What's In Me (Sara's POV)
Post 'Built To Kill part I'
disclaimer: I own nothing of CBS. I only have my health, my guitar, biology and my laptop. Plus my motor bike that takes me around.My fault. I should have been there.
But I wasn't. This time I wasn't there for her.
And it will forever burn in my soul that it was my fault.
"Catherine, you going somewhere?"
"Yeah, Nicky and I are going to the club. You want to come?"
"Uh, no. I'm heading... out. You two have fun."
"Nick heard that John Mayer is going to be there."
"Thanks, but I got things to do. Maybe next time."
"You always say that, Sara."
"Really, next time."
"Okay then."
"Have fun, Catherine."
"Promise you'll come next time?"
"I promise I'll be there next time, Catherine."
"Alright, Sara. Next time then. Oh, here comes Nick."
Hey, Nick! Take care of Catherine."
"You know I will, Sara."
God, I hate Nick. I hate him for leaving her alone.
I would have never left her.
But I did. That night I did.
For what?
For a fucking night with Grissom.
I left her all alone to be with Grissom.
Why?
To forget the feelings I have for her.
I needed someone to help me forget her for awhile.
To hell with Nick. To hell with Grissom...To hell with me.
My fault.
I should have never left her.
I never will again. Never again will I make that mistake.
She may not see it now. But someday she will realize that I will always watch over her.
Even if it takes another six years...
God, I hate what's in me.
okay...pour it out. rain your comments...