially, loved when Victor came in to the Pub to tell him off. I was close to doing it myself. But Sonny's uncle Victor is amazing when it comes to telling people off.

Being on one certain day after the explosion. That day, I hadn't realized that Sonny was looking for me until he told me. I also remember him telling me that he called and texted my phone a few times. But when I did check my phone, it was pretty much damaged.

It was because of me, I pushed him away. It was because of me, I saw him with Brian. Everything that happened that night, was pretty much because of me. And to tell you the truth, I'm glad that I saw him that night. Because a part of me knew, that I was way out of his league and he definitely does not deserve someone as messed up as me.

Another one of those days, was when I didn't go on a date that we planned. Don't get me wrong, but I wanted to so bad. I hadn't flaked out, I was just angry with myself. And also, partly because his mom is right about me. I'm not good enough, and I never will be.

I don't know how many times I would tell him that. I don't know how many times I have to hear him say that despite all my flaws and 'baggage' he still wanted to be with me. The truth, well, let's just say I am so glad to have him in my life right now.

We have gone from being just friends, to being a couple. We have known each other for almost a year. His friendship means a lot to me, and means so much. He means so much. I love Sonny with all my heart, and I wouldn't trade my love for him for anything in the world.

I know sometimes my insecurities get the best of me. But to tell you the truth,, I kind of like having them. Because then, I can hear the constant 'I love you's' from Sonny, and hearing him telling me that I am worth everything. And that I mean the world to him.